Perplexing Ending~

o well,i wish to blog about happy things too but ..unfortunately i just don't have happy and joyous things to blog about =.=" Ah.... after coming back and forth , there are only 7 days left till school reopens... o well this 31st there will be one more party which will be organized by my friend.I highly anticipating it .. but now .. all hope seems lost ...it felt as if i had fell deep deep inside a hopeless abyss...Why so ?Suddenly all the friends tat i knew said no , they can't come! And with that , the journey ends.. Now, i just hope a miracle would happen ,and i would be able to meet friends there....

There are so many secrets binded deeply within my heart . All i need is just a key.. a key to unlock them!DAMN! I just wish i can tell someone whom i can trust....Somehow, every time i hear this piano rhythm, it touches my heart and automatically,my hand will start moving on it's own , it is like it has a mind of its own or something like tat.. And with that , all this words that u are reading now , all will appear magically...

Ah , my thoughts are lost... my mind are down ... i dunno what am i thinking also now...After much thoughts though, i still think the songs,the themes and the background here suits moody feelings still. I realize this blog is no means of communication,it is just a tool for me to pour my purging emotions here.Feelings running through this blog... i hope one day, someone just maybe someone, will understand it ...

New beginning!

Ah here begins a new page in my life. well ..erm to be precise not in life ler . just in this blog nia hehe. So, recently somebody have been complaining tat this blog is too emo eh ?:P ah well indeed true I dunno why the hell it became like that also . It just did! Would u believe if i were to tell u that in the beginning of the creation of this blog, i was planning to make this blog a happy and energetic blog ? ehehe i wouln't believe myself either.Sad songs ..... sad post...surreal background . All this is like in some way indirectly leading this blog to a pessimistic ending
But hey! look on the bright side, i am going change all that NOW! from this instances i will make this blog a joyous wan ^^ lets and GO!!!!!!!!!!! XP

sien~

Again 1.00 a.m and i sneakily on9 again ah this is getting boring,i could have done something productive right now,something beneficial.. but narhhh.. i will pass.Obviously due to my laziness, i wouldn't be able to do anything productive. however , instead of just loitering around here... with the com on for nothing , i shoud be able to at least do something to enhance my brain power .Nevertheless, i found my self chatting my way to sleepiness.Ah this is getting corny, on9 and chat is just a waste of time.


Though , i did manage to find myself some rather interesting yet peculiar information b4 chatting.Yes, actually i on my com to seek this info.After a lot of thinking , i suddenly got an urge to seek information concerning "photographic memory".Ah well , how i get to know this term is erhh.. basically via a fictional character in a manga. As weird as it may seem,when i search in wikipedia , i found that this "photographic memory" thingy actually Do exist! well..sort of .It is know as "eidetic memory"

Now ,although it does exist but it doesn't actually mimics the rumoured ability perfectly.The thing is that although ppl with "eidetic memory" are able memorize specific details just after a mere 30 seconds glance but they can't memorize EVERY single detail on an image perfectly like what the myth of "photographic memory" can do.However,it is worth mentioning that with this eidetic memory,someone is able to remember something to a greater length and a broader storage of memory capacity compared to a normal person.An eidetiker (person who possess this extraordinary brain power ) is able to remember very fine details of something like ... a whole passage or a block of texts in just a mere 30 seconds! ain't that astounding? But,they do tends to have a certain extend of limit.

Ah either way enough of this eidetic thingy , i am sure most of u who are reading it are bored and most probably would already click the [X] button on top by now. However ,if u have yet to click that button , then congratz! coz u are persistent enough to be able to reach here. As such , i grant u permission to uncover some pages of my life XP (ain't a big deal eh ?)haha yea yea i know i am being a little over -perasan here but well just for fun sake ..hehe either way here we go.I have been going a little wild on my imagination just now.By looking at an advertisement paper, i tried imagining i owning all those luxurious stuff.. and this become part of my aim now!ah well actually i aint depressed d anyway . Lets see what i got now.I set a goal for my life already , I have trainings and courses i need to get to walk pass the path of the goal ... and the only thing i am missing are... DETERMINATION and EFFORT!Here lies the key point,EFFORT!, it is obviously contradicting with my laziness but to achieve my goal and prevent failure like my end year exam result .. (i learnt my lesson T.T) i need to surmount my laziness!so here we go!

Mind rambling again~

ah.. here it goes again, after so long of thoughts , my mind is rambling again.Now, after all i went through for this few months, ,unbearable lost in everything that i done totally changed me.. though i experience all this pain and the agony truly is terrifying... i , wish to rise again. above all these, i surely do hope to learn a thing or two. so , pls .. give me a miracle!

3 .a.m

It is 3 a.m in the morning...i am here,on9 and surfing web but i didn't chat with anyone,in fact i chat with almost no one.Every one of my contact who is online seems to put their status as "on9" .. but i knew they won't reply .Ah i am tired of thinking...now just browsing fs around ...what a pitiful life i am in.... ok ..enough tinkering around , i realize there is nothing i can change... just looking on like a fool...chasing on an impossible dream.. as idiotic as i am now, i do realize it is time to stop dreaming..