Quitting Msn?

Well... i blogged about this quite a long time ago.About how msn is influencing my life and being a part of me....But Nevertheless now it seems that this MSNAS (msn addicted syndrome) has subsided. O well,sure it was fun and all.When i first used msn , it was a wonderful experience. Knowing people from all walks of life in the net.How fascinating is that ?Truly, it have been a nice journey.

A walk down memory lane reveals that msn has start getting into my life ever since... form 3? But then again, only at form 4 that i start getting a hang out of it and on9 almost 24/7.Actually , online is in truth .. nothing.It is just a mere waste of time. It can only be fun when there are people to talk to constantly.Thats all! It is built for communication and socialization!That is why.. when i started adding strangers that i don't even know last time, i was very happy. I got new friends ! And they are nice friends.

At that time , i know my circle of friends are expanding. But then again once again ... change is always a constant. One unpleasant truth about life is ... as we get older, our circle of friends will get smaller.. That is undeniable . No matter how hard we could try to maintain that relationships, in the end only some true friends will stay with you.

The same goes for msn too. In my contact lists , i got around 100+ contacts (well that is considered less compared to my other friends d ) but what is the use?What is the use of adding thousand strangers that i don't even talk to ? Here comes the main point in msn... If you don't talk to a contact constantly and communicate , the bond of friendship between you and your friend will eventually be gone.

Msn is good in the sense that it help nurtures social communication and maintain your circle of friends.Msn is a very good alternative of sms technology too..And best of all it is free!And you can get the latest news from your friends , plan activities , and talk to them when they need your help and support.So,isn't it great? So with all the benefits , why the hell would anyone quit msn?Easy, the reason is... no one to talk to.That is the simplest reason i could think of.

Either way , i am crapping way too much. Though it have been nice working with msn.(Despite the pain and agonizing dcness that haunts me each and every time i log in!)Everything will eventually come to an end...Other people can survive without msn, So? Why can't i?To put in place,actually msn will eventually be dead and you will quit them when you run out of contacts to talk to.I believe this is the frustration i am facing now..Lack of ACtive crappers XD. Either way i shall be passive in msn then ... Though i do find it hard to believe for those who plans to quit msn.At best , i believe i would just put my status as busy all the time and afk ? Oh well.. that is the plan . Whether it will work or not ... who knows? I still hope that all my active crappers return T_T !

Stay Resolute!

Man.. a lot of things happened this week=.= .It never rains.. but it pours... A heavy flood have been going on lately.NO no not tsunami! It is just an emotional flood running amok within my mind.T_T With so many bad things happening , i just dunno what to do ~ Ah well it might be exaggerating to say a lot of bad things happened.Well.. not all are bad but most of them were .=.= Either way bad things aren't meant to be pondered about.Lets just stick with the good news shall we? =D hmm.. ok lets see.. the good news are

Woo hoo i started another blog ?=D well can't be called a "blog" because there are only some digital arts and words there hehe.Either way , i am quite satisfied with this achievement (though nothing big ^^ ) but now at least i got something else to work on instead of wasting my time rotting in front of my com.This blog is one of my thousand plans.Glad it finally worked out.I actually COMPLETED one of my plans? (AHA! now That is something to boast about! lol ) Anyway here is the link. It is filled with some pictures created by the nooby me . Comments and critics are welcomed ^^

Ok,Next is .... Yeah ! new resolution! In this 4 weeks I aimed for :
i)A more toned-up body XD ( have to turn the 6 fats into 6 pacs )
ii)A camera! ( o.o i don't have a camera yet T_T that explains the lack of pictures in this blog)
iii)Do well academically! (Study should have been my daily routine!Enough procrastination!)
iv)Take care of my face ( T.T a lot of pimples and scars.. needa take less oily food d)
v)Maybe learn new stufss? (programming,chinese,japanese etc etc ) XD


Well that is about all. Wonder i could complete it or not ?hehe now it is down to will power! GG gambateh!!!!

Of the riches and stitches ..

O well.. just had a lively discussion with friends regarding the rich and poor issue. XD Now then, money? What are money?What does it mean to you? I dunno about you guys but for me, money might be the root of evils,but it may also be the essence of happiness =D

People say you can't buy everything with money...True! Nevertheless, the converse of it is also true.You can't buy anything without money!There are no free lunch in this world.In this modern era of globalization , the law of jungle still applies but only in different concept."Survival of fittest " applies here.... but instead of fighting with strength and pointless struggles to gain power,we fight with brains and intellects to gain money,to get rich!

My friend told me , "the rich will get richer,and the poor will get poorer " This fact is indeed true.Therefore , for the poor people, (such as yours truly T_T) to breakthrough of this poverty and gain money,in my opinions, there are 2 and two general and most common ways to get rich :

1)To follow the standard procedure, which is getting good educations, getting good jobs and in the end gaining a steady income. But this needs modal meaning you need to have a solid foundation and money to be in good college or smart enough to get scholarships.

2)To breakthrough with brand new ideas.*I.e creating new market, creating new industries which will gain immense popularity *

And of course there are several other methods which .. by pure luck , *i.e getting lotteries* or by miracles *i.e money dropped from the sky ?hehe XD*

Now to talk about the factors that affecting wealth...
From my point of view, i would say parents would play a big role in affecting your wealth.Inheritances from the parents will be the starting line.Here, i would like to coin this paragraph from wikipedia's article regarding wealth.

"

The upper class

Inheritance establishes different starting lines. The majority of those in the upper class have inherited their wealth and place a greater emphasis on wealth than on income. Upper class children are taught about investments and accumulation. They are trained and conditioned, technically and philosophically, to handle the wealth that they will inherit and how to earn more later in life. Wealth and being a member of the upper class requires significant prior preparation and familiarization

"

Here we can clearly see how parent's wealth affects their child...Of course mental awareness of the child to manage money wisely is also equally important.But according to my friend,it seems that i am still missing a factor eh... I would reckon that another factor might be "one's attitude to view life positively and realistically" This,in a sense would be one's attitude to think optimistically and also to be able to work it out logically and realistically.NOt to be swindled easily by some scams. *I.e skim cepat kaya* =D

Well, i guess that concludes my post on riches XD oh what about the stitches, u might ask ?Well,when one experience hardship while earning money,thats when the stitches comes in!Money don't just come falling in from the sky...We need to work for it..Especially the poor ones..

A Tiresome but Nice day =D

Arh.... what a day.Today is truly a tiresome but nice day hahaha.Woke up at 7.30 a. m today ^^ and went swimming at bayswater woo! Wow bayswater is a very nice apartment!Apart from it's magnificent building and ergonomic designs , it is also filled with a lot of cool amenities such as swimming pool,gym,sauna and etc etc.

Ahhhh how i wish i could live there T.T.Sadly life is too cruel.I am but a mere ordinary guy leaving in an ordinary apartment.Ok.. so after going swimming for like .. erm 1 and half hours? then go eat lunch and to PIKOM PC FAIR! woot! omg the prices there are damn gay! RM46 for a 4GB usb pendrive =.= Wth ler when i bought an 1 GB kingston usb pen drive last time ,it costs me Rm 75!!!

arh, nvm get on with it With the super "low" prices everywhere and being held only once a year in penang , it was a typical scene for PISA(Penang International Sports Arena) to be crowded on that day.Though it is a already a familiar scene, but i can't help being amazed by the hefty number of people inside it.

O well ,luck the seats upstairs are empty ^^ At least that enables us to get a bird eye's view from the top of it.I like how they build the arena so that everyone can have a look and spot any good dealers and items they are interested on buying easily.So... after going round and round and seeing all the "cheap " but nevertheless beyond my budgets gadgets, me and my friends finally settled down on one of the seat on top.

So,looking down from top was a pleasant view indeed.The enormous number of crowds looks just like some ants XD (figuratively speaking tat is =P ) and from there we saw a lot of branded names advertising their products and marketing them away.Among them are Canon,Epson,HP Pavillion ,Sony,Samsung and etc etc. Ah but who cares about them, i mean look at the amount of people!, Aside from their banners , i can hardly see anything else lolx.

Anyway,so after finish buying some electronic gadgets for friends, we end up going home..sad TT It was a fun day after all :P So,in the end, it is tiresome but fun ^^
O.O did i mentioned i met new friends today?XP

Time travel

According to wikipedia ,Time travel is
"the concept of moving between different moments in time in a manner analogous to moving between different points in space, either sending objects (or in some cases just information) backwards in time to a moment before the present, or sending objects forward from the present to the future without the need to experience the intervening period (at least not at the normal rate)"

But that's just the scientific definition of it...for me, time travel is just one way to go back to my past and change it.Well i might sound crazy but as a matter of fact, i am really interested in this.And i truly believes it is indeed possible.And i know a lot of you would have the same thoughts as me too right?Surely at one point in your life , you will think of something like "Hmm.. how good could it be if i could travel back to my past and change it".. or at least something similar to it i guess.

How good would that be if there is a possibilities to make that happen?Well, according to the law of physics,there are indeed possible!Theoretically at least =.= One of the way of doing so is .. through wormhole!Ok, due to my innate laziness nature ,i should just post part of the article in wikipedia here,

"A proposed time-travel machine using a traversable wormhole would (hypothetically) work in the following way: One end of the wormhole is accelerated to some significant fraction of the speed of light, perhaps with some advanced propulsion system, and then brought back to the point of origin. Alternatively, another way is to take one entrance of the wormhole and move it to within the gravitational field of an object that has higher gravity than the other entrance, and then return it to a position near the other entrance.

For both of these methods, time dilation causes the end of the wormhole that has been moved to have aged less than the stationary end, as seen by an external observer; however, time connects differently through the wormhole than outside it, so that synchronized clocks at either end of the wormhole will always remain synchronized as seen by an observer passing through the wormhole, no matter how the two ends move around.

This means that an observer entering the accelerated end would exit the stationary end when the stationary end was the same age that the accelerated end had been at the moment before entry; for example, if prior to entering the wormhole the observer noted that a clock at the accelerated end read a date of 2007 while a clock at the stationary end read 2012, then the observer would exit the stationary end when its clock also read 2007, a trip backwards in time as seen by other observers outside.

One significant limitation of such a time machine is that it is only possible to go as far back in time as the initial creation of the machine; in essence, it is more of a path through time than it is a device that itself moves through time, and it would not allow the technology itself to be moved backwards in time. This could provide an alternative explanation for Hawking's observation: a time machine will be built someday, but has not yet been built, so the tourists from the future cannot reach this far back in time."

There ya go = ] and here i attached this beautifully rendered picture of worm hole for those who are interested.


Actually ,i do have a theory of my own regarding this.Time is always constanly moving forward.Why is this so?I would say that time itself doesn't exist.Humanity creates time as a mean to define the constant motion of things around us.Think about it,what if everything stops moving?Everything is fix!Then there will be no more time.So thus, in the same theory,if everything were to be moved backwards,then we will all be back to the past.In other words.. degeneration of our mind and everything else.But if we were to do it this way,reversation as i would call it,then we won't be able to keep our present mentality intact....So i guess the only option left is building a time machine and go back?ARGGGGG screw it , i am writing nonsense! Where is the restart button in my life?

Late once more...

i couldn't believe it at all.Even after countless repetition of my idiotic mistake,i still keep make the same mistake.And what is that u might ask?Well.. it is the "LACK OF WILL To LEARN" mistake..no.. this isn't related to my academical studies..O well might be related a bit .Either way,i am late once more.. Once more , i had failed to gain any recognisable success.Once again, i had proved that i am nothing but a mere failure...Failure just daydreaming of stealing the lime light that shines on those who succeed.

Today, i realised the difference between me and the other strong players.It isn't just the points and results.Those results are plain bullshit.What truly separates me and them is the difference in ability.Compared to those great intellects , my feeble mind are but mere trashes,useless at all.Though i acted nonchalantly and seems to be oblivious of my surroundings all along,but in fact , i do notice.I do noticed the big gap between us.The feeling of inferiority over their supreme power truly shattered my self-esteem.

Again,things will be different if i were to start out earlier.If i were to join earlier...IF i were to train earlier...I could be the one in the superior position now.But life is naturally unfair.Once i realised my mistakes, i couldn't redeem them due to the unforgiving time .

What's wrong ?All i could do is just keep reminiscing my past.If only i joined earlier...If only i did all that ... If .. IF and only IF.What a stupid,illogical,intangible concept!Can i turn back the time ? Can i go back to my past?NO! not at this era i guess...So what i could do is just to hope that my legacy to success can begin once i entered college life...

I only have my self to be blamed for my incompetence to make the right decision.My recklessness and immature sense of foolishness has landed me in this abyss of failure.All this while , i have been in a deep slumber i guess...When can i wake up ?

Expressionless...

Today i am angered by three things.... 1) the incapability to express myself clearly 2)my incompetence to make the right choice. and 3 )tight parental control.

For starters, the 3rd thing in my list is nothing but mere repetition of my previous post titled "freedom".Therefore, i have nothing to rant about it anymore as you can see it in my previous post.It is basically a repetition of the freedom problems i am having now.It is just so coincidence that this problem is back to haunt me today ....

Anyway, let's start with the first problem , the incapability to express myself clearly.Now first of all , this doesn't mean that i am retarded or having any disease that rendered me unable to speak clearly.NO, my state of welfare is perfectly fine.It is just that sometimes i find it rather difficult to speak out when facing people face to face.

I could express my thoughts and feelings now in the blog just fine.But when it comes to face-to-face talk and physical confrontation, i doubt that my performance will be good.I wonder if it is just me or everyone else have the same problem.

When i want to talk to someone not close to me close-up, i would feel a kind of tension that rendered me speechless .. or incapable of speaking the way i am doing now.I will be shrouded with anxiety and fear that is bound to make me go nuts.All my words will be mess up and i will be speaking nonsense by the time i said something out.


The second problem ,my incompetence to make the right choice! This is truly something that has been in me for years and it never cease to annoy me.Every time i had to make a choice, i would pondered for hours and finally end up making a choice that i will regret later.I had gotten enough of this.This shall end.If thinking twice doesn't work, i will think thrice.And if even that fails, ... i might as well take a random pick at which choice i should choose =] Alright,thats all for today i guess.

Freedom

Freedom,a commodity so rare these days,are gradually being robbed from us,teens...In an ironic twist of modernisation ,now we have all kinds of dangers to compensate them.These days,with speed devils,criminals and rapists robbed of their consciences luring around nearly everywhere in our country,things might seem to be quite dangerous to us.However,for parents to curtail our freedom and deprive us from our teenage life ,all in the name of safety,is it really that appropriate ?

For children and young teens below the age of 10, i would say that this action is indeed very appropriate.However,as time goes on , we will grow too ,physically and mentally gradually.Thus at around the age of 16, like yours truly now , things should change.Parents should loosen up a bit and give their kids some sense of freedom!

It might sound a little bias since i am soon-to-be 17 years old XP But this action is by no means harmful to your children and kids ,ain't it?Around this age, we are considered young adults that already possessing adequate amount of intellect that maybe even capable of challenging those of our parents.

Thus,i see no harm in giving them more opportunity to take control over their life.Some parents still stick to their "old fashioned " concepts that kids are always kids and should be monitored constantly until they are married?Oh come on! GIve us a break pls!This is the era of globalisation!, the 21st century!

I understand that by gaining control over your kid's action might be your way to show ur parental love and to protect your kids but monitoring and controlling our every action is just absurd!Take my points , parents.

I am 16 and i understood how the minds of MOST sweet 16 teens feel.I might be having SPM this year but that doesn't mean i can't have any entertainment at all ?If i am being forced to study constantly , then definitely i would lose the passion of study.

So, why can't u just let me be the way i am now and i will study when i have the mood to do so?I ain't a lifeless puppet that needs someone else to control my every action!!I am a perfectly sane human capable of generating thoughts like the rest of teens out there!


Last but not least , i wish to apologize if this post have offended you readers in any way.I am just voicing out my opinions and doesn't mean to harm or influence anyone.If this post does indeed , by any means, did offended you, i sincerely apologize...

Emoness =.=

Sometimes it is just random mood swing eh =.= wonder why,somethings even a simple and seemingly unsignificant things might trouble you and make u emotional.Why i guess this is what is happening to me right now....I guess this is just part of a normal teen's lifestyle.

It's an innate thing.Everyone surely does have their own time of loneliness ... time of desperation ... time of depression .. time where everything else seems to be unsignificant.Everything seems to dissolve into this infinite void of darkness.Suddenly,every troubles seems to arises out of thin air and pushes u to this path of emoness.

As illogical as it might sound,emo can come and go away as swift as wind . But u can never expect when they will come....."There is a reason for everything", they say.However, no matter how hard my feeble mind trying to find the reason, I just couldn't comprehend what or why this is happening?

Perhaps emotional is one of the way to release the heavily accumulated amount of stress and tension?Or perhaps it is just there because it is. .. No one can question the existence of others. Our existence itself remains a mystery...So what right do we , humans have to question the existence of others?Argg i am getting off topic now.But who cares.... O yeah one more thing, when u are emo, anything can happen =D .and i mean ..ANYTHING ! *chuckles*

ok,Done blogging , all emoness gone :P =D blogging is gud! XP less talk, blog more woo !signing out time ! bye X)

A life journey.

As i went on in this life journey,i found out that nothing is permanent.Ah well.. what a life i am having.Every day , i have been day dreaming.Envying others for their great,happy life.I wonder if it is just me?or does everyone else did the same thing?I wonder...

Either way,only now.. only this year..... only this year do i started emphasizing on everything i am supposed to care about!Educations,Friends,Love?(perhaps?:P ) and everything else.But it is useless to weep and lament towards my foolishness in the past.True enough , i have done a lot of mistakes in the past.And i have much regrettable things too in the past.

However,all these memories,either sweet or sour ones .. they shall remained buried in the past.Life is an ongoing process...We can't change the past.If we were be able to go back to the past and change it, then wouldn't it be defying the law of nature?And with that , i decide that we should just move on...Though the everlasting memories will forever be embedded in my heart...

One of my friends recent post was about him and his friends in the past.Upon reading it,i was touched somehow.How true it is.... I once have a similar story too.I had a bunch of friends last time during primary school.And we were schoolmates even until now.In f2,conflicts happened.And the bond between me and one of my friends fell apart due to some immature misunderstandings...Wif that , we don't talk at all for nearly 2 years or so..Ever since that incident,we would often try our best to avoid contacts wif each other.And even if we did meet , we would just ignore each other.

The strange thing is .. around f3 or so.. i met him again in a tuition center.As peculiar as it might sound, the moment i met him,we hugged each other.(OMG?True story! and theres nothing wrong wif guys hugging guys lolx though i would prefer hugging gals aherm* ^^)And wif that , we apologized to each other over the conflict that happened last time.(We beated the crap out of each other ^^ ) Finally,after two long years of fighting ... we end up being friends again . And eventually the bond of friendship is formed once more.This is truly a life-changing experience.After that, i vow not to have any of my bonds with my friends to be severed again.

Because friends... are what shaped us to be what we are now.Friends are those that contributed in our success today..Friends are... those that care about us and support us.... Thats what true friends are..So, to those readers out there, do take care of your friendship carefully .They are very important.Don't let some small misunderstanding to severe the eternal connection you have with your friends.

Finally,thanks to all my friends ~ U make me who i am today ^^ thanks ^^

Forsaken love~

How do i start this?Hmm... everyone has their own story of their life i guess..I guess mine is starting to shape itself into existence.But even so.. obstacle is a must.I have been ransacking my mind lately.What have i become? I aspires to become something different.. someone special..someone unique but then again all this aspirations are just mere dreams,ain't they?Man i gotta learn how to express my thoughts.Not just choreograph them step by step but just think them out.Either way , just thinking of my aspiration and resolution just seems to get me down.Haiz, why izzit so hard to be someone else?But then again , thinking rationally,if it is so easy to be someone rich,someone handsome,someone talented , a jack-of-all-trades so easily, then there is no more logic to this world ,right?So,practically , i am just crapping now.It is april already... spm is approaching ..So near yet so far.Well all the pain and agony of studying might finally be put to rest at last. however , as i try to think of what to do after spm, a feeling of nostalgia surrounds me.It feels really nostalgic to suddenly think of ur school and all the memories just flowing bak.Somehow now , i do seem to have passion to study yet only have it when i hold the book.

All overflowing memories and feelings.I wonder what will happen if i let it out?Ah love love love , why must love exists? though it is forsaken, i do think of what will happen if it did work out?If ... all the probabilities are infinite.i can definitely voice out the infinite possibilities of IF.If i have that , if i did that .. if i .... owh just thinking that can already make my head explode.Now i do have a long term plan for success ^^ but i wonder will it work?Arg just think of it gets my adrenalin up.Maybe it is just me that thinks too much? What the future holds for me remains unseen but i do have a grasp of what it will end up if i don't start studying.Human mind .. really complex ain't it ? I am starting to see the point of learning biology and maybe chemistry too.Now if only i could apply the theory in the world.Then, all the intangible dreams of mine might be real after all.

One more thing , i hate parental consent.Everything also need my mom's consent.And tat being said , i truly hate being compared to other ppl.Everytime i ask my mom for permission to do something , she would always said " u see ler , ur fren X, never go out wan, y cant u stay at home and study?" everytime she said tat , i truly am pissed off! I mean come on! what does i got to do wif my other fren? WHo cares if he can study and he dont go out,tats his problem,I am I, I want to do what i like!Sometimes adults are just too unreasonable.They are once teens like me too.So,why cant they understand the anxiety and the excitement of going out wif friends?Bound with some superstitious belief.... I won't really wanna rebel completely against this kinda superstition but then again... some superstitious belief are just absurd.Now i have a choice to make.To go or not to go? Whatever the choice is , i hope it is gonna be right choice.I swear if i were to end up as a parent one day later, i won't be like any of my parent now.NEVER!