Working Mess

"Toughness... is how you react under tremendous pressure and stress when facing useless people that only knows how to do nuts "

As of late, I have been spending mostly,if not all, of my time working.At first,I find it to be quite a pleasant experience as 1) I am actually working. and 2)My job is actually quite easy.Even though the pay isn't really that decent,but it is still just enough,considering I am just working as a mere staff in a supermarket.

However,as I slowly begun to delve deeper into it ,things began to change.I finally felt the sacrifices I made for this job.In exchange for a little bit of monetary gain , I sacrificed my flexible hours,my precious time,my entertainment,and worst of all, my freedom.

The experience gained here isn't really that precious too in actual fact.The pleasant working experience from the early days had now changed to a rather disastrous experience.From working in my own realm of comfort zone, I was forced to shift to the office,doing the office job.I do not really mind actually,but the thing is, I am doing the harder job and yet I only gets the same pay as others that only did an easier job.Unfair isn't it ?

So,with all this losses I have been experiencing, why the heck am I still working here?Simple,this is because simply I do not want to leave things being done halfway.I have done that far too much already.It is time I take responsibility.

It is time I stay behind and help them,even though it is rather foolish to do so.In the real corporate world,promises from mouth to mouths practically means nothing,only black and white can do the talking.Yet,I stay and help.All because of simple empathy and sympathy.

Gosh...I wish I can just leave without feeling anything.But I do know,if I were to leave now,the entire office will definitely turn into chaos.Heck, there are already chaotic mess and troubles inside the office already,thanks to some irresponsible and useless people.Hence,the decision to stay.

Sigh..hopefully all this will end peacefully and quickly.I certainly do not wish to linger around any longer till it falls completely.I just hope time would pass quickly and I can finally say I "graduated" from my first job safely and satisfying.

On the other note,not only my working life is a mess,even upon returning home, I still find troubles chasing me around.Guess the lady luck just hates me eh ? Sigh Sigh Sigh,when can this end .

Only fond memories of yesteryears could relieve my agony and grief.I guess all this worries can wait.Now is the time to go to my bed and indulge in dreams and fantasies.( which i rarely had ).Let's go.May I get a good dream tonight.