Frustration

Education, does it really mean anything at all?I really do not understand the mind of our government nowadays.Why,of all means considered must they torture us with 10 subjects?I understood that this subjects will serve as our fundamental foundation at near future but Honestly, does it truly serve it's purpose?I don't think so. Instead, it is more like a mental agony to us.....For instances,if i were to choose a career not related to Physic,Chemistry,Biology and History,why on earth am i studying those subjects now?How are they gonna help me?Wouldn't it just be much better if we are given the freedom to choose which field of interest to indulge in or rather which subject that are intriguing for us to study?Life would be 10 times happier this way ^^.

I do realize that knowledge itself is precious.However,what i mean to say was just that couldn't we be given choices to make on which subject to study first?After we master the subject we like,then only we proceed to gaining more knowledge on other subjects.Well,initially why do we actually study all these subjects?Is it because it can make an all-rounder out of us?If that is the purpose,than this whole thing is meaningless and pointless at all!People,BE REALISTIC.We are just mere humans,it is definitely IMPOSSIBLE for us to study and store everything in our brain.On the other hand, it is definitely possible for each and every one of us to have something to excel in. So,what we should do is to find that "something" which we can excel in and master THEM!This is the way teaching should be, that is to lead us to find that particular "something" =)


Unfortunately, i still have to face the fact that in our country here, we are bound to study whatever we are instructed to regardless of our will .=.= Thus, this is what i should do now that is To strive hard and pass this bullshit exams and proceed on getting a good college/university and finally get to make decisions!!!

Actually, i am ranting all this out now because of my biology test.When i am having the bio test,i felt like i am having the time of my life!No no, it isn't because of the difficult test nor does it because of the inability to answer ANY Question.lol >< Well i am having a time of my life thinking of my future.The bare thought of me failing the exam and proceed into a bad class just scare the hell out of me.Man.. i really scared.. and at the very time, i really don't know what to do.I finish Bio i just 1 hour. With a lot of blanks.Ah well.. there are no one to blame except me myself... I knew at the moment i hand up my bio test, my fates are sealed.I know i am going to fail.But if.. if and only if By any chance, i end up passing this test and able to get in good class next year,I swear . i swear in the name of my pride and honour , i shall relentlessly try my very best to get straight A's in examination. ( this year even though it is end year, i didn't spend much time reading =.= )Well, i guess that is all for now.On the bright side,it is nearing holiday soon , so cheers ! XD enjoy as much as we can... b4 the result come and haunt uS!

Meaning of life....

1.39a.m 22nd of Oct
Meaning of life? What is that ? what does it means?What does life holds for me?Does it have a purpose?I have been wondering these questions ever since i watch Honey and Clover just a while ago.yea, i might sound crazy but no!I am perfectly sane.My examination is just a day away... and i am here blogging.My mind is empty.BLANK.I do not know why.My friends are all having stress and tension regarding our upcoming exams.Well, it is not like i don't care about exams.I DO CARE. i know this is important and should be at utmost priority but no.Somehow in my mind, i don't care about exams.....

All there are is life.I was wondering , What really is it?Everyone got their own purpose of living.What's mine?Is it to care for the one you love when you found it? Is it to work for your dreams?Is it just to keep living for the sake of it?i don't know.So, what if you achieved your dreams?So,what if you found the love of your life?Is that the purpose of you living? Try imagining this,if you knew that you will only have some time to live,what will you feel?Do u have a different perspective of life now?Do you start to think life is precious now?To those people who wish to commit suicide,YOU ARE STUPID!Life is precious!

I might be too young for this.However, i want to think of this.There shall be much obstacles in my way in future.Therefore,i wish to truly think of a path that suits me and will continue to move on to it without interferences but... can i do it? Is that the purpose of my life?No i don't think so.After much hesitation and perplexity,i thought of this.Everyone is destined to die one day.So, everyone strives to live their life.Thus,my purpose of life is to continue living through everyday meaningfully!As long as i live,i shall make a legend for my self! To achieve my dreams, To find the love of my life and to care for her.That shall fulfill my purpose of life.Until the last breath of mine, i shall not hesitate to move forward.As long as i live my life well, i shall have no regret!Gambateh!

One Litre of Tear~

This drama... It isn't anything ordinary.Fellow readers, if u think u have watched the most touching drama,Think AGAIN for this is indeed the most touching drama EVER being produced(for me at least) I would like to quote this article from here

"

This dorama is about a girl who was diagnosed with a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old, and was able to continue her life until her death at the age of 25 years old.

The plot is based on the true story of a Japanese girl named Kito Aya, who had the same disease. She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no longer hold a pen. Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from her family, friends, and boyfriend. Her diary “1 Litre of Tears” was published after her death, because of its inspiring and courageous message of, “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.” So far, over 18,000,000 copies of her diary have been sold."

This drama truly inspires people.. It is definitely worth watching!

15th of October...

10.09p.m
UAh... today is just plain weird..everything is boring .. lol boredom..
B-O-R-E-D *yawn*

11.37a.m
Now, it is time to rise and shine! or .. is it.Nowadays , i find on9 really meaningless.I mean what is the point if none of your friends are on9?MAN and with exams around the corner,do i really have the time to on9?Damn! .. *sigh* no Point venting out my frustrations here because i need to do something about this.So here i go! wish me luck!

1.00 a.m
No comment!I tried to on9 but unfortunately,the moment i on9, my mother came in... and with that i was forced to sleep..However, No i didn't sleep.I just couldn't sleep yet.I dunno.. i Seriously don't know what was i thinking back then.I just keep thinking... and thinking about exams,about friends and finally i gave up.The More i think of friends and on9 friends topic especially, the more i was drawn into darkness.Finally,I can't think anymore.The total state of depression,demotivation,desolation or whatever you call it.. they engulfs me and all of them piles up and became a big burden.As i plunges deeper into this abyss of darkness, i realized that i was all alone...Exams,Friends,,.No , i DOnt fear those things anymore .. for i already lost all that..And with that i lost consciousness.

USELESS CONNECTION!

... as of today, i am damn pissed off at two things! 1st) the incapability of my useless streamyx connection that render me unable to talk to anyone on msn. Screw that . Why do these kind of things usually happens to me? And when this concerns my fren, i am usually DAMN PISS OFF! Thank you streamyx ThANKS A LOT FOR RUINING THE DAY! 2nd thing that piss me off .2nd) TRUST ! this words are very important! once someone put a trust on u, it is important to keep that trust.HOWEVER on the completely opposite side, the person who put the trust on someone else should be confident that he/she who holds your secret won't reveal it or to spread it to the whole world.So , if you put a trust on someone . you shouldn't doubt him/her anymore.
NOW, this is the thing that piss me off!Apparently,this someone tells me about something ends u warning me not to tell anyone else!!! WTF ler.This is what i hate !I might not look like a trustable person, but i can guarantee here.That I swear I will NOT BETRAY THE TRUST OF ANY OF MY FRENS! Not a single one!

The importance of blogging~!

wow ! until now i have thought of blogging as just a place to spend my time only when i had nothing better to do! However , upon stumbled across this quote from Diana Lim from advertlets,i realize what a BIG mistake i had made! Here , i would like to share with you all ,my fellow readers her quote : ""When I started blogging, I knew that blogs will outlive a blogger’s life. So even when I’m no longer in existence, my children and grandchildren or even great grandchildren will read about me..." WOW, Now this is the purpose of blogging.Indeed , as she quoted, we should keep our own history whether if it is for the reminiscence of our past, for the view of our children , or for whatever else purpose. So , from today onwards, i shall start to update this blog as often as i can! ^^ for i do not wish to leave my memories being bitten by time!

P.S on the completely different note :
here's a great link to share ^^
DATA CRYSTAL

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Endless dream.~~

Touching Tale~.. .(P.S. i wonder if this really happens in real life?)
The title is Because i am a girl by KISS.

Fantasy world....

Life.. Really is meaningless and dull isn't it?Somehow , in fantasy world , we won't feel that.In world such as Drama,Anime,Manga, and etc ... fantasy world, Things just are too good to be true,Ain't them.. However , somehow,incident in this "fantasy" world might just happen to you in real life! who would have know.....Indeed, in some way the fantasy world will reflect what is happening to you in Real Life. And these incidents will somehow change the way u live.In conclusion, we can deduce that depending on what u face , it will change your life.... " what you view ,will change your point of view..."

at the end, it just a crap by me... another one of my incoherence musing ...

┼Anime┼

Well , upon reading the title i believe many readers will think " such a lame post" or something similar to this.However, i still wish to express my perception about anime. I guess some of u would define anime as just a lame animation or cartoon of some drawings.However,i ,for one would like to describe Anime as a realm iPublish Postn which one finds it's inner-self.Maybe , you might think i am over-exaggerated or these is just plain hyperbole yet i believe some of u out there will think the same way as i do. anime which usually started from mangas or comics actually is a realm full of fantasies and dreams in which one might not find in the real world.It is truly a fantastic experience once one discovers an anime which suits him/herself. As u wander in it, it will be a life-taking journey that will unfold your inner-self.I find it rather peculiar for me to be saying this, but here it goes....there are indeed some animes that are Bad or rather worse which might cause u some traumatic experience ( ok i am exaggerating here XP).Despite all that, do not fear to explore other animes as there are a lot others that are nice.Here i wish to recommend some of them which is
Honey and clover and Colour Cloud palace.These animes are really Nice as it really brings the questions and thoughts that wander in nowadays society into a fantasy realm.As u watch it, u will find it rather intriguing . here is the preview of some of it's episodes.Enjoy ^^

SHARING IS CARING? my ass! i shared too much .....

*NOTE: b4 u read this post.pls beware of the HARSH and RUDE words usedIf u r a person with weak heart ,STAY AWAY ! ^^*

Alright ... here it goes..all my anger.... all my emotions....let it FLOW..

FUCK man.! nO MATTER WHAT IT IS I AM SO DAMN PISSED OFF AT YE(Young Enterprise) now....Why u might ask?Alright , there is a guy named N.... After all our members gave up hope d..He is the only one standing and doing all the work. But of course , i DID HELP by doing all the frameworks and designs. Alright now i salute him for that BUT one day , he ask me to give him my psd files for the header design ...Ok so i gave him.BUt then the next day, the annual report change completely , he modified my header design and removes ALL my subcovers design ( WHICH I TOOK a lot of time to make them) DAMN ITTTT and now he is asking for my contents and covers psd file WTF.PSD files are all my hardworks.. i dunno what is wrong with ye. it can just go and die....

Ponder and wonder....

Sometimes i cant help but keep pondering and wondering about on9 virtual life and real life... I mean when u on9 and talking it is like it isn't u anymore, when someone goes on9 i believe that their personality will change.lets take for example : a guy labelled X in real life is a completely quiet,innocent and extremely shy guy ,However in the virtual realm , he is like the exact opposite of what he is in real life- talking non-stop and on9 24/7 and etc etc...I guess this is what ppl call alter-egos or the inner self of somebody right? Well , we can deduce here that sometimes , ppl talking to u on9 might not be the same when they talk to u in real life. Here is another example to illustrate this effect:

Let's back to X , X well as stated in previous example likes to talk on9 with a lot of ppl, however in real life , he is just another quiet ,innocent and extremely shy guy.Let's say one day , his best on9 fren(to make matter worse, lets assume it is she) whom he never meet be4 in real life Meet him COINCIDENTLY and say "hi , X how r u ? ".Being an extremely shy guy , what would X do facing this situation?

Overzealous - the way of destruction....

You should watch out for selfishness, conceit and the over-concern

with appearance. You must guard against overzealous behavior, anger and

aggressiveness. If these qualities are not brought under control you could

become excessively domineering, vindictive and even violent. You perform best

when you are left to your own devices. Hold fast to your life's dream and work with the

determination you possess to realize it. You can become overly stressed by your

driven nature. Be careful about the food you eat and maintain an exercise

program you enjoy. Competition sports are often a healthy outlet for a person with

your drive, particularly sports involving running and swimming. Don't let pride and

overconfidence be your masters. Remember, your talents and abilities are a gift

from a higher source, which should promote gratitude and humility, rather than

pride and conceit.

OVERzealous? Notes* that paragraph was attained from han decoz's life number numerology.Google it if u wan to know more about urself

Plain Procrastination .... or So,,,

Well, recently i found out many things to do .. ( as usual) which again i cant help but just keep procrastinating it .... over and over again..Somehow i rather stay on9 and doing those mumbo jumbo stuff like playing rather than doing something worth spending my time on....WELL this shouldnt happen to me.I Need to do something ...and fast.! alright from now on , i shall start working XD ( *grasp* can i really do that ? LOL) to those who is reading this , dont be like me .Spend your time wisely.Time is precious!!!!! ( alrite off to learning html and css... >< it is hard man)

Little points SIgning In....

Recently, i don't know was it because of my mood swing or because of other reasons , i felt it is pointless signing in msn.Reasons? Simple. It is just because there are nobody who will on9, Well i Do understand that now is the exam season and everybody is busy studying but...well it is just plain boredom to just sign in and watch all your contacts busy or off9.. Haiz i got things to do but as i said in my last post, i simply cant bring my self to do it! >< o pls exam season ,pls pass off faster!

LiFe is Meaningful.

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;	5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,	10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.	15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

.For the past two days, i have been in the state of depression and demotivation.Today,as usual, i thought it would be a mundane day as we begins our schooling day again.Time flies when the lesson is boring ..... HOWEVER,upon reaching english lesson,something happen.My english teacher taught us the poem " The Road Not Taken " .As he explains the meaning of the poem, i felt a strange sensation rushing through my heart.AS ge explains more n more n relates it with our life,i begin to awake from my sleep.My English teacher said a very inspirational things while teaching this poem.He said "WE STARTED DIENG THE MOMENT WE ARE BORN INTO THIS WORLD.Therefore,as long as we live,live our lifes to the fullest!!! IF u are a father's son, be the best son.If u are someone's friend,be the Best friend. " indeed this phrase of him completely struck me.And this poem too is very meaningful.From now on,the clouds has cleared.There are neither doubts nor hesitation in my mind.I am ready to move on towards a BRIGHT FUTURE!.

BLOGS-the tool which unites ppl

haha recently,i rediscover the meaning of life.I Find reading ppl's blog is very inspirational and at some point,might change ur very life.INdeed, i agree that blog are absolutely the most ultimate tool to inspire n to motivate ppl. Even Tunku Mahathir said "“bloggers are the only hope left for this nation.” Thank you blogs.u have keep me alive from dieng in boredom XP

Expressionless,Emotionless...is there a truth in it?

Recently, i met a lot of problems. that i believe only under the sincere guidance of my heart can i overcome it,Nobody can help me........With works ,works and more works., i can't help but react back with a sigh.However as time progress,i find nothing out of it.I really find it pointless to do anything at all.What i need to do is what i need to know Now. Until the very last moment , i shall continue my quest for answer...forever and ever.......

Life....

Life..sometimes i wonder y we even bother to study/work at all.I mean no matter how hard we study or work ,we will still die .Is that right?So,actually what is the point of we living at all.?From the moment we are born , our life are sealed. WE study , then work ... then die.What is the point of earning money if we cant bring it with us when we die....Well , i have been thinking that there are no meanings to live ... Until someone said a particular phrase ... that is "harimau mati meninggalkan belang,manusia mati meninggalkan nama." i was completely awaken .This phrase which when roughly translated means that if we are bound to die, we should at least do something good and important while we are alive so that at least our names can be remembered. I Find this phrase very true.Life is short,So while we are at it,DO GOOD THINGS and most importantly do whatever ur HEART GUIDES U.if u think something is right,then pursue it. Achieve ur dreams....After all this , i finally realise... life isn't meaningless ... not as long as u have friends and dreams.

Amazing 3d animation ^^

wow when i come across this video , i was amazed by how well the 3d modeling n lighting rendering to produce this nice , superior animation
This is an amazing 3d animation by the TONG STUDIO u can visit it here or just warch it directly here ^^ in my blog .( btw u might wanan close the music that auto play in my blog first)