Frustration

Education, does it really mean anything at all?I really do not understand the mind of our government nowadays.Why,of all means considered must they torture us with 10 subjects?I understood that this subjects will serve as our fundamental foundation at near future but Honestly, does it truly serve it's purpose?I don't think so. Instead, it is more like a mental agony to us.....For instances,if i were to choose a career not related to Physic,Chemistry,Biology and History,why on earth am i studying those subjects now?How are they gonna help me?Wouldn't it just be much better if we are given the freedom to choose which field of interest to indulge in or rather which subject that are intriguing for us to study?Life would be 10 times happier this way ^^.

I do realize that knowledge itself is precious.However,what i mean to say was just that couldn't we be given choices to make on which subject to study first?After we master the subject we like,then only we proceed to gaining more knowledge on other subjects.Well,initially why do we actually study all these subjects?Is it because it can make an all-rounder out of us?If that is the purpose,than this whole thing is meaningless and pointless at all!People,BE REALISTIC.We are just mere humans,it is definitely IMPOSSIBLE for us to study and store everything in our brain.On the other hand, it is definitely possible for each and every one of us to have something to excel in. So,what we should do is to find that "something" which we can excel in and master THEM!This is the way teaching should be, that is to lead us to find that particular "something" =)


Unfortunately, i still have to face the fact that in our country here, we are bound to study whatever we are instructed to regardless of our will .=.= Thus, this is what i should do now that is To strive hard and pass this bullshit exams and proceed on getting a good college/university and finally get to make decisions!!!

Actually, i am ranting all this out now because of my biology test.When i am having the bio test,i felt like i am having the time of my life!No no, it isn't because of the difficult test nor does it because of the inability to answer ANY Question.lol >< Well i am having a time of my life thinking of my future.The bare thought of me failing the exam and proceed into a bad class just scare the hell out of me.Man.. i really scared.. and at the very time, i really don't know what to do.I finish Bio i just 1 hour. With a lot of blanks.Ah well.. there are no one to blame except me myself... I knew at the moment i hand up my bio test, my fates are sealed.I know i am going to fail.But if.. if and only if By any chance, i end up passing this test and able to get in good class next year,I swear . i swear in the name of my pride and honour , i shall relentlessly try my very best to get straight A's in examination. ( this year even though it is end year, i didn't spend much time reading =.= )Well, i guess that is all for now.On the bright side,it is nearing holiday soon , so cheers ! XD enjoy as much as we can... b4 the result come and haunt uS!

Meaning of life....

1.39a.m 22nd of Oct
Meaning of life? What is that ? what does it means?What does life holds for me?Does it have a purpose?I have been wondering these questions ever since i watch Honey and Clover just a while ago.yea, i might sound crazy but no!I am perfectly sane.My examination is just a day away... and i am here blogging.My mind is empty.BLANK.I do not know why.My friends are all having stress and tension regarding our upcoming exams.Well, it is not like i don't care about exams.I DO CARE. i know this is important and should be at utmost priority but no.Somehow in my mind, i don't care about exams.....

All there are is life.I was wondering , What really is it?Everyone got their own purpose of living.What's mine?Is it to care for the one you love when you found it? Is it to work for your dreams?Is it just to keep living for the sake of it?i don't know.So, what if you achieved your dreams?So,what if you found the love of your life?Is that the purpose of you living? Try imagining this,if you knew that you will only have some time to live,what will you feel?Do u have a different perspective of life now?Do you start to think life is precious now?To those people who wish to commit suicide,YOU ARE STUPID!Life is precious!

I might be too young for this.However, i want to think of this.There shall be much obstacles in my way in future.Therefore,i wish to truly think of a path that suits me and will continue to move on to it without interferences but... can i do it? Is that the purpose of my life?No i don't think so.After much hesitation and perplexity,i thought of this.Everyone is destined to die one day.So, everyone strives to live their life.Thus,my purpose of life is to continue living through everyday meaningfully!As long as i live,i shall make a legend for my self! To achieve my dreams, To find the love of my life and to care for her.That shall fulfill my purpose of life.Until the last breath of mine, i shall not hesitate to move forward.As long as i live my life well, i shall have no regret!Gambateh!

One Litre of Tear~

This drama... It isn't anything ordinary.Fellow readers, if u think u have watched the most touching drama,Think AGAIN for this is indeed the most touching drama EVER being produced(for me at least) I would like to quote this article from here

"

This dorama is about a girl who was diagnosed with a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old, and was able to continue her life until her death at the age of 25 years old.

The plot is based on the true story of a Japanese girl named Kito Aya, who had the same disease. She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no longer hold a pen. Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from her family, friends, and boyfriend. Her diary “1 Litre of Tears” was published after her death, because of its inspiring and courageous message of, “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.” So far, over 18,000,000 copies of her diary have been sold."

This drama truly inspires people.. It is definitely worth watching!

15th of October...

10.09p.m
UAh... today is just plain weird..everything is boring .. lol boredom..
B-O-R-E-D *yawn*

11.37a.m
Now, it is time to rise and shine! or .. is it.Nowadays , i find on9 really meaningless.I mean what is the point if none of your friends are on9?MAN and with exams around the corner,do i really have the time to on9?Damn! .. *sigh* no Point venting out my frustrations here because i need to do something about this.So here i go! wish me luck!

1.00 a.m
No comment!I tried to on9 but unfortunately,the moment i on9, my mother came in... and with that i was forced to sleep..However, No i didn't sleep.I just couldn't sleep yet.I dunno.. i Seriously don't know what was i thinking back then.I just keep thinking... and thinking about exams,about friends and finally i gave up.The More i think of friends and on9 friends topic especially, the more i was drawn into darkness.Finally,I can't think anymore.The total state of depression,demotivation,desolation or whatever you call it.. they engulfs me and all of them piles up and became a big burden.As i plunges deeper into this abyss of darkness, i realized that i was all alone...Exams,Friends,,.No , i DOnt fear those things anymore .. for i already lost all that..And with that i lost consciousness.

USELESS CONNECTION!

... as of today, i am damn pissed off at two things! 1st) the incapability of my useless streamyx connection that render me unable to talk to anyone on msn. Screw that . Why do these kind of things usually happens to me? And when this concerns my fren, i am usually DAMN PISS OFF! Thank you streamyx ThANKS A LOT FOR RUINING THE DAY! 2nd thing that piss me off .2nd) TRUST ! this words are very important! once someone put a trust on u, it is important to keep that trust.HOWEVER on the completely opposite side, the person who put the trust on someone else should be confident that he/she who holds your secret won't reveal it or to spread it to the whole world.So , if you put a trust on someone . you shouldn't doubt him/her anymore.
NOW, this is the thing that piss me off!Apparently,this someone tells me about something ends u warning me not to tell anyone else!!! WTF ler.This is what i hate !I might not look like a trustable person, but i can guarantee here.That I swear I will NOT BETRAY THE TRUST OF ANY OF MY FRENS! Not a single one!

The importance of blogging~!

wow ! until now i have thought of blogging as just a place to spend my time only when i had nothing better to do! However , upon stumbled across this quote from Diana Lim from advertlets,i realize what a BIG mistake i had made! Here , i would like to share with you all ,my fellow readers her quote : ""When I started blogging, I knew that blogs will outlive a blogger’s life. So even when I’m no longer in existence, my children and grandchildren or even great grandchildren will read about me..." WOW, Now this is the purpose of blogging.Indeed , as she quoted, we should keep our own history whether if it is for the reminiscence of our past, for the view of our children , or for whatever else purpose. So , from today onwards, i shall start to update this blog as often as i can! ^^ for i do not wish to leave my memories being bitten by time!

P.S on the completely different note :
here's a great link to share ^^
DATA CRYSTAL

Time for your dream to come true! XD

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Endless dream.~~

Touching Tale~.. .(P.S. i wonder if this really happens in real life?)
The title is Because i am a girl by KISS.

Fantasy world....

Life.. Really is meaningless and dull isn't it?Somehow , in fantasy world , we won't feel that.In world such as Drama,Anime,Manga, and etc ... fantasy world, Things just are too good to be true,Ain't them.. However , somehow,incident in this "fantasy" world might just happen to you in real life! who would have know.....Indeed, in some way the fantasy world will reflect what is happening to you in Real Life. And these incidents will somehow change the way u live.In conclusion, we can deduce that depending on what u face , it will change your life.... " what you view ,will change your point of view..."

at the end, it just a crap by me... another one of my incoherence musing ...