The first time our eyes met , everything seems to slow
down , the background fades into a blur , leaving behind the only focus , her .
You know what they say about falling in love for the first time? Like in a
romantic love scene , time seems to stand still at that exact moment . My heart
skips a beat , and then another beat.. and slowly but surely began to palpitate
at a pace I was unfamiliar with.
My face expression gave in , and the awkward smile began
fading away , giving a blushed , flustered look. I guessed Lady Luck was
smiling at me . Either that or it must have been a figment of my imagination ,
because I swear , at that moment , I saw an angel smiling at me.
It was a cute grin at first , but it slowly turned into a
mesmerizing , dazzling smile . I was speechless , stunned even. All I could do
was to reply with an awkward looking smile . After what seems like an eternity
to me , we started talking , with she started the conversation first. Her voice was an absolute bliss.
It started with a small , casual talk . But I guessed the
regular chat through the net and phone did the trick . The once casual talk
that we had grew into endless conversation and what began as casual admiration feeling
slowly grew into love. The rest ,as they
said , is history ;).
***
Now , that would be how I envision my love life would be
after countless watch and re-watch of romantic dramas and movies but
unfortunately reality is just too harsh and is totally different from the usual
fantasy portrayed in the movies.
Instead of the dazzling , handsome prince riding a white
horse , I am but an average-looking Average Joe with no transportation
whatsoever except my pair of old , but workable legs. And instead of beautiful
, model-like women accidentally bumping into me and we had love at the first
sight sort of thing , the closest physical contact I ever got with a women was
holding a little kid’s hand while crossing the road. ( A little bit too much of
exaggeration but , oh well u get the idea :P ).
Geez, reality sure is harsh huh. Not to mention , instead
of elegant , charismatic princess-like women surrounding me , in reality , you
are most likely get a bunch of women with different , complicated personality
and very little , if not none of that princess like features that I mentioned
aforehand. Not that beauty is a big issue . Beauty itself is a very subjective
thing and every people viewed it differently . So, someone who you deem as not
so good-looking might be very good looking to others and vice versa. However, the
things that irate me are the complications, or more appropriately termed “patterns” shown by some girls.
Over the few years , I have seen much patterns shown by
some girls . These includes egoistic, control-maniac, princess syndrome , perfectionist
, and etc. Girls that have egoistic behavior and princess syndrome are
basically the same , in the sense that they take everything men do for granted
, without any sense of gratitude or even appreciation to them. The control
maniacs on the other hand , will assume authority in every matter , without
even listening to other’s opinions . Whereas the perfectionists , are the one that
would demand perfection in everything , insisting that people did not give
their best without realizing that everyone’s limitation of giving their best is
different .Of course, even us men are susceptible and liable to these “patterns”
but in our defense, these stereotyped patterns are found more generally in
women.
I digressed. As the main focus of this post today is
about how I envision my love life to be , I shall refrain from expounding
further on that argument . So, going back to how love life should be.
As a romanticist
at heart , obviously I would want that ideal situation with that ideal model-
like women. But as I slowly grew up and attained maturity . Slowly but surely ,
I realized that if the environment itself is hard to change , then change
yourself. Beauty is subjective to your own perspective . And beauty itself may
not necessarily be the determining factor. There are lots of other factors
contributing to love. Plus, who says love can be predicted or anticipated? When
love comes, you just fall head over heels.. And they call it fall in love ,
because you literally fall into it , something that you can never prepare or
anticipate for it beforehand.
And like what one of my friend said, sometimes it’s all
the imperfections that made it perfect. For now, I don’t want to look for the girl with the
perfect hour glass figures , flawless complexion and pretty face . I am looking
for someone who would love me as much as I love her ;) .
Ah… the things I would love to do with a lover .. They
are countless ! Top of my list being to travel around the world , visiting
fascinating Mother Nature’s creation , one at a time, a guitar by my hand,
another hand holding hers , and enjoying life to the fullest !!!
Oh well, guess that would be left for the future me to
deal with. As for the present me, all I need to do is to enjoy the presence ,
and enjoy life, one step at a time ;)
Till the happiness in the not too distant future comes , hopefully I shall be able to continue
retaining this positive attitude. See ya ~
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| The scene that inspired this post. Scene from Roraima Mountain , Venezuela . |
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