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Like vampire's thirst for blood, wolf's hunger for meat,men's lust for food, I strongly believes that everyone in this world,no matter who they are, have something akin to those mentioned examples.Desires,something which seems to be overwhelmingly powerful,yet uncontrollable, is something everyone possesses.

Used properly,it could be an instant ticket to success , instantly getting everything you could ever want,yet ironically,it could be the same tool of destruction that would drive one to his/her own downfall.

Yes people, desires ,a little something that can be disregarded as insignificant to others,yet to all the top and mighty people in the world,it might actually be the force that drives the world.

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As of now, I am still a little confused.Everyone have desires ,desires to get this, desires to get that, desires to success, however , I believe, most,if not all, shares the one common desire , the desire to win.

Me especially, having being influenced by the manga i read recently, are obsessed with winning.But of course,this should only be viewed as natural response right?Who in this world with a sane mind would want to lose? Nobody wishes to be in the realm of failures and losers,being left out and be shunned by the societies, hiding in the shadow of the winners forever.

I would often daydream ,envisioning and visualising myself as a complete winner, the perfect genius that conquered everything,from the top of the sky to bottom of hell.Yet those fleeting dreams are mere figments of my imagination,disappearing as quickly as a cloud of smokes.

The reality is far,so much further away from those fantasies.I tried to reach for the moon,only to find that I am nowhere even near the sky.As I slowly hit the harsh reality,I realise that it is simply impossible,impossible at all,for someone without talent,without the determination and someone who is as lazy and laid-back as me to do so.

Perhaps being average guy is more than enough ?Yes,right now , I am but an ordinary guy,with no special talent or skills whatsoever that just manages to live an ordinary life.Still, I am not satisfied,I have but one thing, the tenacity, tenacity to win,to surpass and surmount others....

Will that alone suffice? Will tenacity alone beat genius with hard works and efforts? I wonder... I continue to ponder and wonder...


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BAWH!!!!!! argh ok enough of stupid emo rantings. =.- Screw it. Alright , on a more personal note,Just underwent the first of the six-part house practices training.Needless to say,it was tiring and unexciting,AS USUAL.After 5 years of participating in this failed event,I am almost speechless to comment about it anymore.It's just too... dull....

Either way,billion thanks to the good Samaritan, Teng Aun for his willingness to drop me by bus stop today ! Thanks to him, I survived yet another day Whee!! Tomorrow's the teacher day for our school.Yup,means a holiday for us.Yeahh... well a short-lived happiness is not bad right?

Finally finished reading that manga.Now,it's time to pia.. pia... PIA!!!!!! Gloomy June is coming to an end,and Busy July is taking over.July seems like a nice month,hopefully. With multiple events like prom, activities, and test coming up, July sure seems like it will be a month full of surprise !!!

Ah I guess that's all for now.It is gonna get messy,better be prepared first.
When the going gets tougher,the tough gets going.
May everything be well again,for me,as well as you = D.