twitter

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Ding Dong.

"Tick,tock,tick,tock ." The sound of the ticking clock alerts me.Hmm.. has school ended already ? Apparently no, I am still stuck in the boring,old-fashioned,class bearing the agony of listening to an inexperience teacher lamenting about something which I don't think that she is completely proficient in.

Tsk tsk tsk . That's about all that describes my daily school routine nowadays.Things haven't been fair lately.In fact, things seems to be getting tougher, a lot tougher. In recent days , it just so happens to me that I can't ignore the fact that I am being toyed around by fate and destiny.

Why must it be that everytime I start to feel happiness, or at least think I am getting it , a kick from the sky will have me sent back down to the gloomy , dark abyss once more. Is happiness that hard to achieve?

Back to the school, again , the school hours would see me sleeping , day dreaming around or being forced to stay awake ,or at least half-awake struggling to listen to the annoying voices of some teachers.Well,to be fair , there are some great and experienced teachers in my class , however there are some that lack experiences and knowledges , and of course some that are just more... laid back.

I am starting to feel the harsh reality of life now.The fact that I can no longer be spoon-fed by the teachers, neglecting the duty to study and just live a laid-back and relaxed life until the near beginning of the examination.

However,looking at other classes , who are constantly struggling to finish up their homeworks within a specific deadline, preparing essays and talks , having many short tests and quizzes , I just can't help but to feel the stress and pressure of Form 6.

Well,not that I want to complain about how easy my class takes it, but the fact remains, that is if we were to continue in the state as we are in now, nothing will change. We are too laid-back.After hearing the stories from one of my friend from matriculation who was visiting us today , I couldn't stand it, that the fact is matriculation is much tougher than us , the way they have it and look at what we are doing now?

Oh well,let's just hope this situation will change and things will be for better after the first test.

On a more personal note, I am beginning to grow tired of this play,of this game called life, of this so called happiness.While I do appreciate the things I am having now, I am also saddened by the fact that I do not possess some of the things that I really want .

Sigh, so much for the much anticipated happiness.Let's just quickly get this over with and move on to the next chapter of my life.

Maybe then would I find it,the much sought after treasure of life called.. ...




Friday, July 3, 2009

Legacy

Again,time marched on relentlessly, leaving behind foolish humans regretting and having remorses towards the endless past.In a blink of an eye, so much things have happened.Michael Jackson,the one regarded as an international symbol,a legacy on its own, a legend , finally breathed his last breath on 25th of June,2009.

It is truly a waste, a man of such talent, who is just on the verge on coming back to die in such a way.Such talents, such perfection,such abilities... His death will always be commemorated as one of the biggest loss to the world.

Either way,on a much closer ground,I have to be met with another loss .A loss of a good friend.Today,I had to attend a farewell party intended for my friend who is going to Australia soon.It has been a very nice experience knowing him and people around him.

It was a memorable event.Sitting down eating steamboats while kap-siaoing and having fun.And then it struck me.What an unbelievable group I am mixing with, a bunch of talented ,unique individuals with their special abilities and characteristics.

Upon closer observation, I realized that almost all of them are geniuses and very special in their own way.An all-rounder that can do well in sports and academics , A genius who skips grade a few time and still manage to maintain being the top student, A joker who craps a lot and very sociable ,an extremely outgoing and friendly girl, another smart and friendly girl, an unique couple,a kind but shy and quiet guy and etc etc.

Thinking about it, each of them are special, and gifted in one way or another ,one can even say that they are on par with any other geniuses in the world.What a bunch of talented individuals I am hanging out with.

I am indeed honoured and grateful being able to meet them.It made me realized that how small and weak I am compared to those gifted geniuses.It is like they are completely on a different world.Watching and looking on as they spoke on their big achievements and how they easily accomplish it with much humility truly embarasses me.

But of course , they are not perfect.Just by watching them, I realised that all of them, no , all of us, are special in our own way,and are legacies and legends for others in one way or another.Noticing this, I just can't help but wonder am I gifted with some sorts of talents or special ability too? or am I capable enough of leading others by examples? I continue to ponder and wonder....

Alright,thats all for now.Jia Yong and Yang Kang , best wishes to both of u in Australia =D. Same goes to the rest of the group currently in overseas studying or in other states!!!

= Nuffnang =