Wind of change

It has been a while since my last update.The reason for this tardiness being the laziness and the lack of news in my life lately.Again, nothing much happened .My life still remain the old,dull life I have been living this past 17 years.

Well,except for more new friends maybe and a new opportunity that arises recently.In retrospect , I haven't been getting much opportunity to excel and do something interesting,or rather I haven't been accepting or giving myself opportunity to do something interesting.Back in the past , I used to be the no- guy,the guy who shakes his head when opportunity arises, the guy who take a step backward when a new world is just right in front of him.

Yes,I used to be that cowardly , useless guy who lives in his own world, never wanting to get out of the small well to see the outside world.In fact, nothing much have changed now,save the fact that I am a lil bit more outgoing than the past me = ).

And I am certainly glad I did.After opening the door to opportunities and willing to say yes, I have entered a whole new world,a whole new adventure,filled with excitement , fun, joy and unexplainable happiness.Yet,with great power comes great responsibility.

Such fun, such excitement,such power, is not without a price to pay.Upon accepting the task given, I was engulfed with a sense of responsibility,and the need to act as a leader, a good and sensible one.No longer shall I continue with my childish ,playful and laid back thinking, no longer shall I act without thinking.

It's time I grow up.To have a great oratory skill, to be able to speak up confidently and eloquently , to be able to excel and lead by examples, those are the qualities of a great leader.I , for one, wishes to be one.I am now in the second last year of my highschool already.If I still retain my childish and playful mentality, how am I suppose to survive in the cruel adult world after this?

In order to survive the harsh reality,there is a need to grow,to grow and to incorporate as much knowledges as possible in this tiny brain of mine,to improve in every aspect and to be able to act as a mature,serious leader.Yet, the youthful side of me , the one capable of taking jokes,playing around and having fun must not be diminished.

As of now, things are progressing smoothly I guess.Not too great, but not too bad either = ) . Yet there are things I wish that could be improved on.One being my inability to concentrate and prioritising things.

Still, in recent days there seems to be some days where mood swing kicks in and all of a sudden, the happy-go-lucky attitude is gone and replaced by the gloomy,depressed mood.I can only blame myself for having a pessimistic attitude towards life.Perhaps things will change if I think more towards the bright side? Or perhaps it will remain the same?

Either way, on a more personal note , I am still equally confused and perplexed regarding my personal life.How will I proceed in the relationship ladder?Will I climb up ? or will I fall ? I wonder... I wonder....I continue to wonder and ponder ~ Love is too big a mystery to be comprehended.I guess the best way is just to let it flow and to catch it when it fall . = ].

Anyway,I am eternally grateful for having a great circle of friends, old and new together who are there to help me and make my life much better .As for the wind of change that is flowing gently on the air , I say, keep on flowing.May these changes nurture me and mould me into a better person.Thank you .