Mind rambling again~

ah.. here it goes again, after so long of thoughts , my mind is rambling again.Now, after all i went through for this few months, ,unbearable lost in everything that i done totally changed me.. though i experience all this pain and the agony truly is terrifying... i , wish to rise again. above all these, i surely do hope to learn a thing or two. so , pls .. give me a miracle!