Of Hopes and Aspiration ~

HEY ya peeps ! how are u guys ? :D Sorry for the lack of updates , too busy recently . ( ya rite who am i kidding ? it's just pure LAZINESS ) Anyhow, I am back, I guess.. for now :D

Life have not been good to me . Not to say that there aren't great moments however I just have to say that perhaps the dull and dark moments far outweighs the great ones =( .

School life is as mundane and dull as the pendulum clock in my house. Just like how the nondescript sound the clock makes when it ticks , my life sounds just exactly like that . Well, however in recent days ,I have learn to be more appreciative and grateful to what I have.

Indeed it is true that my life is not the best or the greatest out there ,( well personally , I hate my life sometimes ) but it is not the worst either. Having talked to quite some people and observed their daily life , I find that there are some other people whose life is way more miserable than mine and yet they can still find the courage to smile and move on just like that . Honestly, I really salute them ,for their courage to weather the storm and emerged smiling.

And yet there are those that prefer to remain sulky and "emo" over their current life. Well, i have no right to condemn nor even criticize them because I was a part of them , maybe still am sometimes :D.But hey , we are teens right? And teens have teenage angst and we have to throw tantrums around sometimes or get emo ! Otherwise, we won't be called teens right?

These days, I felt that staying at home is so much better than staying in school. I find school life miserably pathetic and depressing sometimes.Why is it so ? I just couldn't stand sometimes that people have to stick to their own group and form cliques. Why can't we just mix together all the time ? Why must we be nice to some people only sometimes to reap the benefits in that particular moment and to just dispose of that "connection" when it is no longer needed.

It is saddening.This malady of human society is maddening.It stinks and reeks of dirty stench of favouritism.I find this state of hypocrisy disgusting. Some claim that they are friendly and all but the irony is, they only mix when the time is right . The other time, they don't even acknowledge your existance.

And it just shows just how mean people can be. Imagine a society full with hypocrites like that ? Sigh . Alright ,enough of the bad news . How about some good news? :D

Recently, I have been intoxicated with music, and I mean really intoxicated with it ! I FREAKING LOVE MUSIC!!! YEAH :D It's amazing how ironic it would be . A few years ago , if anyone were to sing even the latest song or even humming it , I wouldn't even recognize it at all . In fact, I would probably despise it .

And now ? I could only say that music is the only antidote to my emo-ness now :D God bless musicians ! ! !

Another great happening in my life is the opportunity to meet new friends. And I find this opportunity arising even more now . And I am very grateful and glad that I made the move .In my 19 years of life , I have come to learn it the hard way. If guys don't take initiative , you won't get anything at all.

I sincerely hope that the bond of friendship that I have forged over the years remain strong over the years and withstand any obstacles that come our way :) . My current wish and hope for the future is that I could be friends with everyone ! Yeah, I know it sounded childish and unrealistic but well, that's just me :D Anyway , I remain optimistic and hopeful for the future. May everything be well, for u and me : ) . Oh, and MUSIC ROCKS MY SOUL !! YEA