Post-Exam Days ~

After the much dreaded final examination , finally comes the long awaited happy big break. Well, this long break is supposedly filled with much joy, happiness and fun but I have yet to see any of that as of now.

In fact , the starting of my holiday seems pretty dull and filled with nothing but the occasional outing to cybercafes ,which I think is pretty lifeless and pointless,plus wasting money. But oh well, I guess that's what guys do =] .

Either way , again , as the big break approaches , this marks the near end of 2009 ,paving way to the new 2010,a new beginning,signifying yet the end of another chapter of my life.

So,again it is that time of the year again, the time of reflection .
So,dear readers (if there are any ), be warned that the following post will be filled with nothing but countless boring and dull words , coupled with a lot of emoness and pessimism. ok, you have been warned =D

As a young lad born under the star of capricorn , i was always the one having the skeptical and pessimistic perspective towards the world. Being a capricornus , it is only natural for me to be devoid of optimism and filled instead with the emotional feelings and extra sensitivity towards others.

As I grow up , I realised, I wasn't the type that could organise my thoughts and stuffs perfectly.I wasn't the systematic, calculative ,and manipulative type that have everything under control. In fact, I was the more emotional wan, the one more concentrated on feelings and emotions.

I wonder , is it a blessing or curse?

Either way , now that the holiday is here, the usual resolutions should be up too by now.

In this holiday , I vow to learn chinese, learn guitar more efficiently,exercise to be fit and most importantly, to study or at least revise .

Still, talk is cheap , and especially on a guy whose innate nature concentrates more on feelings and less on facts , figures and organisation , I wonder how this would be accomplished ? Things are rather complicated now. I can only wish that the storm will be over soon and the bright,warm light from the sun shall penetrate through the clouds of darkness and dawn upon me once more.

Truth to be told, I am not really in the mood to blog now.Hardly anything comes into my mind now save the plethoras of thoughts ,mostly pointless and perplexing ones being there to confuse me further.

Perhaps next time when the next event unfold, shall I blog again . Until then, may everything be well, for you and me =D

Exam Time

Finally , exam ended after a miserable four days. Well, as much as I appreciate the short 4 days only examination in Form 6 , I am equally dissatisfied with the fact that after our exam, there are still 2 weeks before school holiday starts.

Damn... how I yearn for holidays and the days after exam and it turned out that we still need to study to finish the syllabus.!~ oh well.. not that any of my classmates are actually listening when the teacher talks.

Anyway, back to the main topic. Referring to the title above, I am quite sure that many of you all would assume that since stpm is the super-duper-freaking-tough-3rd hardest examination in the world, we ,the sixth formers must be having a hard time dealing and coping with the examination stress right?

Ladies and gentleman, I can't begin to describe how wrong you are. Sure, that is the way we are SUPPOSED to be feeling but unfortunately , not to my class . Well, not this year at least =X. Strictly speaking,this statement does not apply to all of my classmates as some of them are really hardworking nerds that pour their heart and souls into the book, only to get a meager pass ( as stated by our physic teacher ) .

As the exam approaches , we can see an obvious segregation of group in my class . In the blue corner.. the supposedly hardworking model students pia-ing for exam.. in the red corner , the super smart students that assume this year's examination is useless and bz chatting away about games and gals x) . [ which I do agree on ]

Well, which group do I belong too , you might ask ? The answer is an absolute neither . I am neutral ! Hah!

Either way, that is not the point. I digressed. So,when examination starts , I was quite enthutiastic to do well and score in exam, considering the fact that I did study for something..Still , time passes ,and come the third day, I lost all the spirit to study.Luckily, it all objectives in the last day =D .

Alright,now, one question, what do you think students will be doing after they finish their exam paper and still left 30 minutes or so before exam ends?

( A ) Double check and keep rechecking the paper to avoid careless mistakes.
( B ) Sleep and day dream.
( C ) Kacau other ppl
( D ) Write a love poem.

:P which one would u think I would do?

Well.. i was wu liao enough to do B, C and D but not A lol.After completing my muet exam, I realise I still gt 30 minutes left,as such in order to prevent time being wasted sleeping away, I came up with this productive solution.. So, wanna see the poem ?XDD here it is .. enjoy lol

Part 1
As if by a slip of fate,
You appeared before me,
Cladded in white,
With your angelic smile ,
Your flawless complexion,
Your sultry lips,
Your gleaming sapphire-blue eyes.

You were the angel,
Descending from the sky ,
You were my salvation,
The brightest star in my life,
The light within darkness in my heart,
The only hope I ever have ~

Part II
As if bounded by chains of fate,
Your mesmerising gaze,
Attracted me,
And sealed my heart eternally with yours .
With that, my life was completed
And I thanked Lord,
For sending such beautiful angel by my side,
Saving this soul from his eternal suffering.

Part III
But our days are numbered,
And fate is cruel,
Slowly but surely,
Memories began fading,
Snatched away by the merciless time.
Those precious memories we made together,
Those irreplaceable joy we had,
Those genuine feeling of love we shared.

Part IV
Though,fret not , my dear,
Eventhough time might pass,
And memories might fade,
But I promise you,
As long as these eyes can see,
And these consciousness remains,
Shall this love continue flowing,
Forever and ever ... =] .


K.. end d.. Talk about things u can do in exam !~ lol . I jst wrote for fun, no particular intentions or directed towards anyone k ? XD. Constructive critisms are welcomed =DD

PFS Installation Day

When I was first being informed that I have been tasked with the responsibility to lead and guide the club for the next 1 and a half year, I was dumb-founded. I mean, what are the odds that a first-year member of a club gets to ascend to the highest post available by simply just joining the club? And yet it happened , a month or so after joining interact club , I got the post of the president =P . It all happened too fast that I was still in the state of shock and find it hard to believe after all this. Back then, my biggest concern was the installation day.

For those uninformed, interact club have this thing called installation day and as the name implies, on that day , the installation of the incoming committees would commence and be conducted by the outgoing committees. Basically the whole thing is we have games and activities and installation was just the "formal" name we go by to have fun in the school. However, the entire event was to be conducted and organized by ... me, or rather i mean US , the incoming committees .That was my biggest fear back then for I knew almost nothing regarding the club.

In a blink of an eye, the installation day finally arrived (26/09/2009) and to my surprise once more, it actually went on pretty smoothly.Well then, here is our story ~ I shall let the picture do the talking next. Enjoy ~ =)

There,first I have to say , thank you to the two brilliant emcees, benjamin and moey ~ thanks guys You guys did great ! =)
A closer look at the two emcees.

Part of the crowd.
Our first game was called the proposal game. Basically you have to run and pass the baton on to some random person until the music stops... then...

Then, you will have to propose to them =D . Of course, using some awkward materials we prepared beforehand.Like in this case, the guy used the cardboard as a bouquet of flowers.Cool Imagination huh ? Haha

Well... who says that people of the same genders can't propose each other?Look, we have gay couples too XD
" Marry me please, I am begging you "

Then, we had a little dancing performance from our own pfs members. Cool mask they have there right?

Next up was lunch .I bet no one will come to our installation if there was no food. Hah !
Then, we continued with another performance from yet another one of .... yup you guessed it OUR member ! Cool right, and it's a freaking band ! Damn, I am so proud of you guys.Who would have guessed that even pfs have their own rock bands apart from the nerdy band geeks in the school. They performed the song "21 Guns " from Green Day.

The drummer with his yamaha drum set .
The lead guitarist + vocalist ,who also doubles up as the emcee, Benjamin Sagerayne Han.Cool guy with a cool name. Cool !
Complete 3-piece band consisting of two guitarist and and a drummer.You guys rock !

This is supposed to be a free-dance session bu apparently the guys are too shy to dance eventhough they went out lol.
Even the gals are more sporting than the guys ...
Until this guy shows up and show them how cool can hip-hop be =D.Then, comes the next game. Balloon throwing game.
Participants getting ready for the big game.
One participant is supposed to be blindfolded while the others lead him/her along the designated path while we places / throw the water filled balloons to them but....As the saying goes "rules are meant to be broken " ,and considering we are dealing with mainly pfs guys and some other rowdy and wild teenagers here,it quickly went from a proper game, to a wild balloon throwing party ! Haha as expected.
Most of us ended up wet at the end of the day but seems like some of them enjoyed being wet . Just look at his smiling face =D .
Look at the mess we have to clean up afterwards. But it's worth it = )
Finally,it ends with some gifts and trophies presentation to the other school for their willingness to attend our installation day. (every school that have interact club has to have their installation day )

The hall after the end of installation.

A group photo of us interactors

At the end of the day , everyone was tired but we did have some fun , wait .. ok maybe a lot of fun =D .It was particularly fun that we get to ring the school bell and mess with the school PA System and hall and virtually everything in the school with no teachers or whoever discipline officers whatsoever telling us what to do . It was a day completely filled with us, rowdy hot-blooded teenagers commanding the stage =D .

I have to say, it was indeed a very fun and memorable experience.Although it wasn't the best party but it wasn't that bad either.At least, now I can proudly say that I had organized an event of this level and this experience will definitely prove beneficial in future events.

Alright, that's all for now. Tune in for more photos and events (if there are any ). Next up, MUET speaking ! ahh... the horror.

The Awakening

by Sonny Carroll
	A time comes in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere, the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying, or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes, you begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening... You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world, there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you and in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance. You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are ... and that's OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process, a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval. You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process, a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance. You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process, a sense of peace & contentment is born of forgiveness. You realize that much of the way you view yourself and the world around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. You begin to sift through all the junk you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh, what you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents. You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the process, you learn to go with your instincts. You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive and that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix. You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don't know everything; it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake. Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love; and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms, just to make you happy. You learn that alone does not mean lonely. You look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up." You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right, to want things and to ask for the things that you want and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won't settle for less. You allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to glorify you with his touch and in the process, you internalize the meaning of self-respect. And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest. Just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul; so you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn that for the most part in life, you get what you believe you deserve and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen, is different from working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time; FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears, because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear, is to give away the right to live life on your terms. You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions, you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers; it's just life happening. You learn to deal with evil in its most primal state; the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted; things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself, by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind, and you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can. Please note that this is an earlier abridged version and we are very grateful to the author, Sonny Carroll, for allowing us to share it with you. © 1999, All Rights Reserved, Reprinted With Permission

Now this is what I call a truly touching piece of writing that I believe most of us can relate to to a certain degree,some even at a personal level,like how I do. Well, enjoy it ~ = )

My Friday Adventure

It was 11 p.m in the night. While everyone else might have already on the bed sound asleep , I am still sitting right in front of the monitor,playing computer games and chatting .That was when I had a thought . Tomorrow is Friday . On a Friday , my school would ended earlier probably the earliest among all schools in Penang , at around 12 p.m , though it is only on Friday.

Out of the blues my mom asked me a question . " Hey, tomorrow you going to school ? " I dunno why she asked that but I saw an opportunity , and at that very moment , i put on the most tired and unwilling to go to school facial expression I could ever make and said with an equally weak and seemingly tired voice " Dowan la ma ,... tomorrow the teachers won't teach .. besides i will go home at 12 , so whats the point ? better stay at home and study "

That study plan was obviously an absurb,frivolous plan that would never succeed but of course in order to convince my mom to let me skip school, this silly study plan would definitely be needed.And so, with my endless persuasion ,coupled with some wits in forming brilliant but implausible reasons , I eventually succeeded in persuading her to let me skip school.

.........

Today, I woke up at exactly 12 a.m .I find it kind of funny that all the talks about the study plan to wake up earlier in the morning to study was absolutely nothing but craps. I ended up waking up at 12 , wasting 8 hours of time in which I would have been able to do something productive if I had gone to school , would I ?

Nevertheless ,I felt happy waking up this late and have no regret at all for I knew, even if I had gone to school, I would still just sleep at school and do nothing productive at all.So,case closed.Haha

Time passes slowly, and in a blink of an eye , I had wasted 3 hours of doing nothing and it is now approaching 4 p.m. As usual , my usual bad habbit of having a nap in the evening kicks in .Almost everyday without fail, I would sleep peacefully at around 4 - 8 .

And so I was again , slowly dozing off , trying to fight back the lethargy and the urge to sleep for I do not wish to waste more time.Though, this time I succeeded = ), thanks to one of my friend who had asked me to give her some book she needed hehe.

So, after I went down and gave her the book , again I felt sleepy .This time , I won ,successfully conquering my urge to sleep. The primary reason of victory ? Aha Ta da~ behold... when one is hungry and sleepy , the one thing that could keep you awake and full.. *warning, delicious food below, those with faint hearts and are hungry now please refrain from viewing it *
CHEEZY WEDGES !!!! YEASHQ&#T@^@$@*^$&*
Bless whichever creative mind that created this magnificen sauce + food . The almost seemingly golden and white cheesy sauce that enveloping that delicious,crunchy wedges . One bite and you will be in paradise... Ah . I love cheesy wedges !!!

And with that , I walked back home and switched on the com, blogging happily for being able to brush off that urge to sleep and enjoyed that tasty cheesy wedges.

I have to say , sometimes , just go out and take a gentle stroll around your area is quite relaxing and nice. Slowly walking, as the gentle breeze of wind slowly caress my face , and surround me .It was unbelievably tranquil and peaceful atmosphere.

And slowly discovering things I otherwise would miss when I am in car or other forms of transports . I discovered two , no wait . three cybercafes around my area ! Aha, for teenage guys that uses internet everyday , if all of a sudden , my internet connection is gone, then these internet cafes will be life-saviour !

Oh well, but for now, I guess I would just stick to playing at home = ) . Awhhhhh *yawns* .. swt looks like my sleepiness came back . Gosh. gotta sleep.. good bye for now =)

Wind of change

It has been a while since my last update.The reason for this tardiness being the laziness and the lack of news in my life lately.Again, nothing much happened .My life still remain the old,dull life I have been living this past 17 years.

Well,except for more new friends maybe and a new opportunity that arises recently.In retrospect , I haven't been getting much opportunity to excel and do something interesting,or rather I haven't been accepting or giving myself opportunity to do something interesting.Back in the past , I used to be the no- guy,the guy who shakes his head when opportunity arises, the guy who take a step backward when a new world is just right in front of him.

Yes,I used to be that cowardly , useless guy who lives in his own world, never wanting to get out of the small well to see the outside world.In fact, nothing much have changed now,save the fact that I am a lil bit more outgoing than the past me = ).

And I am certainly glad I did.After opening the door to opportunities and willing to say yes, I have entered a whole new world,a whole new adventure,filled with excitement , fun, joy and unexplainable happiness.Yet,with great power comes great responsibility.

Such fun, such excitement,such power, is not without a price to pay.Upon accepting the task given, I was engulfed with a sense of responsibility,and the need to act as a leader, a good and sensible one.No longer shall I continue with my childish ,playful and laid back thinking, no longer shall I act without thinking.

It's time I grow up.To have a great oratory skill, to be able to speak up confidently and eloquently , to be able to excel and lead by examples, those are the qualities of a great leader.I , for one, wishes to be one.I am now in the second last year of my highschool already.If I still retain my childish and playful mentality, how am I suppose to survive in the cruel adult world after this?

In order to survive the harsh reality,there is a need to grow,to grow and to incorporate as much knowledges as possible in this tiny brain of mine,to improve in every aspect and to be able to act as a mature,serious leader.Yet, the youthful side of me , the one capable of taking jokes,playing around and having fun must not be diminished.

As of now, things are progressing smoothly I guess.Not too great, but not too bad either = ) . Yet there are things I wish that could be improved on.One being my inability to concentrate and prioritising things.

Still, in recent days there seems to be some days where mood swing kicks in and all of a sudden, the happy-go-lucky attitude is gone and replaced by the gloomy,depressed mood.I can only blame myself for having a pessimistic attitude towards life.Perhaps things will change if I think more towards the bright side? Or perhaps it will remain the same?

Either way, on a more personal note , I am still equally confused and perplexed regarding my personal life.How will I proceed in the relationship ladder?Will I climb up ? or will I fall ? I wonder... I wonder....I continue to wonder and ponder ~ Love is too big a mystery to be comprehended.I guess the best way is just to let it flow and to catch it when it fall . = ].

Anyway,I am eternally grateful for having a great circle of friends, old and new together who are there to help me and make my life much better .As for the wind of change that is flowing gently on the air , I say, keep on flowing.May these changes nurture me and mould me into a better person.Thank you .

Ding Dong.

"Tick,tock,tick,tock ." The sound of the ticking clock alerts me.Hmm.. has school ended already ? Apparently no, I am still stuck in the boring,old-fashioned,class bearing the agony of listening to an inexperience teacher lamenting about something which I don't think that she is completely proficient in.

Tsk tsk tsk . That's about all that describes my daily school routine nowadays.Things haven't been fair lately.In fact, things seems to be getting tougher, a lot tougher. In recent days , it just so happens to me that I can't ignore the fact that I am being toyed around by fate and destiny.

Why must it be that everytime I start to feel happiness, or at least think I am getting it , a kick from the sky will have me sent back down to the gloomy , dark abyss once more. Is happiness that hard to achieve?

Back to the school, again , the school hours would see me sleeping , day dreaming around or being forced to stay awake ,or at least half-awake struggling to listen to the annoying voices of some teachers.Well,to be fair , there are some great and experienced teachers in my class , however there are some that lack experiences and knowledges , and of course some that are just more... laid back.

I am starting to feel the harsh reality of life now.The fact that I can no longer be spoon-fed by the teachers, neglecting the duty to study and just live a laid-back and relaxed life until the near beginning of the examination.

However,looking at other classes , who are constantly struggling to finish up their homeworks within a specific deadline, preparing essays and talks , having many short tests and quizzes , I just can't help but to feel the stress and pressure of Form 6.

Well,not that I want to complain about how easy my class takes it, but the fact remains, that is if we were to continue in the state as we are in now, nothing will change. We are too laid-back.After hearing the stories from one of my friend from matriculation who was visiting us today , I couldn't stand it, that the fact is matriculation is much tougher than us , the way they have it and look at what we are doing now?

Oh well,let's just hope this situation will change and things will be for better after the first test.

On a more personal note, I am beginning to grow tired of this play,of this game called life, of this so called happiness.While I do appreciate the things I am having now, I am also saddened by the fact that I do not possess some of the things that I really want .

Sigh, so much for the much anticipated happiness.Let's just quickly get this over with and move on to the next chapter of my life.

Maybe then would I find it,the much sought after treasure of life called.. ...

Legacy

Again,time marched on relentlessly, leaving behind foolish humans regretting and having remorses towards the endless past.In a blink of an eye, so much things have happened.Michael Jackson,the one regarded as an international symbol,a legacy on its own, a legend , finally breathed his last breath on 25th of June,2009.

It is truly a waste, a man of such talent, who is just on the verge on coming back to die in such a way.Such talents, such perfection,such abilities... His death will always be commemorated as one of the biggest loss to the world.

Either way,on a much closer ground,I have to be met with another loss .A loss of a good friend.Today,I had to attend a farewell party intended for my friend who is going to Australia soon.It has been a very nice experience knowing him and people around him.

It was a memorable event.Sitting down eating steamboats while kap-siaoing and having fun.And then it struck me.What an unbelievable group I am mixing with, a bunch of talented ,unique individuals with their special abilities and characteristics.

Upon closer observation, I realized that almost all of them are geniuses and very special in their own way.An all-rounder that can do well in sports and academics , A genius who skips grade a few time and still manage to maintain being the top student, A joker who craps a lot and very sociable ,an extremely outgoing and friendly girl, another smart and friendly girl, an unique couple,a kind but shy and quiet guy and etc etc.

Thinking about it, each of them are special, and gifted in one way or another ,one can even say that they are on par with any other geniuses in the world.What a bunch of talented individuals I am hanging out with.

I am indeed honoured and grateful being able to meet them.It made me realized that how small and weak I am compared to those gifted geniuses.It is like they are completely on a different world.Watching and looking on as they spoke on their big achievements and how they easily accomplish it with much humility truly embarasses me.

But of course , they are not perfect.Just by watching them, I realised that all of them, no , all of us, are special in our own way,and are legacies and legends for others in one way or another.Noticing this, I just can't help but wonder am I gifted with some sorts of talents or special ability too? or am I capable enough of leading others by examples? I continue to ponder and wonder....

Alright,thats all for now.Jia Yong and Yang Kang , best wishes to both of u in Australia =D. Same goes to the rest of the group currently in overseas studying or in other states!!!

Nil

Like vampire's thirst for blood, wolf's hunger for meat,men's lust for food, I strongly believes that everyone in this world,no matter who they are, have something akin to those mentioned examples.Desires,something which seems to be overwhelmingly powerful,yet uncontrollable, is something everyone possesses.

Used properly,it could be an instant ticket to success , instantly getting everything you could ever want,yet ironically,it could be the same tool of destruction that would drive one to his/her own downfall.

Yes people, desires ,a little something that can be disregarded as insignificant to others,yet to all the top and mighty people in the world,it might actually be the force that drives the world.

*****

As of now, I am still a little confused.Everyone have desires ,desires to get this, desires to get that, desires to success, however , I believe, most,if not all, shares the one common desire , the desire to win.

Me especially, having being influenced by the manga i read recently, are obsessed with winning.But of course,this should only be viewed as natural response right?Who in this world with a sane mind would want to lose? Nobody wishes to be in the realm of failures and losers,being left out and be shunned by the societies, hiding in the shadow of the winners forever.

I would often daydream ,envisioning and visualising myself as a complete winner, the perfect genius that conquered everything,from the top of the sky to bottom of hell.Yet those fleeting dreams are mere figments of my imagination,disappearing as quickly as a cloud of smokes.

The reality is far,so much further away from those fantasies.I tried to reach for the moon,only to find that I am nowhere even near the sky.As I slowly hit the harsh reality,I realise that it is simply impossible,impossible at all,for someone without talent,without the determination and someone who is as lazy and laid-back as me to do so.

Perhaps being average guy is more than enough ?Yes,right now , I am but an ordinary guy,with no special talent or skills whatsoever that just manages to live an ordinary life.Still, I am not satisfied,I have but one thing, the tenacity, tenacity to win,to surpass and surmount others....

Will that alone suffice? Will tenacity alone beat genius with hard works and efforts? I wonder... I continue to ponder and wonder...


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BAWH!!!!!! argh ok enough of stupid emo rantings. =.- Screw it. Alright , on a more personal note,Just underwent the first of the six-part house practices training.Needless to say,it was tiring and unexciting,AS USUAL.After 5 years of participating in this failed event,I am almost speechless to comment about it anymore.It's just too... dull....

Either way,billion thanks to the good Samaritan, Teng Aun for his willingness to drop me by bus stop today ! Thanks to him, I survived yet another day Whee!! Tomorrow's the teacher day for our school.Yup,means a holiday for us.Yeahh... well a short-lived happiness is not bad right?

Finally finished reading that manga.Now,it's time to pia.. pia... PIA!!!!!! Gloomy June is coming to an end,and Busy July is taking over.July seems like a nice month,hopefully. With multiple events like prom, activities, and test coming up, July sure seems like it will be a month full of surprise !!!

Ah I guess that's all for now.It is gonna get messy,better be prepared first.
When the going gets tougher,the tough gets going.
May everything be well again,for me,as well as you = D.

Time flies..

In a blink of an eye,form six had started already,and again, time flies,now,few weeks have passed since the beginning of form 6.

Well,it is almost seems a paradox that for the past six months i have been ranting and musing continuously about how I can't wait to start form six and as a matter of fact, I can't really sleep on that night before the big day,but look at it now, the current me is still the same,as nonchalant and laid-back as ever,save the fact that I have actually suppressed my curiosity of what form six life have in store for me.

By now, I would already had a rough idea of what form six is all about.Heck,it isn't really that much different than my previous five years school life.We are still donning the same uniform,still stuck with the same "strict" rules that absolutely created just for the likes of us to break them,still with the same studying environment,same teachers... well that's about all.

Sure,there might be some nice addition here and there,for instances, form six being a co-ed education opens up a new room for an endless possibilities to happen,in a good way of course.Moreover,in form six,we are supposedly tends to be more mature and competitive,following the usual norm,however,my class seems to deviate a bit from that perspective,much to my likings of course =D.

Right,so lets start a brief review of how things has turned out for me in this past few weeks.Both the good,and the bad .First and foremost,the first week of form 6 saw me making friends with diseases and illness.Diarrhea,flu,cough,fever, you name it, I got it.It was terrible, those canteen food,eat once, all sorts of diseases come flocking towards you.Oh well,at the very least it is over now.Hmm,so the bad start of the week left me wondering whether or not is this some kind of bad omen or indication for something far worst.

Fortunately,things are not as bad as it seems.Things finally started to kick-off,nicely =D.The next few weeks saw me making many new friends,fine friends,crazy friends,loud friends ,and last but not least girl friends ( obviously referring to the friends whom the genders are female ) =D ,very glad to do that.I am very satisfied with my classmates as of now.A bunch of crazy and chaotic ones mixed with a few shy girls and some outrageously funny ones .Nice!Sadly some of them are leaving soon ,transferring and going other schools = (,which is very REGRETTABLE as if they had stayed, our class could have been much much better hehehe.

Next,the learning process began,and the next few weeks saw 90% ,if not all of us,sleeping or daydreaming in the chemistry lab (for your information, we still did not get to sit in our official class yet ,no thanks to the lousy organizing skills ).We were even labelled Some of the teachers are really,really good though =D,and I deeply appreciate that =D.Some teachers however,are just plain bad and gave mediocre teaching lessons at the very least.Overall,it is just ok.

After that,things began to slowly unfold itself and until now, the latest event is the orientation games that happened today.It was fairly fun.Water balloons, blind fold games ,racing..and etc etc.Frankly though,it could have been so much better.

Moving on,so far everything have been flowing smoothly,and I certainly hope it remains this way,or maybe even gets better.Well,save the fact that some of them are moving and/or changing stream, I have nothing else to complain about.Alright,maybe just one, the teachers. XD.

Alright,having said all that,there is only one thing left to be done.In retrospect of the days that I have been so eager to resume my school life and enter the brand new f6 world, I am slightly sad to say that the results did not quite turn out to be what I expected,it did however it is still ok.

That being said, may everything gets better for me,and you .. =D

Form Six

.Well,ladies and gentlemen, look who is back !! !!Yeah,after what seems like an eternity after my previous post, I have finally decided to drag my lazy ass to the chair and my fingers to start typing.It has been ages since I last blogged.Almost a month or two I assume?

Either way, to be honest I am still having a writer's block as of the moment I am typing this.Somehow,six months of holiday is more than enough to rust my brain and prevent my creative juice from oozing out smoothly to form thoughts.In fact, I am still struggling just to put my thoughts into words.

Alright enough nonsense.I promised to blog about form six as it is quite a big and important event that is happening in my life now.After six months of slacking and doing nothing , finally it is time.Time to start using my brain efficiently and productively.Time to start studying hard.Time to start being serious about my future.

Though, it is definitely hard to start again.It is like a whole new life all together.Well,sure the fact that I will be coming back to the same school that I had attended for the past 5 years brought some relief to me, though the fact that form six will be totally different and i will be seeing new things and being in new environment still brings some sense of anxiety and excitement too.

Sad to say, the reality is just cruel.The first day was boring.Orientation,boring,as expected.I was glad being able to see those familiar faces of old friends coming back and the thought of being able to study with them again just brought smiles to my face.I had mixed reaction about the new faces though.On one hand, I was full of excitement at the thought of being able to expand my circle of friends and hopefully getting one or two best friends.On the other hand, I was kinda worried how well would I get along with them given the varieties of personalities there.

The first week of orientation was,needless to say ,boring,tedious and tiring.The fact that I was stucked with diseases like diarrhea , flu, cough and fever doesn't help it either =.-.

Anyway,as the saying goes,look beyond the storms. The dawn will eventually come and the storm will subside.And it does gets better.After the first week of orientation, I finally get to know my classmates and my class teachers.

As of now, things are fine.My classmates aren't too bad.In fact,some of them are friendly too .However,I believe things will get better soon.This is just the beginning.

In form six, I discover quite a number of things.For instances,people here tends to be more mature and determined.Maybe it is because the difficulty of the syllabus.Heck,STPM is the third hardest examination in the world anyway.

And I am liking it.I love the fact that I will be in highly-competitive environment,struggling and trying my best to overtake every obstacles along the way.In the end of the journey, I believe this shall mould me into a better person.

Having said that, I guess I must start working hard now,for form six,is totally different.This is really gonna affect my future.Alright,good luck to those having examinations now.I guess I shall take my leave now.Hence,begins this marks another chapter in my life.

Form Six,hopefully I am capable to cope with it....
May life be sweet for me,and you = D...

Of Dreams and Sleep.

Woke up at 4 a.m today.Yeah, I know. Such an unearthly hours right?And the fact that I woke up that early surprises myself too.For those that had known me for quite some time, you will know that I usually sleep around 2 or 3 p.m these days = ) .So,the biggest question here is ,how the heck did I sleep that late and wake up that early?

The answer is simple.I slept earlier the day before today =D.Shocking?Yeah I know . I myself was shocked when I got to bed at around 9 pm yesterday night.Not necessarily the earliest I had in my sleeping history of 17 years but yeah,it is definitely one of the earliest.

Once in a blue moon, I will sleep very early and wake up early too.Well,yesterday just happens to be one of those days.

Anyway,after that I......

Hmm...=.- nothing else to say la.Shit,nothing interesting to blog about... all I ever did was lifeless stuffs living a zombie like life,slowly rotting away.
I mean,ah shit I am having a writer's block =D.

Sigh.nothing to blog about laaaa . Wait till form 6 =D Then,there definitely will be something interesting to blog about ! heheh Until then, I shall go back to my slumberland to find more inspirations! toodles! Whheeeeeeeee.

Rainy Day.

The rain came pouring down in torrents.Accompanied by a gust of wind,together with the continuous gush of water that came flying down out of nowhere,it made a perfect recipe for a violent storm.

It was raining cats and dogs again today.In fact,for the past few days, the rain showers came out of the blues,starting from light drizzle to a rapid,torrential rain within seconds.Perhaps it was Mother Nature's way of showing the foolish human that something big is going on, or going to happen.....

I love rainfalls.Those familiar cold sensation,and the monotonous sound of rain droplets hitting the ground just seems to cover everything else away,leaving behind a totally calm and tranquil atmosphere.

As I stared blankly towards the empty space,my mind began wandering away from my physical body,slowly drifting away into an unknown dimension.My mind was empty back then.Nothing,no worries,no problems,no troubles clouding it at all.


In that particular instance,the only thing I have on my mind is the showers of rain in front of me.Such are the wonders of nature,so beautiful,so peaceful... so relaxing.Then,it struck me again.How long shall I be able to see this beautiful art of natures ? What will happen in the future?

Will I ever be able to feel this gentle breeze again? Or will I be stuck in a hectic life,unable to even take a stroll to the outside world to enjoy the atmosphere?I wondered and pondered,how will the days ahead be?Will I be happy ? Or will I live through a miserable life,struggling to pass days faster to end the pathetic life?
I guess,for now,all this shall remain a mystery to me.Just another month more to go till the end of this relaxing ,carefree life.The passage of time will march on relentlessly,and with each passing days, the hectic lifestyle of sixth formers will be approaching even closer.

No doubt the days ahead shall be full with thorny roads ,accompanied by many challenges and obstacles .However,I shall welcome it with open hands and embrace it with everything I have.May the days ahead be filled with happy,joyous and mirthful events.

Attachment.

Another day, another struggle.It has been almost 4 months since the end of spm.Life... haven't been too hard for me, nor was it too easy.I guess, it must have taken a toll on me.Spm, the supposedly life-changing experience that will dramatically improve or rather "evolve" my otherwise,simple and nondescript life did not seem to work it's magic.

My life retains the same without colours, it is still the same monochromatic colours that is painting my life story now,instead of all those colourful memories filled with bittersweet emotions and feelings.

The angst is still there, I do still throw tantrums occassionally. And of course,last but not least, the attachment ... is still there.I still remain clueless as where my future is heading, as of how am I supposed to live life,carrying this "burden" on my shoulders,and of course,how do I survive in the present remains a big mystery to me.

Not to say nothing productive have happened to me in the last few months. I took up guitar,my first musical instrument that I started learning,I worked ( albeit for a short terms only ),I read two novels and started to develop a passion of reading ( yeah, I did not really enjoy reading before ). and of course I started thinking seriously about my future.

I did learn a lot from this past few months.First and foremost,I learnt that in order to master something,discipline is needed,lot of discipline infact.This has been taught on me the hard ways by taking up guitar and working.

Never did I realise it would be this hard to learn something new without any guidance at all.There were plenty of times I thought of giving up and just give an excuse " I just wasn't born for this " but no... I persevered ...now , although I can't say that I am good at it, at the very least I learnt the basics of guitar.At the very least, I felt some sense of accomplishment for not giving up ! =D. As of working, I did discovered that in real life, it is really tough out there.

Things such as empathy,sympathy and other feelings are practically useless.It ain't an ideal world with protection out there.... Outside, it is a dangerous world,shrouded by mysteries and cloaked in a shadow..with strings being pulled almost everywhere. I ventured in once, and I stepped back,vowing never to step in again.

I admit , I lack enthutiasm and determination in working, but that is because the work I had wasn't involving my passions or interests at all.Still,it is of no excuse for my resignation.Well,at the very least , I shall remember this and think of it as a lesson so that I will not repeat the same mistake twice.

Moving on, nowadays, I find reading quite interesting. In fact , I have grown quite fond of reading that I have actually managed to read many thick books which I thought are strictly for nerds only that I never even will think of touching it before.Books are windows to our souls.Some books deserved readings as they would greatly improve your knowledges and intellect.

Next,my future.This is where I fell. I have completely had it.I was once dominated by the thoughts of it.It was too much for my humble brain to interpret.The possibilities are simply endless.I started thinking about some paths that will lead me overseas.

However, I soon realise by doing so, I have been restricting myselfs of other alternatives.Soon, although reluctant, I tried to open up by looking at the other point of view.What da ya know? It is a completely new world there.I can't even begin to descibe the possibilities.The sky's the limit.For now, I have decided that I will follow where the wind takes me.

In retrospect,along this few months ,although the passage of time was marching on relentlessly, I kept stumbled in between,regularly turning my head to look at the past.The memories of the past clearly remains a large attachment that keeps me from going on.I tried to let go,only to let it haunt me back again..

I tried embracing it,only to discover it was too much of a pain to bear.Forsaking it means I will be letting go of my past,those fun-filled schooling days, those adolescence memories.Still, the past remains a double-edged sword.However one tries to avoid it ,behind those happy stories lies some sad and sappy one.

Who could forget those gloomy days filled with terrors and fears?Who could forget the pain and agony of having any form of rejection? I know I can't.

Perhaps it would be the best to silently bear the pain while keep moving on.Hopefully the years ahead will show me a path where I will attain happiness and escape those tragic stories once and for all.I shall remain positive for now.Definitely the ray of hope will shine through this mist of darkness,and along it brings happiness,joy and peace to all.

May the days ahead be well... for you and me. =D

Random ba.

Well,seems like nothing big has been happening lately,oh yeah besides the big hole on my wallet that seems to be growing bigger day by day.Having no big events happening around lately, there is nothing for me to blog too.

However,seeing my blog ending up with all those long-winded,emotional,wordy posts kinda make me felt bad. I never wanted to bring this blog into the dark,emotional atmosphere it is in right now.In fact, I started out blogging by having the initial plan to wanting to express all my happiness and joy in the blog in a light-hearted and sharing the joy manner =D.

Hence,it is kinda depressing that my blog is all wordy and boring now.So,this post is specifically served to reverse the dark ,gloomy atmosphere looming around here.

Btw,this is completely random. After being on some blog-hopping for a while, I found tags very amusing.

Tags,or some sort of questionnaire that is being spreading in this blogosphere are very interesting alright.I mean,who wouldn't be amused by those funny questions and equally funny and random answers ppl gave?Throughout my experience in reading many of the tags done by friends or fellow strangers, I find it very entertaining and fun.

So,now... instead of getting tags from others, I decide to MAKE MY OWN TAG (and answering them myselves oso lol ) !=D AHA!
Alright here goes nothing.

* TAG *
First of all,tags will always start with one of the most random and stupidest question ever.So,

1) Are you in front of computer right now?
No, I am in the bathroom,doing this tag in front of a mirror. ( I know,doesnt make sense right? bt who cares )

2) What are you doing right now? ( the most common question in tags )
Doing this damn tag

3 ) If you are given a chance to reverse your life,will you go back to the past ?
Yeah,absolutely and no ,maybe nt.

4) What do you envision yourself doing in a few years?
Sitting in front of my monitor blogging.

5) What have you been doing in this past few years?
Nothing

6) What is your favourite activity?
Sleeping

And then.. in tags.. usually there are some compulsory ,almost a must ,questions...They are ... *jeng jeng jeng* love questions! !


7) Are you in a relationship with somebody now ?
Nawh.

8) Do you love someone now?
No , i don't love someone, i love many ones.

9) If you are able to change one of your characteristic/physical abilities,which one would u change?
Everything.

10) Do you believe in love?
yeah gua. Maybe =D

11) list 5 things tat u like about urself
I am a gud sleeper . I can eat a lot. I can sleep a lot. I dunno wat else i can say.

12) list 5 things tat u hate about urself
I am short .
I am lazy
i am very lazy.
i sleep a lot
i eat a lot.

Alright,due to laziness, I shall stop now.....Lame=.- yea i know . Sigh, to those that have interests in doing tags, do do it la =D . See the buddy list on the right ? >>>

Yeah I tag you guys and gals. =D Hope to see your tag results :O

Blank White.

I struggled to wade through the pools of water on the ground.It was dark and gloomy,surrounded by a brooding atmosphere.More than that,it was dead silent,so silent that one could practically hear every sound,includes that of even a dropping pin.

All of a sudden,I sense droplets of water rolling down my cheek.Was it rain or my tears?

***

Well,as dramatic as it might sound,it is really that dramatic.Well,it didn't go too bad.I reap what I sow.The results are exact reflection of my efforts.Something that actually equal to what I had put in.

It is exactly what I deserved.It is neither too bad or too good.Just average,mediocre.I had expected this to happen actually.Someway down the road while doing the examination,I had anticipated this.2 B's isn't actually very degrading for some,but for me it is really kinda disappointing.

However,what is done is done.No point regretting over the past.Just keep moving on.Sigh,lame .I hate what I am writing right now,it sounds so cliche'. Always the same thing,history repeating itself over and over again.

One thing I really don't understand ,why must we study the things that we don't like?Why must the education system be like this?As much as I hate to repeat it, I must insist that based on current education system,luck do play a role in determining the grades.

That being said,I shall not find excuses for myself ,nor shall I cower in fear and shame before facing others.I get what I deserved but I am neither proud nor am I shameful of the results.It is just another passing thing.

This too,shall just pass.. disappearing in people's memories sooner or later.Like I said earlier,spm isn't really a suitable benchmark for people's intelligence.At the end , the computer generated results are undebatable,not that I am denying the efforts of labours of those who achieved high scores.

It is just that,I am implying that it might be unfair to some of them.Behind the thick curtain of politics and shadows of government,who knows what happened?Many of people's achievement might just went unsung and we wouldn't even notice.

That is the crucial point.So,it is actually very biased form of judgment of our mental abilities.But all this will practically means nothing once you started working.At the end of the day,only our careers matters and our past education accolades will just went unsung.

Alright,guess enough is enough.All this rantings will go down the drain now =D.It is over at last.Now,new challenges await.I swear I won't repeat the same mistakes twice.

Hereby wishing all that scored well, congratulations and to those that did not do so well,life still goes on =D .I don't see why we should stop.

Lastly,to those that are soon facing this horrible examination (and of course, other examinations such as STPM too :P ), best wishes and good luck =D.

Everything

"What lies in yourself,only you but no one else can discover it. The sky's the limit = D"

Well,thats it,folks =D .Tomorrow is the big day.Yeap,tomorrow is the day where the fruits of our labours and efforts will be revealed. Tomorrow is the day where SPM results will be revealed .

It is strange how time passes so fast.It feels just like yesterday I just finished the last paper and yet tomorrow the results will be revealed.

I would be lying if I say I wasn't even a bit concerned with it ,much less being anxious and worry over it,However, the fact is, the results aren't actually that important.I mean,sure at this point of life, getting a great results would do much to your life,perhaps securing you a scholarship or two.

But if ,perhaps let's just think in a broader perspective.What will happen to those who didn't score well?Do they have to commit suicide?Is it the end of road?Well,the answer is a definite no.

All that matters is when one venture into adulthood and started working,getting the right career will be the most important.Next time,people won't be asking how many A's you scored,but rather what are you working as now?

That being said,of course in order to attain a great career,a solid education background is needed.So,in the end,the results still matters huh ? =D hahaha. What a complete paradox.Either way,I think i am prepared to accept the truth more or less.

In this past few months,I have been exposed to a lot of things that definitely help groom me in one way or another.What I view has definitely changed my pointview.

Some of the things that I actually learned are,sometimes hardwork alone isn't sufficient,it is the determination that makes all the difference =D.

And in the real world,it is crucial to learn the ability to choose the right people.One wrong step and you might end up getting yourself a lot of disasters.

There are too many things that the world has to offer.It is simply impossible to learn them all,or rather there are simply not enough time to do that.Therefore,learn to cherish time,appreciate things that are still here,and not take them for granted.

I also learned that it is memories and trusts that bond people together.The time that we spent together doesn't really matter that much.It is the memories we shared that are of utmost important.

Recalling the past experience,and expecting the future hurdles that I had yet be able to envision,I think it is best to embrace present.We won't know what might happen tomorrow,so why worry?Just cherish this moment.

Tomorrow will be another passing day.Good luck guys and girls! = ]

Reunion

" We might not recognize each other anymore... She is taller, He is bigger.And we might not even talk at all.The dead silence seems to be around with the brooding atmosphere.The tension was clearly felt as the cold war between us continues.... "

Or at least,that's what I had thought and worried...

The night before this, my heart was pounding with excitement and ironically,accompanied by a bit of fear and worries.Deep within my mind,I still can't relieve my worries.I fear that the problems I had imagined earlier will become reality and the reunion thing will become my worst nightmare.

This morning, I awoke with mixed feeling.A part of me can't wait to see the former schoolmates that I haven't meet for the past 5 years,yet A part of me still can't stop worrying about how it will turn up.

Yes,you heard it correctly.Apparently,for some weird reasons,we,my primary schoolmates did not even contact each other for 5 whole years.After our primary school life, we each walked our own separate ways,and bid each other farewell,saying that we will meet again soon. But it did not happen...,well not at least till now =D.

While it is nice knowing that you will meet back your old friends,on the other side, I felt a bit weird,or should I call it adventurous ,since for 5 whole years, we did not meet each other.I am pretty sure we will all change,a lot.5 years,especially is a long time for someone to change,So,it will probably be like a meeting with some new people.

People change,both physically and mentally.Given 5 years,how much can one change?I can't help but wonder,how would it be , if the same guys that you used to talk too,laughing and crying along with,had a sudden change of character? What if they change so much that we can't even recognize each other?

However,apparently as it turns out,I have nothing to worry about at all =D.Although our physique and physical appearance may change,deep inside, we are still the same old schoolmates,playing around and laughing like some fools,exactly the same in the past.

With this reunion,the nostalgias from the past has finally caught up,and now we can slowly reminisce about the good old days we used to spent together last time, and talking about the wind of change that we had experienced,together with our plans for the future.

For me,it was fun and definitely a memorable experience.I shall engrave this beautiful piece of memory in my brain,forever carrying it even till my deathbed.With this,I finally came to a conclusion.

It isn't the time that we spent together that matters most,it is actually the memories that we made that bonds us together,now and forever,being the most important thing in our entire life .=D

Hence,I shall forever treasure and cherish these memories,making them my most precious treasure that I shall never exchange for anything.

Thank you guys,lets reunite once more when we are free = ].

Keep Smiling

"Attitude,not aptitude determines your altitude in life "

Ever since the first time I heard about this quote, I just can't seem to get it out of my mind.Sure,it's nothing like a fancy quote or cliche' that you would normally see, but for some reason, there seems to be something special with it.

Something...revolutionary,something unique,something that will be life-changing.Sounds too exaggerating ?Not quite.For quite some time , I have been cracking my brain,trying hard to figure out ,what exactly is the secret hidden in this seemingly normal,mundane quote.

And then , I discovered it.The secret... The key to peace,tranquility,joy and most importantly,happiness = ].Hmm,as cliche as it may sound to you, no , this isn't an article picked up from those ubiquitous self-help books that you can find almost everywhere,nor is this some cheap advertising tricks that will make you lose your money.

This is the real deal ,folks. Something that I discovered and experienced myself.The secret lies within the first word of the quote,Attitude.Attitude,defined as how one behave and thinks of others and oneself is basically your thoughts.

Thoughts of one's mind is actually pretty powerful.This fact has been in fact, pointed by a lot of great thinker of the past and present as well.Those who know how to use the power of their mind will be able benifit greatly. But the question is, how? How do we use our mind to generate health,peace and joy ?

After some time pondering and wondering in the state of depression and emotional turmoil,it occured to me that the secret is to simply to think of happy things = D.

Many of us tends to fell into depression and emotional state upon hearing bad news or experiening failures.During that emotional imbalance period,we tend to think of ourselves as useless,worthless being that are incapable of doing anything at all.Well, I dunno about you guys, but I know I did that.

As we continue to indulge in our failures and incapability to do things,we slowly sink into depression.And that's how it all started! The key point is here.When we are exposed to bad news,our mind will automatically generate some bad thoughts as well.And by bad thoughts, I meant the imaginations and false premonitions that something bad is gonna follow up soon.

So,if we were to just change that "bad thoughts" into happy thoughts,we could easily change our life into a happy one too.Just keep on smiling and believing in miracles and good news will do.=D When sky turns dark and you see the storm coming, just put on a smiling face and embrace it with everything you have got .

It is silly how men are trying to discover the secret of happiness when it is just right beside us all the time.The secret is to simply keep thinking about something happy.Therefore,next time something bad happens,stop thinking about it,and instead focus your thoughts on something brighter,something nicer,something that will make you grin widely =D.

The choice is in our hands really.It is up to us to want to be in a gloomy,depressed state,or a happy,jovial mood and enjoy life in a greater perspective.Sometimes,when we are depressed and emotional,we tend to miss a lot of opportunities.We let this chances slip by because we have a pessimistic view of our life.So,why not try switching over to the brighter,happier side and live a better life?=D Being optimistic and happy all the time will definitely lead you through a better life.

Lastly,actually I don't really think anyone would even waste their quality time on reading this piece of crappy article.But,if there were folks that indeed read until here (either because of too bored and having too much time or sincerely interested in this article ), I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart =D and wish everyone to keep smiling and be happy in life!!! KEEP SMILING! = ].

It's Valentine.

" Sweet to many,sour to some,in the end of the day,it is just another passing day for me = ] "

It's that time of the year again.The day where gentleman put on their best attire,digging deep into their wallets,to spend money,treating love of their life to a scrumptious meal at a lavish restaurant,buying a bouquet of beautiful roses for them,charming their lovers with everything that they have.

It is this time,that you will see lovebirds all over the street,hugging and clinging to each other like there's no tomorrow.This is the time,where the metaphor " Love is in the air" literally rings true.This is the time,where most couples would be able to mend broken relationship,start a new one,and most importantly,for the male counterparts to express their love and to keep the lovey-dovey feeling keep going.

It is also the time of the year for citizens of singledom to yearn and cry of remorse and regret,for not having their other half by their side,for not being able to enjoy romantic night with their loved ones,and for not being able to spend this auspicious day with their partners for life.

As for me though,well,it is just another passing day = ].As much as I long for a joyous valentine,where I would be able to take my date to a romantic dinner,a simple movie,and then taking midnight stroll with just the two of us,I can't.I simply could not imagine that for now .

I do have my own dreams and hopes,yet my expectations prevent me from realising those fantasies.Maybe I just didn't find the right girl yet,or maybe I expect too much ?Or perhaps it is the other way around?

Bawh,it does not matter anymore for now.Right now,I just wanna enjoy life to the fullest,cherishing my soon-to-get precious freedom and just strives to improve myself in every aspect.

As for love and relationship,next valentine perhaps ? =D.

Either way,here wishing you all happy couples to forever be together and never be torn apart.Happy Valentine to you all lucky bastards =D.

and not forgetting the singles out there,Happy singles-awareness day!