Green in life.

It has been a while since i last blogged eh?o well, i have much things to be said in life but yet i just couldn't bear to say it out loud here.All those things... they just have to stuck in my mind.What can i say ? It is just me . O well since i started it now, i should continue to blog for what i have left out in this past weeks....

First of all, this year have been quite a disastrous year for me.NOt only that i keep on procrastinating things that i was supposed to do LAST year, yet i neglected my duties to study at the same time also =.=.What i have been doing then ? Well,ever since i had my bad lucks, i just kept on daydreaming everyday .. on9 , chat , and then sleep..For me ,school is just a nuisance.Everyday i went to school, i just hope that it would end right there and then.Yet i continue to think...Every night, i would just think... Until now, i would say that i would have mastered the theories of life~~ Studying hard, earning money, obeying instructions.All these are viable but implausible.Getting the theories are ez but working them out practically ?Nothing but mere illusions... Sometime , i thought i already worked them out but after all , it turns out i am just being a fool.It is just me being played by the delusions of my heart.

Once again ,i have fallen under my knees.. unable to do anything ,that feeling is just unbearable.How i wish i can go to a space where only i and nothing else is there.... passing time and space ... the dimension where i can seclude myself.After all,my zeals and efforts just doesn't work.I lack of will power.Moving on, this year is spm year.next monday is my school UP1 exam.It ain't much but i will still study for it ... or at least that's what i think i will do..

Journey to the past.

The temperature is constantly changing....the weather is always changing....even the time is always changing....Why ...Why change is the only constant ?? Why can't we make time the constant?It is just me to keep on pondering on this insignificant things.I guess i am emo again?Still, i don't really comprehend what does "emo" truly means.As i am now, i just couldn't stop thinking.I am in an state,unexpressed by words....numb,nil,void of all emotions ..or is it ? This might be it.The definition of "emo". But i felt that something ... just something .. something is missing from the equation. yeah.. what is it o yeah.. It is like something from the past...Something from my past is back to haunt me. "outright extrovert , innate introvert " is what i would like to use to express my state now.But still... i felt like the past is calling me...My dark,old past.. Deep inside abyss of darkness,i could feel a light calling out for me.Is it a blessing ? or is it just a curse disguised by the illusions of my heart..... I dunno. I might be returning to my past self again.With this , i might be able to uncover a bit more of my mysterious past.The one that even i,myself knew nothing about....Without doubt , i am venturing into an enigma.I guess i am returning .. to my old self? or will it be me with renewed confidence and self esteem?only time shall decide.If there are two things that i want now,I would say it is everlasting time and emotions...................

17/2/08~

Emo? hehe wat a simple word...Yet it would be able to inflict so much changes upon somebody.... If fate forbids me from changing my destiny , i shall use my own hands to carve out my road to success.Time shall proves my triumph.

Trust and Independence

Trust.... Is it the right thing to do ?To trust others or to rely on yourself..Until now it is still a mystery.To me , after countless of mishaps and unfortunate events happen due to trusting others ==, i decided tat rely on one's self is the way to go~..Why is that so ? Well,first of all, through logical deduction, you can easily deduce that,by entrusting other people with YOUR own job,they will not be able to have the passion to work on it as much as you do.Why so ? Coz it is YOUR OWN JOB and not theirs ! why do u think they would be bothered to do your work?That means that there are high chances and risks that the thing u entrusted to others might fail if u trust others.Even if they did not do it,the fault and blames will still be on YOU and not them.With this thinking , one can reach the conclusion that it is a lot safer if you rely on yourself rather than trusting others. Due to the endless fatigue i am having now,i shall stop here ... TT i am currently having sien²..

sien²=(sien)(sien)
=(boring)(tired)
=Boring Fatigue.

I dunno what am i crapping also. k bye for now.

Heheh ,cool pic eh ?Got it from a friend lolx.The original picture was just a normal scenery picture,but my genius-in-art friend edited it into this. Cool huh ?XD it directly expresses the feeling of emo . Visit his blog here to see what "emo" is truly is ^^ (P.s i had minimized the picture to suit my blog's space.To see a better quality of this pic ,just click on it^^)

CJ7~! Xd

Today,i went to Gurney plaza and watch CJ7 with friends! Cj7 is indeed one of the BEST movies that i have watched in this year ^^If there are words to describe this fantastic movie, i would say it is a perfect blend of brilliant casts,terrific performances,state of the art visual effect and a great sense of humour. ^^ Here is a brief synopsis taken from it's official site.

"A fantasy tale featuring state of the art visual effects, CJ7 is a comedy about a poor laborer father played by STEPHEN CHOW and his young son. When a fascinating and strange new pet enters their lives, they learn a poignant lesson about the true nature of family and the things money can’t buy.

(Source: Sony Pictures Releasing International)"

Chinese New year 1st day ~..

O well what is there to do on the first day, in my opinion chinese new year is boring =.=" ... it is boring indeed ...especially when u get to go to relatives house and meet all the cousins which u CAN'T TALK with .... =.=" or more specifically hate them.. As one of my friend quote " Every family got their own dark secret" O well so do i, but i was rather disgusted by my relatives. I will not stress much on the details, Just that i would like to state the point that I can't really get along with my cousins and relatives.Haiz... Sigh when will this change? T.T This year is SPM year, How i wish i could score 11A1s and go to other country as soon as possible... Ah well... all this doesn't matter anymore.This year is gonna be the absolute year for me.I need to give it my best shot.I need to make my resolution to be viable and tangible! Ah well ,when can i escape this fated destiny of mine and find a better path ? I dunno but what's for sure is that i will definitely find it ... some day..... some day... Some day i will attain wealth,health,love,peace and joy~ i will!!!! Gambateh!!!!!!XP

Happy Chinese New Year~ XD

Harlow guys and girls ^^ Here on this meritorious day , i wish you all a prosperous and joyous Chinese New Year~ Happy Chinese New Year all ^^With this, hope this year will be filled with good lucks and everyone will be blessed with fame and fortunes. XD Hope the bonds between me and my friends will stay and get closer by time ^^ And also hope wealth,health,love and peace will be with all of us in this year ^^ Last but not least , HAPPY CNY TO ALL OF u AGAIN ^^ May all be blessed with longevity and prosperity!