School Life

Ah... it has been nearly 7 months already since the last of my schooling days.How did time managed to pass so fast ? In a blink of an eye, so much things had been done yet , the feeling of emptiness still lingers deep down in my heart. I am starting to miss school. No, not the endless nagging and homeworks that tortured me . Is it the companionship and sense of belonging at school.

Upon reading an article about youth camp lately, it provoked the thought of my own camp experiences,back when I was still schooling.There's something special about participating in an event with many of your peers together, having fun , enjoying themselves like it's the last day on earth.I miss it now.. The sports days , the cheering of your schoolmates in the 100 m run , the club activities, the gatherings, everything .

In retrospect, I wasn't much of an active person. Not passive enough to be called socially inept or reclusive ,but I definitely wasn't the most popular or happening student back at school . I did not actively seek out opportunities and involve myself in most club activities back in form 1 , much to the chagrin of my present self. It was only till around form 4 did my sense of curiosity managed to bring me out of my comfort zone and awakened the wild , active side of me. And oh boy, am I glad it did , for it was in that particular period of time that I enjoyed the most .

The overwhelming sense of achievement and victory when you won something or did something that garners loud cheers from people , the pathetic sense of defeat and uselessness when you did some mistakes or wrongdoings. I love them all.. It is said that only when you had felt the pain of defeat, will you know the bittersweet taste of victory. How true it is. I am so glad that I broke away from my empty lonely shell.

However, looking back ,I would definitely have enjoyed more of my schooling life had I be active earlier, perhaps back in Form 1 ? Again, it's one of those " If only I.." moments that struck the deepest part of your heart. How I wished I could go back to Form 1 again and relive my life as a secondary student ,albeit this time, with a big difference ;).

But then again, who knows what could have happened if I did that?After all, life is always unpredictable and besides, it's practically impossible to do that.Hence, I have to settle for the next best option , accept what has transpired and move on in hope of a better future.

Now this is pragmatic and applicable.. As of now, I am waiting for my university application result. If all goes well, I hope that I can be able to get some great lifelong friends and have a lot of fun in uni. This time,I will definitely be proactive and participate in everything. So, until then... pray for me people :) .