Ding Dong.

"Tick,tock,tick,tock ." The sound of the ticking clock alerts me.Hmm.. has school ended already ? Apparently no, I am still stuck in the boring,old-fashioned,class bearing the agony of listening to an inexperience teacher lamenting about something which I don't think that she is completely proficient in.

Tsk tsk tsk . That's about all that describes my daily school routine nowadays.Things haven't been fair lately.In fact, things seems to be getting tougher, a lot tougher. In recent days , it just so happens to me that I can't ignore the fact that I am being toyed around by fate and destiny.

Why must it be that everytime I start to feel happiness, or at least think I am getting it , a kick from the sky will have me sent back down to the gloomy , dark abyss once more. Is happiness that hard to achieve?

Back to the school, again , the school hours would see me sleeping , day dreaming around or being forced to stay awake ,or at least half-awake struggling to listen to the annoying voices of some teachers.Well,to be fair , there are some great and experienced teachers in my class , however there are some that lack experiences and knowledges , and of course some that are just more... laid back.

I am starting to feel the harsh reality of life now.The fact that I can no longer be spoon-fed by the teachers, neglecting the duty to study and just live a laid-back and relaxed life until the near beginning of the examination.

However,looking at other classes , who are constantly struggling to finish up their homeworks within a specific deadline, preparing essays and talks , having many short tests and quizzes , I just can't help but to feel the stress and pressure of Form 6.

Well,not that I want to complain about how easy my class takes it, but the fact remains, that is if we were to continue in the state as we are in now, nothing will change. We are too laid-back.After hearing the stories from one of my friend from matriculation who was visiting us today , I couldn't stand it, that the fact is matriculation is much tougher than us , the way they have it and look at what we are doing now?

Oh well,let's just hope this situation will change and things will be for better after the first test.

On a more personal note, I am beginning to grow tired of this play,of this game called life, of this so called happiness.While I do appreciate the things I am having now, I am also saddened by the fact that I do not possess some of the things that I really want .

Sigh, so much for the much anticipated happiness.Let's just quickly get this over with and move on to the next chapter of my life.

Maybe then would I find it,the much sought after treasure of life called.. ...