The Dark Knight!~

WOOOOOO HOOOOOOO,finally finished watching Batman : The Dark Knight.After watching this show,there is only one word that i am capable of expressing , WOW.Really,this movie does deserve the 5 star rating after all.Again,as what most of the comments by people who watched this show beforehand said, it is indeed very true.The Joker,played by Heath Ledger,has truly stolen the limelight of the show.

Storywise, it is quite complicated but meaningful at the same time.Truly splendid.Heck,words alone aren't enough to express the superiority of this show.At first , i was really wondering ,how could a movie where the superhero , who doesn't possess any superhuman powers at all,could earn an exclusive 5 star rating.After watching it, i understood it completely.It was the cast, the briliance performance, and the mesmerizing storyline...The message that they want to deliver is clear at the end of the show and it is truly worth pondering about it.


Alright ,enough for the movies,for those people who wants to watch a great movie, i am sure , this would be good enough to amaze you ^^. Next,after the movie ,i headed to the Bon Odori festival in Esplanade with several friends.Haha , i wasn't expecting it at all.I mean ,seriously, after the movie, i was initially planning to head home straight but then again, the idea of heading to a rare festival associated with japanese culture that was only been held once per year , is seriously too attractive to miss.So,with that in mind, i headed out to Esplanade by bus lol.

Upon arriving at Esplanade, there was already a lot of people there.At that time, it was only around 7 p.m. Well, somehow , we went out of Esplanade to search for kopitiam nearby to look for food lol.Without realising ,we already walked for nearly 40 minutes and was walking nearer and nearer to komtar.Ok,once we got our stomach full ( well not exactly full ), we headed back to Esplanade by... well you guessed it, WALKING again ^^ haha. And phew... it was an exhiliarating journey i must say.

By the time we reached there again , WOW, the amount of people there almost increased threefold.Large doesn't even begin to describe the insane amount of people there.It will be almost impossible to want to meet anyone there XD.Haha never knew this Bon Odori festival is that popular.It was a nice journey,walking in insanely large crowds, enjoying the japanese cultures.. ( There are quite a number of people wearing kimonos ,even some guys wear it lol )Best of all, i get to know how vast is this world.It was only a festival,and yet there are this big amount of people.Imagine the Penang island i am living in.Imagine Malaysia, imagine the whole world !At around 10, i went home at last.Here ends my journey for today.It was truly a fun and worth remembering day.I did enjoy it a lot ^^. Alright,thats all for now.Time to take some nap.Good Night.

Another day

Listening to :Yuki-Dramatic *Piano Version*

The same mundane things happened in school again.So,yeah , i wouldn't wanna talk about school things as nothing interesting seems to be happening around. Oh yeah, today i attended two AGM(Annual General Meeting ) for the Buddhist club and Shaolin Wushu club.During the meeting,i realised something that attracted my attention.Yes,it is none other than their speech,or to be precise,their impromptu speech.Some of them are capable of great impromptu speech,simply go out there and start talking with great confidence as if everything was well prepared long ago.

Expressing theirselves in such a loud and clear manner,it is truly a feat that only some are capable of.Their speeches can be easily understood too.And then again , i see some of them that are incapable of delivering such convincing speech but hey, who am i to judge them while i myself is incapable of even expressing myself clearly.

However,i realised it too that in order to survive in this cruel world,and to give good impressions during interviews , i need to be more open-minded and eliminate the fear to talk.I need to be able to talk convincingly and express myself clearly.And of course,i need to be able to completely dismiss my stage fright and fear to talk to ppl,a.k.a "paisehness" or shyness.

From what i have been experience for years,it seems that i am actually capable of delivering good speech and can talk.(well at least thats what i think )In msn for example, lol i can talk better in this virtual world than real world.That's definitely a fact that i am pretty sure most of my friends will notice.Argh...for that reason, i strive to improve on my speech delivering abilities and eliminate my shyness!!!

Alright,move on to next thing.Just now, i was studying a little and i notice one particularly trivial matter.Hmm...whats the real point of studying this subjects?And to memorise nearly all of the experiments and facts?Well , honestly i don't really see the point here.Why would anyone want to read and memorise if not all, most of the facts and experiments in biology syllabus unless one would aim to be a doctor?Yeah,for someone like me, someone who particularly not interested in medicine, i don't get it at all.

Then again, it is all for the sake of scoring an A1 in SPM.A's are afterall what the society nowadays demands ,is it ? Who knows? One more thing, SPM is also a thing about luck.Yes,luck again.This can be well portrayed by the creation of paper 3 in science courses.The part regarding experiments that is.You can't expect us students to MEMORISE ALL the experiments in the book right?Especially when there are almost hundreds of them when combined (ok maybe i am exaggerating but the amount should be large enough to intimidate any normal students)That is just plain stupid.If students are expected to memorise and understand everything in the books,then i don't see why we need teachers anymore.Students could might as well be the teachers themselves.So,thats why i said SPM do depends on luck too.Luck that the sections that one read come out.Luck that the experiment that one memorise is in the exam And luck that the markers of your examination people isn't in pissed off mood when he/she is marking your paper

Enough rantings, i bet most of you don't even understand what i am crapping about in the above rants.If you do,wow gratz, you are a genius as i myself have no idea what i had just crapped.So much for the aim to express myself clearly zzz.

O.o, i forget to mention ,tomorrow,oops it is already past 12 .erm.. yeah so today, i will go and watch Batman:The Dark Knights in Queensbay.With it's 5 star rating, it is sure to be awesome.I do hope i can watch it ^^.Today,there are two major events will be happening too.The YE (Young Enterprise ) sales in Queensbay and Bon Odori (a japanese festival or culture in Malaysia) in Esplanade.Sigh i wish i can go for both but lets see what will be installed for me... It all depends on luck again ^^.

Of living a great life.

Listening to:Tainaka Sachi-Saikou no Katamoi

"In solitude,surrounded by complete darkness ,accompanied only by the melody of musics, i stay there.As i sank deeper into the abyss of darkness, i saw a shining ray of hope.A hand reaching out from the shadow pulling me away from the darkness.I say thanks, and a heavenly voice said "That's what friend's are for " "

To be honest, the quote above is quite irrelevant with what i am doing now except the part where i am in a dark room , accompanied only by my songs.Yeah, here i am, near the midnight, waking up just to blog.Hey,i couldn't help it.It is just my instinct that pushes me to do this.Anyway,as i was listening to music , i started thinking again.

On daytime, i was the naughty,loud,noise-making idiot that goes around causing uproars all over the place.Sometimes,i will be rather down or emotional on daytime, or otherwise you will just find me being myself,the annoying,trouble-maker that goes around other people's class causing chaos.On night time, however, i will be rather analytical and will spend most of the time reflecting on what i have done and thinking about it.Well,much like what i am doing now,secluding myself in my own room,my own world where i can do what i want.Honestly, i don't really mind being alone like this,as long as i have my songs and thoughts,i will still be able to cope with. ^^

So,again , i was thinking of the matter of poor people and the rich.It is clear that there is one borderline that directly separates these two types of people.However,what amazes me is that some people,no matter how poor they are, they are still happy all the time.I have a friend who is a living proof of this theory.This leads me to believe that no matter how poor one is,he/she will still manage to live a happy life.

True enough i guess.Right,perhaps i don't have the luxury to drive a car,buying a nice hand phone,learning all the exclusive skills like piano, guitar,swimming, and etc etc , but still i can live a happy life.The key , is just to maintain an optimistic mind.Why bother ,if i am rich or not?Just be happy is good enough,right? =D.

But still i have this crazy thoughts of mine that one day , my father will come and tell me "Son,i lied.For the past 16 years,i have lying that we are poor and unable to buy you whatever you want.The fact is, i am the richest man in Asia,and you, my son, will be my heir.Now tell me,what do you want to do?"

How good would that be?lol Thats better than striking a lottery woo! haha, alright, before i start thinking of anything crazier than this , i better go and sleep first.I love my nighttime, i love my room, i love my mind, and i love my life =D. Hope i will be able to maintain this though ^^].

Expression

Listening to : Jay Chou-Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi(不能说的秘密)

" Day after day,weeks after weeks, months after months... time seems to be passing real fast..Little by little my memories seems to be fading away.It just seems like yesterday, when i was the naieve one.It seems that just yesterday, i was having greatest moment of my life and it all faded just like that.Now,all that is left is just the remnants of memories like a burning candle of flame,awaiting time for it's end. "

No idea where did that come from, my hand just started typing on it's own.Hahah well i guess my recent thoughts of the past must have trigger that Or maybe it was just my blogging style that is the cause of it? Now that i think of it ,i realised that my blogging style is leaning towards the "emotional" kind of writing.I wonder if is this just a coincidence or is this a premonition to something regarding my life?Who cares anyway.I like it this way. Just expressing what's on my mind is good enough.

I wish history can be rewritten.I wish i can control them this time.If history indeed can be rewritten then i would wish to rewrite my past.My pasts have been full of nothing but sad and remorseful events.How i wish , i can go back to at least Form 1 and gain control of my life once more.The longing time that i had lost , the precious money that i had spent on buying useless things..and many more.All that, i wish to regain control over them once more! This time i definitely won't be the same fool twice.

I think the only fool that miss his past so much would be me.It seems that after all this years , i still couldn't forsake my past, keep reminiscing them days after days....I know the cruel fact that history couldn't be rewritten to my liking no matter how it is.Despite that,i am a fool.A fool that still longing for his past, wanting to change it."The past is gone, just move forward without looking back" Yeah, i realise the significance of this quote too but it is just me. I can't move forward yet.Not until my past is being lifted from me.My past is like a burden now,holding me back and yet it is the same past that give me the push to continue moving forward.Ironic huh?

RM 10 000 !

Listening to :Fan Yi Chen-I Believe

Alright,First of all , i want to clarify something.No, this isn't the post that tells you How to get Rm 10 k, instead this post is about What are you gonna do with RM 10 k!!

Yeah, i know With Rm 10 k "ONLY",perhaps it won't be enough for you rich and extravagant kids out there but for me , well it is more than enough ^^.Alright,Daydreaming time!
First of all, with Rm 10 k , i would first spend Rm 2 k to buy an exclusive handphone.My dream phone would must at least have 2 Mp camera(ideally 5 mp ^^),have two cameras (front and back ) , supports memory card, at least 2.1" TFT/OLED display (ideal size would be 2.4" ),plain candy bar shape would be the best and with ideal add ons such as GPS navigating system, and stereo 3d surround system XD. Too much? Nawh not really. Apparently , the one that fits my ideal phone concept for now would be Nokia N82.Here is the pic showing this sleeky,black and elegant phone whee!!
Alright,assuming i did spent RM 2 k on this.Rm8 k left!what to do hehe. Rm 1 k for clothes and accessories.Yea, i have been looking forward to buy some really nice clothes but just lack the fund to do so.Therefore, with Rm 1 k, i would be able to buy some really cool and trendy pants and shirts.Woo alright!

Rm 7 k left!,A superb laptop with at least 1 gb ram and intel core 2 duo processor.I am willing to spend around RM 5 k for this kind of laptop.Yeah, the top-notch laptop in the market nowadays will easily reach that price tag with their outstanding performance and fancy stuffs like Super crystal clear display,crispy texts .. well you get the idea.So, with maximum performance and a nice webcam,coupled with internal memory of around 160 gb *well if i am gonna pursue courses like multimedia designs, this kind of high capacity laptop is a must,right?* Alright, Rm 2 k left!

Hmm... Rm 2k ,Keep for future uses XD hehe. Well, to be frank RM 10 k isn't really all that big eh? Man, i gotta start working soon! for my dreams ! Rm 10 k!!!!!!!!!!! Alright, any comments? What would you guys do with this amount of money ^^

Options After Spm.

Listening to :Fahrenheit-Wei Ni Chun Zai

Well, i remember not too long ago, i did blogged about what to do after spm,albeit it is a little messy and it is incomplete.Today, my school's counsellor came to my class and guide us a little about what to do after spm.To my surprise, he told us that there are 6 Paths that we can take after spm.So,i decided to re-blog about this topic and for the sake of it, i created this mind map for better understanding( look up!)

Alright first of all, the 1st path => Fama scholarship
You might be wondering what does Fama means.Well, it means Father and Mother scholarship XD. This means that your parent will be sponsoring you.In other words,dang you are a rich kid with rich parents that are capable of sponsoring you to either overseas or local colleges.Unfortunately, i am not one of those rich people, neither do my parents.Therefore , this option is definitely not for me.

Next,2nd Option =>Matriculation
As i explained in my earlier post, Matriculation is the instant shortcut to local universities.Not only do we get allowance of RM 2.5 k per month if we do this matriculation, we would also get 99% guaranteed entrance to local universities, o well, the 1% being how u fail all the tests and are forced to retake matriculation again.Either way, the drawback of this option are I will have to stay in the hostel there, which means i will be leaving my family *sob Sob* T_T.And the thoughts of being the minority group there scares me =.-. Yeah, this is a racist system, so to speak as it only allows a minority of non-bumiputras to get in there.( DO CORRECT ME IF I AM WRONG!)

3rd Option =>Diploma in IPTA.
Alright,what is IPTA? IPTA means Institusi Pengajian Tinggi Awam, in other words, local universities.Oh well, if you have made up your mind on what courses you want to take, why bother wasting time getting high qualifications in STPM,A-level or etc to go other universities.Just straight take Diploma in the courses that you are interested in.Easy.. Provided you have the money that is...

4th Option => A-level in college
o.O i kinda like this one ^^. Well,for starters, A-level is an internationally recorgnized benchmark for universities abroad.Thus, if you wish to go overseas with excellent qualification, do consider this option.Not only that, as far as i know, college life will be the most relaxing and happiest moment in our whole studying life.I certainly do hope that i can go for this.As far as i am concern, the cheapest alternatives for this System will be in KDU or Disted College with initial fee starting at around Rm 5 k per semester.Hmm.... considerable .

5th Option = >Form 6 /STPM
Omg... the worst of all... (for me that is ) Form 6! STPM (Sijil Pengajian Tinggi Malaysia) This, might be the worst choice ever and only will be considered as the last ,desperate alternative for me!Why so? First and foremost, by entering form 6 , you are bound to waste at least 2 and a half years.Why bother wasting such precious time when others ,who entered colleges or went overseas could already completed or starting their degrees already?Sure, the high difficulty level of this STPM makes it harder to score.But on the bright side,upon passing STPM with flying colours, definitely your university life will be a piece of cake for STPM's syllabus is hard.... REALLY HARD!

6th Option = > JPA scholarship
It is in my wish list too ^^. If i could just get this scholarship and go overseas. Defintely all my financial problems and future career problems will be settled.As going overseas is very promising for young Malaysians students like me XD.I hope to go to Australia for an Information Technology course.Who knows, i could become CEO or IT Director for some corporate giants ?:P (Day dreaming again )

Alright, thats all for now i guess. Shall update it if there are more informations available.

Story of life

*Tick* Tock*Tick *Tock* "Ah , there goes the ticking of the clock again ",Roger mumbles.I sat near the window,just looking at the showers of rain."Hey,wanna go watch movie tonight?"Roger asked.I didn't answer.I can't be bothered to reply him at all.Afterall,i am in my own world now,sinking deep into plenty of thoughts. "Hey,what's your problem?"Roger asked again. I remained silent." That has been a thing of past, isn't it ?Get over it!"I still remained as silent as a rock.Roger sighed a while and then uttered,with a loud tone "Oh,come on man,Tell me, How long do you want to keep lingering in the past?What's your goal now?".That question strucked me deep in my heart.Yes, it makes me wonder too.What is my goal now? As i sat on, looking at the drizzling of the rain water and hearing the sound of water droplets, i began to reminisce about past.

*******

"Jason, ..OI jason!!!Wake up,Don't day dream anymore!The teacher is looking this way",My best friend,Roger wakes me up. "Hmm? Awh.....*Yawn* " Ah....what a nice dream , i have been having a dream of being the first in everything , beating all the rest,smart and strong while still remaining humble,the absolutely perfect kind of guy.Sadly,the reality is far cruel than the dream.Here i am,being the last in my class,an absolutely weak and dumb guy who could only dream of achieving anything.Yeah,that's how life is now for me.However,no matter how bad i am in everything, there is definitely one thing i can excel for.Yes, it is my passion, my precious sport, basketball.

Whenever i am down , there is always one thing that can always cheer me up.Yup, it is none other than a good refreshing game of basketball.It is definitely one of those games that can pump your adrenaline and get you moving.Indeed, i can never grown tired of it.It is one unique game that i can put 100% concentration in it.

*RINGGGGGGGGG* the school bell rings,signifying the end of the class."Hey,Roger,let's go to basketball court now, i can't wait to play!"I uttered. "Sigh, ok ok , you are always so excited when it comes to basketball " replied Roger. I rushed out with Roger to the basketball court.Upon reaching the basketball court, i saw an unfamiliar sight."Huh?What ?There are people here already?"My basketball coach, Mr.Jack was there too.I saw a beautiful,young lady with him too.I shall never forget that day..It was a love at first sight.I could never forgot the way she present herself that day.She was dressed in low-cut denim, blessed with beautiful angelic eyes, a silky jet black hair and a perfect body. It was as if she was an god-sent angel ,sent down to show us the definition of a perfect girl.

And as i was introduced to this girl, i knew she is the one... she is the love of my life.Coupled with her cute and friendly personality,she is definitely the type of girl that any guy would easily fall for.Aw...as if by a slip of fate,since that day,we start talking everyday.Apparently,she is rather interested in basketball too.So, there we go, me and Nancy started to develop feelings towards each other.

*****A Few Months Later *********

Time passed so fast, it has been a few months since the start of my relationship with Nancy.Everything has been progressing properly.Our relationship had progressed to a point where we can't lose each other..... Or so i thought.Lately,we seldom talked to each other.Somehow , i can feel that she is hiding something from me.As i went on and investigate,i found out a horrible truth.... I was a substitute.She don't really love me at all.She was just toying with my feelings.Ah,the agony of being played.Yeah,i was the fool...Believing that i already found my true love.It was after all ,just a dream.How could a girl like her be with a guy like me?

*******

The sound of water droplet in my ear is still intact.That is all for now.....Looking back, it has been a nice dream.Well at least i had a good dream.I stared at Roger and said "I think i found my goal now.It is to continue moving forward and forget the past".

***THE END***


Ah..well not in a good mood to write story now hehe.But i was rather inspired to write a story after looking at one of my friend's blog featuring a nice story.Oh yeah,btw this story is purely fictional and any resemblances with the real world is purely coincidence. And i wonder why this revolves around love again? heheh alright, i am gonna stop writing stories about love.Give me some other themes will ya guys?XD help me out pls?

As of Today.....

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Warning,this isn't any thoughtful posts that provides creative opinions or what, this is just another rant of mine that is written in a rather rude and harsh tone,so,if you are interested in hearing me ranting ( wow you are interested?Weird . lol ) , do read on, if not , just stay away.
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Today, i have yet another dilemma.I get to choose between staying at home and do some productive stuffs or get out to Queensbay and watch movie.Well,unfortunately, i chose the latter one.Ah i know i know, what an i idiot i am but it is not that i want to do it willingly.Yes, as a matter of fact, i am "somehow" forced into doing it.If there are two things that i will never do under any circumstances, that would be 1)to break my promises made with my friends and 2)Betray/Backstab them. Well as you can see, it is all about friends.Yeah,perhaps the influence of dramas/animes but i have to admit, i am quite the "friend" type of person , the one that cares a lot about friends and zz... well you might thought i am bragging but ...whatever, i truly don't wanna lose any friends.

Either way, as you can see, i somewhat made a promise with my friend that i will follow him to Queensbay.And ah, off i go.Another situation, i was asked to follow a friend to a party next? ZZz nope, i don't feel like doing so either but if it is a request from friend , it would be bad to reject it right?So , i went along with it.So, there i am in queensbay with friends.Wandering around, finding other friends and then watching Hancock. Alright,now here comes another dilemma,go to gurney or go home straight?Yeah, foolish me, i went gurney ....and guess what, Whee we watched another movie yeah,Journey to the center of the earth.If there is one thing that i don't regret for going out today,it would be for this two movies.


Alright,now for the annoying part, the rantings.Today, what i am really pissed off at is news...How news and rumours circulate around the people.How gossips and rumours become reality.. Yeah those kind of thing.I fk-ing hate them.And yeah, please DON'T judge ppl by their appearance.That won't work,especially on me. NO one knows i am thinking ok? It is,My own brain, my mind and my THOUGHTS! Stop acting as though u know what i am thinking! Damn it u dunno what i am thinking ok! No one knows it except me.Who are you to judge me?Arghhhhhhhh again, i am fk-ing pissed that the fact my personal affair is known by others like newspaper and stuff. I DO NOT LIKE It i tell u, NO I DON'T! And what the heck? I am bloody damn pissed at the fact that i am living in poverty and there are ppl tat are living in luxury.I am unable to have what i wanted to have too.. Why is this so?WHy Why? WHy must some ppl are living in poverty and there are ppl living in luxury right from the start?Damn life is unfair. No i dont blame it on my parents, I just blame it on my fate.If it is luck, then i tell u , i hate luck, I hate destiny, I blame it on you ,fate! Shyt , i shall never be involved in things like this again.... Never , Never again shall i open my heart to others too.......

In conclusion, one can say that today is my worse and best day, for i had good and bad things together. The pros : the movies, the cons:... ah well u know the problems =.-
And thus this concludes another one of a teen's angst..

Career Day.

Yeah,today is our school's career day.Nothing much at first although my mood is ruined by the crappy est presentation.Either way, it went on and finally we get to go into the hall.Yeah,several big colleges like kdu ,taylors ,disted and etc were invited to answer one of our biggest question. "what to do after spm?" Well, i must say they certainly did a good job explaining and confusing my mind.(Partly due to my inability to ask clearly too... )

Apparently,after spm, there are several paths that i can take.First one being form 6,which is the natural government educational system path. Form 6 => Local Universities => Work.The second ,which is also another government supported educational system will be the Matriculation.Well,basically this is what that has been known as the "shortest route to local universities".True enough i guess,considering you only need to study 18 months, compared to Form 6's 2 and a half month.

Now,for the 3rd option, one can go for private colleges like kdu, inti,taylor,disted and etc.Alright, i guess these are all the pathways that can be taken after spm?At least these are what i knew.Now,for the pros and cons for all the options stated.I personally prefer going to college because , first, it is the best as it offers an internationally recorgnized certificate such as A-level.Not only that , it does offer a variety of programmes such as foundations, degree and etc that could definitely will be recorgnized internationally.This meaning that those that went to college will be able to go overseas to pursue their interest which is definitely a plus sign.

The drawback of going college is... again money.Yeah, again it revolves around the money factor.I don't mind forking out RM 10 k+ for A-lvl but what else?What are my choices after completing A-level?Private local universities are available but still ... that means working locally again?I can go overseas after that too. However,all this means that i have to fork out more money! According to my friend, going to US would be around RM 50 k per year.PER YEAR omg... not to mention the living expenses there is quite high.One good thing though, if i were to be able to settle down in overseas, then i would be guaranteed to have quite a nice life.

Form 6 is definitely a NO NO or only will be considered as the last attempt.Why so?First, upon joining form 6,it will means i will waste 2 and a half month there compared to college life which will only be around 12 months or 18 months.That means that my friends that enter college will be able to get out and earn a degree or even work earlier than me.And that working experience Does Matter.

As for matriculation.. it might be the best and might be the worse of all too.Why?First of all,as i have mentioned earlier, it is the instant shortcut to local university,That is good if you plan on entering local university already.As for bonus, you will even be given Rm 2.5 k for allowance per month.The downside is.. that if you are non-bumiputra, then your chances of entering it will be less.If you are non-bumiputra and you entered it, you will be among one of the minority group there.That, i don't quite like it.Besides,the syllabus there would be rather easier than form 6 and A-level.That meaning that once you entered local universities, you would have trouble coping with the studies there unless you did your own study.It is like the transition from form 3 to form 4.A completely new level.

Ah man.... my mind is gonna blow. I can't make any decisions now.Not when i think about the costs and fees.Oh yeah one more thing, today ,again i showed my inability to express myself clearly by asking some dumb questions to the consultants.Ah man... How i wish i could think before i talk.Next time, i won't talk at all ! Silence is golden !

Life update.

Finally...it took long enough before i got to chance to get to here..Yes... thanks to the
"superb" performance of Tmnet streamyx, my whole connection is very "fast" now..So fast that i can virtually see nothing except white background here for the last few minutes.Yeah.. so much for the "512kb/s "and "maximum performance". This is what you called Satisfaction guaranteed?I assure you guys out there who is planning to fix streamyx.It is ANYTHING but satisfaction and speed.

Yeah, today is monday again.Awh.. the frustation and tiredness.The same mundane school life will repeat itself again.However,2day was rather interesting.Today is the annual Cheeseman Elocution contest.Yeah, it is public speaking again!This time , we got two pros with us, the National Penang Public Speaking champion, a girl named .... erh i forgot the name and national penang public speaking runner-up,Chulan .Either way , today was really spectacular.Their performances are really magnificent.Not forgetting the other 6 participants too.All of them are truly amazing.Really, i truly salute them from the bottom of my heart to be able to grasp the courage to stand on the stage,facing a large amount of crowds.

Not all of us are capable of achieving such a great feat.I,for one is surely a No No for a public speaker.Being a good public speaker means you ought to have the ability to express yourself clearly with cyrstal clear pronounciation and subjected to impromptu speech.Clearly, this marks me out of the sight due to my innate inability to express myself clearly.Yeah,today i shall go a bit more further regarding this.Well, i know some friend of mine that have this tendency to explains thorougly through every sentence or in other words,spoke in a long way .lol.This,according to him is a bit of problem since his friends will have to think a while to answer him as it is hard to catch on to his sentences as it is very long.

Well,me , on the other hand, would have an entirely different kind of problem that is the tendency to be nervous and talks too fast to anyone.Yeah , i noticed it too. Many people have difficulties hearing what i wanna say.This is probably due to my unclear pronounciation and my "talking without thinking" attitude.Yeah,man are blessed with great intellect but somehow , there are just few of them that are incapable of using the full capabilities of their intellect, for example ,ME.I hate it this way seriously.Not only people have a hard time listening to what i really wanna say, this "ability" of mine often becomes a laughing stock for others too.Yeah for example, if i ask " Hey,what you gonna do in your holiday?" ,due to my enunciation, they might heard it as "Hey, %^#$%&^%$ " and they will go "HUH?what you talking about?"

Yeah,well this is me.I often talks using anything else rather than my brain.No thinking, just simply crapping.I wonder why, i do tends to get nervous when talking even to a regular person.Oh well... how i hope i can change.Right now, i am trying hard to change.I got 3 goals to achieve now,namely I.S.B. I for intelligence,referring to my academic studies,S for strength , referring to the need to tone my body up And as for B.... hehe i will let you all have a wild guess.Good luck guessing =D


*P.s 2morrow is my school's Career Day.Yeah! This year is no more the year where we runs around like little kids and fight which one of us that can collect more of those scholarship papers for fun.This time it is for real..Form 5 d,get real man! Alright,Career Day,here i comeeeeeeee *

Of life,love and more .

Today is an interesting day.Very lively day for me.Before today, i was still wondering, what will be my answer if anyone were to ask me "What is your favourite day in the whole week?".Now, i have an answer.Yes, it is today,Saturday is the best day of the whole week.I love Saturday especially today.Today is a very productive and lively day for me.Today,.... ok this post is getting boring lol.Let's move on to the topic.

Anyway, as i was lying down on my bed as usual,pondering and wondering irrelevant things.The gentle wind blows and the peaceful environment in my parent's room sets me thinking again.That's when my thoughts start running wild again.Yes,it is about love again. and No, it is not about me in love or anything.Just that a few days before today, i was reading a comedy,love manga called "Ai Kora" and well although it does leans more towards the comedy genre, it does portray the reality of love in real life.That's how it sets me thinking.Does love really occur the same way as it is in dramas/mangas/animes/etc ?

Or the reality of love in the real world is a lot harsher than what we know.Alright, at around my age, to be truth , i still don't have a girlfriend or even dream of having one now.And yet i have been hearing stories from friends.Most of them start having gfs in the age of form 3 or 4? yeah around age of 15- 16 i guess.Some even as early as 13 years old.But,seriously , do you think this type of puppy love will work out? I don't know maybe some of them would really love each other until the end of life but mostly ,this are all unstable,temporary relationships.

But still, i envy they all.Those that are called social experts, that always "on" and "off" with girls.Unlike me, who might be called social misfits, i don't quite into this love game yet.I am still lingering in my naive thought of having my first lover be my forever lover.Yea,the true ,pure love.Again, to discover the love of this kind isn't easy at all.It requires skill and luck.Yes,luck,Luck that you are able to find the love you want.Luck that you are able to make her love you.And luck that she don't leave you ^^.

Well,that was of ancient times i guess.Nowadays, it just requires skill.Gone are the days where guys have to kneel down to gals in public places or do any romantic things to get the love of a gal.Nothing dramatic.Now,love happens without the need to do anything dramatic to charm the girls.Just simple talking and more hang outs will do.There are times too that i don't wish to be with anyone.The time that i wish only to be alone.No, not the emotional time.It is the time for me to start thinking.Yeah like today tat is.Sealing myself in my parent's room without anyone inside really gets me to think and do productive things. And yet there are times where i need someone to listen to my needs and problems.Arh,... the irony of love.

Come to think of it,I seriously wanna know what have i been doing in the past.I don't recall having any form of entertainment in form 1 to form 3.Heck,i don't hang outs and don't even have computer.And yet without all that, i still manages to waste all my time doing nothing but useless and unproductive activities.Not only that, i don't even join any useful clubs and society.Seriously, what is wrong with me last time. But whatever has been done, is over.It is all the past now.I should just think of working towards the future instead of regretting and remorsing about what happens in the past.

As of now, all i want is a happy life and if possible ,a good party/gathering involving all the friends i ever knew.As some of you might know, this might probably be the final year in my school and after this,most of us will walk our own separate ways.Therefore, i truly wish that we could at least create one happy,everlasting memory to be engraved into our heart forever,never to be forgotten... Alright thats all, back to my "productive" works ^~^. i love my life. i love saturday.

Of geniuses and fools

Recently, i have been thinking again,what are the differences in between a genius and a fool?What makes them differs from each other so much that one would even compare it to the heaven and earth.I wonder, how does a genius feel? and how about the loser ,the fool ones? What does a genius actually mean?In my perspective, it could mean two things.First is the exceptional natural talent or ability possessed by someone to excel in some field.Second, is the ability possessed by someone who is able to understand things quickly and maybe some things that normal people won't be able to.

Frankly , i do prefer the first definition.Over and over again , we have seen countless geniuses from the past few decades.Take for example Albert Einstein, one of the greatest physician that we have ever seen.Michael Jackson, the genius of dancing,Leonardo da Vinci,the genius of art, Bobby Fischer, the chess genius and etc.As seen, genius can comes into a variety of forms, such as literature genius , music genius, mathematical genius, and etc.In general,most of them excel in the field that they like thanks to their exceptional natural ability to completely master the subject that they like.

Well, these are really the "real " genius.They think faster than normal people,They excel much better than normal people in certain areas.They are what we called "prodigies"Ok, then how about the fools? In my opinion,fools DO NOT EXIST.Why? Well take this for example,let's say that you know a nerdy guy,X that gets the first in the school almost everytime who studies everyday.Here you are,getting some lousy positions in school.Now,do you consider yourself as a fool and X as the genius?No,actually when it comes to study or anything else,it just takes an extra effort to be the "genius".

If that X is a genius, that means everyone is a genius.If X is considered a genius, then X is a genius of hardwork.In this world we are living now,genius hardly comes by.Now, only passion and effort will seperate the clever ones and the fools.As i always said, everyone have their own talents , all we need to do is just to find that specific talent and bloom it.The same comes when it concerns the study of something.Just put in some extra effort and thats it, you are the genius now.


However, if we are to define genius according to the definition i mentioned earlier,then truly only some people in this world that deserved the title.For some reason, i think genius can be created.Genius are actually none other than hardworking guys and girls that have the passion for the area they are interested it and are willing to spend time and efforts in it.So,it still comes back to willpower and passion to do it.If one does not possess significant passion and will power to spend efforts into the area he/she likes,then surely he/she will not excel in it.

That's why, i sincerely think the current educational system is stupid.It is all for the amount of A's.Most of them studied for the sake of getting A,not for the sake of earning knowledge or what.The most outrageous things that had ever been done to the current educational system must be the introduction of more useless subjects like moral and siviks.How could one excel if only he/she is only interested in getting A and nothing else?The amount of stress to get A might even kill the passion for that subject even if he/she have passion.

Alright ,enough rantings.It is about time i stop.Ah... genius ... How i wish i could be blessed with some natural talents XD.The ability to excel without the need to work on it.lol how cool would that be ? yup i am a lazy man hehehe.

*note, you know the nerdy guy X in the example mentioned just now? Yeah , he is a fictional characted created just to explain more on this genius thingy.He is in no way related to any of my friends or characters in real life . and for more information about genius, do visit this howstuffworks site.*

ZOMG my voice!

Great...just when i think things could'nt get any worse =.-. You know when you are talking , the voice that you hear and thought it is your real voice that everyone else is hearing too. That is wrong ! Try record your own voice using mic and you will know. Just try it and i bet you, if you are first time doing this, you WILL be suprised.Why so?

The voice you hear when you are talking is TOTALLY DIFFERENT from the voice ppl hear from you.And i mean totally different.It is a lot worse lol * as far as i know, no one that likes his/her own voice when heard through mic , maybe singers are different?:P * Now , after searching the net, i finally found the answer or rather answers.

The 1st reason is because the voice you hear when you speak is largely through bone conduction (your vocal cords vibrating your neck and skull, which transmits directly to your inner ear). The voice you hear in a recording (or over a microphone) is the voice other people hear.
Source => Yahoo answers.

The 2nd reason is because what you hear when you speak is a result of two signals, one coming from your ears (that is from your mouth into the surrounding air and then from there to the ears) and the second a direct feed from your vocal chords to your ear drums and auditory nerves. So, when you hear your voice from an audio recorder, it sounds different.
Source =>Yahoo answers .

I dunno which of the two answers is correct or maybe even both are correct but there is one thing that is confirmed for sure, that is the voice you hear from your mic is the voice other ppl hear. The bad news is that the voice that i hear from mic..... SUCKSSSSS . ZOMG la and to think the whole time i was singing like a monkey in my class everyday . Crap man, How i wish there is a hole right here.I wanan dig a hole and hide myself inside already! For now , let this pictures represent my emotions.

1st ), upon hearing my voice ,*shocked*
2nd),Unbelievable that my voice is so bad that it is out of this world.
3rd),Depression time.*Hides in the corner and sulk*



Now , i seriously wonder how those artists train their voices till so good =.-.How about your voices? Try it ^^]

*P.S STREAMYX really gets on my nerve.It is VERY VERY SLOW NOW and i am experiencing tortoise-like speed now.Even going to Youtube takes a longer time than usual to load ==.Geez,malaysian connection... when will WiMAX arrive * sigh* *

Of self-esteem and confidence

Listening to-Fahrenheit-Ai Dao

I am pretty sure that if not all, then surely most of the teens worldwide have this problem.Yes, the problems of self-esteem and confidence.Or maybe it is just me?Either way, vanity is a serious issue for teens nowadays.I dunno about you guys but i really felt very very unsatisfied with everything i do Or rather unsatisfied with myself.My appearance, my skills, my abilities....All seems to go down drain in an instant.

Compared to others, i am nothing.Like a rock in the middle of road.Nothing at all =.-.Just waiting for some car to crush me.True, most of them said " don't compare yourself to others,it will be insulting yourself,just be yourself" But i can't help but to notice that how others are so good with their own abilities and skills.Maybe this is the year that i am really conscious about my surroundings.

With things progressing as the way it is now , i will only get from bad to worse.Ah yes, i am doing nothing but just ranting here.How stupid. Yeah, today is the day that i got to know about the truth of lives too.I am too naive compared to others .In terms of relationships , social status, appearances,intelligence, skills,talents, i am naive in all of them.As i looked on to each of my frens, i realise they all have their own special skills.It is not necessary be in academics, but they might have talent of their own.Some can draw, some can sing and others are all special, each possessing unique talent.

What's mine? I am still wondering.Anyway, i can't do anything or blame anyone about this.Yes, everyone with born with their unique and special characteristic and talents. All i have to do is to find it and pursue it.Now,regarding my appearance and relationships... i will let time decide how it should works.I swear , i will be better,more productive and more optimistic as time goes by.... Until then...

The True me.

I think for the past few months , i have been living in the world of surreal and intangible world.As far as it goes, it seems that nearly every sense of logic that i got have been twisted and changed into some form of insanity.Yeah, thats right, I was insane.I was stressed to the point that i felt the whole world is turning on me.I can't recall when was it but there was time when i have terrible head ache and i was unable to do a thing even if i want to. I really hate that kind of situation , you know , the scene where "yes , i wanna study!, i wanna do something productive, " but in the end it was all craps and no actions.Seriously , i do hate that mood when i don't do it although deep down , a part of me wants it.

I am the type of guy that did things by mood. That's y when i am in "insane" mood, i won't be able to do a single thing at all. It is really crazy come to think of it.Luckily, now it was over. I have regained my sanity once more.The one that able to think clearly and do reasonings based on logics , yeah ,, thats how i aspire to be.Now that i am crystal clear of my surroundings , i am able to think of my "insanity" .I guess the reasons for my insanity was due to problems. A lot of problems.

Problems like projects,assignments ,homeworks, studies, spm and yeah though i hate to say it, love is yet another problem that keeps coming back to haunt me.You know,if you would just take a look at my posts under the "Relationship" label, you would realised that i can crap a lot about love.And i mean really a lot. But today , i would like to make it short.Actually,based on reasonings , all the problems that i mentioned above are really not a problem at all.Take projects for example.All i need to do is just to manage my time and allocate 30 minutes to finish it.That's all. However, when it comes to doing it, it will fall in complete mess.I knew it .

Every time i tried to do something, i would try my best. Even so, my best is very stressful.I might be a perfectionist ,that thinks a lot.In fact , i think too much.So much that every action i do seems very hard and complex to calculate the consequences of that action.Therefore, every time i try to do something on my own, i will get very stressful. I got an advice from some internet fortune teller be4, " You work best when you are left doing it alone " .I find this very true.It is kinda hard concentrating on a thing when there are ppl around you.But when i am left to deal with it alone, i really could felt the stress there.Take for example when i am doing some videos regarding my school club, i would feel really stressful although by rational thinking , you just need to make simple video.

Anyway, i have finally regain my sanity.Such , the only hope i got now. .. is for this mood, this sanity of mine to be with me forever and ever.Then only my life will truly begin .

*P.S this whole post doesn't really makes any sense. I know, just think of this as crap bawh ."

A Day to Spare~

Listening to : Jay Chou -Shi Jie Mo Ri & Wu Yue Tian*五月天*-Zhi Zu
- Both are great songs XD
- Soft songs
-Zhi Zu is quite a touching song actually but it will get corny once you heard it long enough.

Nothing much been done today.I went for a badminton match today.Gotta exercise ya know.Apparently,my badminton skills has rusted to the point that i can't even hit a simple ,soft shot =.-. Crap ! Today is quite a great day . One bad thing though ,i went to play badminton with my SLIPPERS =.-.Luckily ,one of my friend lent me his school shoes lol and stockings.Ain't tat comfortable honestly XD actually i would prefer to wear my slippers lol but then there are rules saying that you can't enter without a proper shoe.

Yea i know , school shoe is not a proper sport shoe too but hey at least it is better than slippers right?haha We played at YMCA from 1 to 3p.m and then we headed to cc . Yeah, i know, cc = bad impression right? Who cares zz anyway , i don't really like cc either, if it wasn't for my friends insisting to go and the fear of ruining their "joy" of having 4 players, i would have headed home straight.After that, I finally went home ... alone and i wasted a lot of money. Not quite a happy ending i guess.

Either way, for the past few days, i have been reading Sewjin's blog =D.His blog is indeed a great one , filled with funny jokes and cute drawing by him. Speaking about sketches and drawings , there is another blogger that expresses her thought through sketches , she is ... Stickgal . Their drawings are really great and highly addicting!* yeah i am serious,don't believe it?GO SEE their site !"It makes me wonder ,could i express my thoughts with that kind of drawings too ?Yeah ,so i try and sketch too XD.

1st sketch ...
a round face?
2nd sketch
-added a hairstyle XD for some reason i love this kind of hair lol .

3rd
-Ta da ! anime eyes hehe
4th
-Body sketch + a cunning expression hohoh
-ok seems a bit too anime-ish lol s
lol... welll at least i tried =D.Guess i better do letterhead sketchs XD There , this is my graffiti of the word "zen" and a bit of editing and colouring with the help of photoshop.
Ooops it is getting late now. *couldn't believe i stay up nite just to do this thing zz*.....I should be sleeping now =.- *pray for a sweet dream* good nite ~

When worst isn't actually the worst.

Listening to - Jay Chou-Qing Tian
=> soft ,ballad style song
=> Guitar background music
=> Nice mv , violin effect xD

Again,this is one of my thoughts.Well, considering i just hear some emo songs haha.It really does get me thinking hmm..Did you ever have any bad day ?Heck what am i asking .For sure you do la~Everyone does.Surely , every one of you had experienced some bad incidents before right?Now, the question is, what do you feel when you actually experiencing them?

Me,for one would definitely feel like it is the end of the world and you know all the crazy thoughts of running out of this world and abandoning all my works crossed my mind.* no, i wasn't thinking about suicide , i mean Sleep! thats where i will be able to escape to the dream world =D * But then again, are you really sure thats the end of the world?Hence,the title of the post " When worse isn't actually the worst".

Actually , i dont quite know how to express my thoughts now.All things are currently jumbled up in my mind now.There are thoughts about life, relationships and even love *o.O *Well must be because i just read some posts relating to love haha.I wonder why, when i thought about love ,the other part of mind will keep on reminiscing about the pasts.It has been nearly 5 years since i entered secondary school.... Truth to be told, there weren't any happy memories until last year.As far as i remember, my form 1 to form 3 lifes are filled with nothing but some nonsense and miserable events.Heck, i even had my first big fight in form 3*again , no it is not gang fight or anything, just a big arguement with one of my fren*.

I guess towards the near end of form 4,thats when my life started to take a turn.I think i went out the most during tat time.That's when i started to actually have fun in my life.To be honest, i am quite an introvert.This is clearly shown in my primary school life.Believe it or not , i almost never talked to anyone actively during my primary school life.Either way, this goes on.Regarding my love life, i think i had a crush during my primary school life.Well, it was quite a puppy love i guess.So,it went on and slowly the feeling fade away.And sooner i had another crush! or was it ? Until now i am still wondering whether or not this feeling is that of love or just another feeling of wanting to be close friend.That feeling still lingers around even now i guess.

Then again,this is the kind of feeling that you don't really wanna have.The feeling of confusion, still deciding whether this is love or not, if it is indeed love,then will you go for it ? or back down due to the fear of rejection?Love is indeed very complicated and when you are in that state of confusion ... or the state of being rejected , thats where the word "worst " comes in. It might be the worst moment of your life. Yet after you experienced it and think back , it really isn't that bad afterall ,isn't it?Actually this post was meant to be a reminder to myself when i am down.

If i ever fall into depression, do think about this "This might be one of the bad moments in your life, but think again, is this really the end of the world? You are still living and there are still days ahead,so stop being emo and get to work! Go do what you should do!"Either way, my love life is again stuck in a hourglass of time.My life now is virtually filled with nothing but remnants of memories from the past.....Until the clock starts ticking again, my love life shall remain frozen .

Popular or Famous?

You have seen blogs like kennysia , dawn yang and xiaxue and i am pretty sure if not all,surely MOST of you are fascinated and addicted to reading their blogs right?You have listened to some songs by Jay Chou,JJ lin,Wang Lee Hom and surely you are loving them right?*heck for gals , i think most of you are crazy about them* By now, maybe some of you would be dreaming of being as famous as them or even more famous than them ?Hahaha Now i am here to tell you ,Yes, indeed YOU can be as famous as them or even more famous than them.Just follow some of my guidelines =D.

If you are blogger, then
1) Concentrate your blogging on your strongest point .Example, lets say you are a very creative person and you are very sure that every blog you published WILL make ppl laugh * kenny sia alert* ,well go ahead and blogged about funny posts everyday =D

2)If you are a hot,sexy,pretty,cute female blogger * just kidding haha every girl is pretty ^^* , then go ahead and write a bimbo blog.What are bimbo blogs? Easy, to put it simply , bimbo blog is a genre of blogging where bloggers post up a lot of pictures and photos of themselves in their everyday life and blogged about them. Though this genre of blogging usually belongs to females hehe.If you are a guy that post hundreds of pictures showing yourself in various poses and enjoy doing them, then either you are super narcissist or you had lost some screws in your brain or maybe lack of some male chromosomes? Well unless you are kennysia, this is kennysia's post about him trying to write bimbo blog. Check it out if you want to burst out in laughter .

3)Instant way to get famous in blogosphere,Plead and beg famous bloggers to"advertise" you in their blogs haha.If that fails,just get a knife and go to the nearest famous blogger you know or you dunno and FORCE THEM to "advertise" you in their blogs hehe.Yes, kinda like blackmail XD.

If you are not a blogger,
1) If you got talent or passion for singing and wishing to be an artist ,try advertise yourself in Youtube ^^. You know , it does work!

2)Just wait for a miracle to happen,I.e some comet hits you or radiation happens and you became the smartest genius in the world.Thats when the media will start coming to interview you and make you their headline.

3)Do a crazy thing like walking around naked in the road or go around holding a banana and shouting " i am SADDAM HUSSEIN .This IS A BOMB *points at the banana * " while running wild .Sure enough , by 2morrow your face will appear in newspaper =D

4) Be a Blogger now and apply all the steps above! xD

*Note*This post is simply random and for fun, and the efficiency is definitely not 100% guaranteed as this post is blogged by a lousy blogger wishing to be famous lol.So,there ya go =D

When you are bored...

You know. about my previous post , when i say i will try to "introduce a new song EVERY TIME i blog a new post" , i take it back now lol. I find it almost impossible to introduce new songs every time i blogged considering i have the tendency to blog according to my mood.So, lets say i am in a very very good mood and i blogged 7 times that particular day, which means i have to introduce a new songs in those 7 posts? lol ok this is getting ridiculous .I guess i will only introduce a new song when i am addicted to it ^^.

Anyway, mood swing is a very strange thing.Just a while ago, i was in a quite depressed mood.Don't ask me why i felt that way, it just came to me somehow.So, being quite depressed , i went around the net like a dead zombie,clicking on any link i found.Magically,after some youtube session and kennysia blog reading , i am cured =D or rather i am happy again hahaa. Again, i wanna stress about how benifitting the blogosphere is.Now that i think of it, why would anyone say bloggers are bad guys? And to think some politicians called bloggers as monkeys =.- * well though i called myself monkey boy , i ain't a monkey ok =.-*

Anyway , back to the topic .Boredom... yeah i know , i blogged about this a LOT Of time already.Still , i can't get enough to blog about it. Logically , no one should have any reason to be bored .Why ?Well, because lets see, as a student, you got a lot of things to do, and i mean A LOT.I.e your tuition, your homeworks,your revision etc etc .. See? That is for a student HOw about for a full-grown working adult? I guess there is only one thing in mind eh?eheh thats right it is WORK! WORK ! and WORK! lol. Get what i mean? You have no reason to be bored at all!.

Yet , i still find time to be bored.Guess i have been slacking off from studying and etc things that a student should do eh.However, now even if i am bored, it takes just a few clicks in the net and *poof* No more boredom yeah! XD Hmm... now you might be wondering what i am always doing in the net.First of all, you should clear off all your dirty thoughts ! I am a innocent guy ok?:P Usually , i will be slacking off in youtube looking for some funny comedies or animes to watch ^^. My recently adopted hobby, which is reading blogs do help in killing off my time too.The heck lar , i mean just by reading blogs , you could be wasting a few years.Don't believe me? Try reading all the blogs you can find heheh I bet you won't be able to finish them as every minute you finish reading a blog post, another new one will be published somewhere else.So,thats how i spend my time when i am bored.What about you?

Wahahhaha heheh hohoho hhehehhehehe ,yeah i sound crazy now , i know but this is what happen to me when i am over excited xD. Ok, this shall be my last post for today i guess. Whee, can't wait what will happen 2morrow.Oh yeah before i forgot, i upgraded my firefox 3.0 with some add-ons today.Man, you guys simply must check the add-ons in their site some day.There are so many interesting plugins featured there . I must say , i am impressed and glad i am using firefox as my default browser.Anyway ,i these are the add-ons i added today :
1) Firefox Showcase 0.9.4.8
=> A very useful plugin that allows live preview of all your tabs.Much like ie's quick tab hehe
2)Key Config
=> A useful plugin to provide more keyboard shortcuts for lazy man like me ^^.
3)AeroSilver Fox 3.0.1
=>A very nice theme.Love it =D

Schooling days~

Listening to : David Tao-Liu Sha .
- a nice , calming song
-a little bit of sadness,relief and comfort mixed together .

Alright , i am thinking of adding this feature in my blog post.Since, everyone would already have their own songs , it would be rather pointless embedding some songs in this blog that would might be disturbing you ,readers from listening to your own songs ,won't it ?Or maybe for those that are in offices now, it would be rather disturbing to have a song suddenly autoplay right?Even so,i believe that there are other people out there too that might be looking for songs to hear by searching around blogs and i too wish to recommend songs to those with the same taste as mine.Thus, i decided that my solution to this would be adding this " listening to : [insert song name here]" feature to my blog post.

This meaning,everytime i blogged a post , i will try my best to introduce a song that is nice *well to me that is XD * and hopefully ,for those who are searching for new song and yet to hear this one, will love it ^^.

Alright, ok now for my thoughts,hmm..i have been thinking again .There are times that i hate to go to school .There are times that i truly wants to leave the school immediately.. But after thinking about it, do i really hate my school that much?I am currently having my secondary education in Penang Free School .An once prestigious and renowned school.As for now, i can't say it is the same as ever.Truth to be told,my school has seriously deteriorate to quite a low level.

I don't hold any grudge towards the administration in my school but i do felt that their system was simply out of orders and some are just plain craps.Take for example, my headmaster's suggestion to implement a "IT Garden" in the pond area... hahah Funny , all he ever did was destroying the beautiful nature of the pond.Sure,it was a great idea but heck , could it really be implemented so smoothly ? Either way, back to my thoughts,yeah sometimes, i really do feel that the sooner i leave the school , the better it would be.

However, thinking back, how would my life be if i won't be schooling anymore?I might lose all the friends i have now? I might even do nothing but rotting at home everyday?This might be my last year at PFS and yet i am still wondering about it.What happens after i finish my secondary education? What happens when i work? I am scared of this questions.I assume that when i start working, there won't be any more carefree times like now.Heck,there might even won't be any time left for me to hang out with friends. With this kind of thoughts, i felt relieved that i am still schooling.Works might not be so scary but i assume they will still be harder and stresser than schooling right?*for those readers who are working now, i am sure you would know better than me, do share your thoughts about your school and working experience if you are interested * Awh... thinking like that , i am rather relieved that i am still able to have fun with friends.

I wonder how it would feel after i finish my SPM haha.I can't predict future.So ,who knows maybe this schooling days would be the happiest moment for my entire life? So, for now, i shall just appreciate what i have and continue to live as time shifts i guess.