Hellish School Life

In this weekend, it still felt like holiday to me as I went out on both Saturday and Sunday. Today, I went out to Gurney to go out with a friend of mine that just came back from Miri,Sarawak. Introducing.... KENNY ONG GOH
This is him trying to show off by holding the basketball with one hand. Tsk big deal lol.Basically,we did nothing the whole day but just window shopping and intruding nearly every shops we saw in gurney hunting for headphones and wig .*yes wig, don't ask me what's tat for as it's not for me *Here are some pictures of the day .
Another gay guy trying to show off :P
Apparently there's a foosball's battle going on in gurney. The guy wearing green shirt on the left has total ownage. Freaking pro.
Next there seems to be an audition going on from radio station One Fm.
Gay gang from the back.. :P
Next we went to one stop arcade and.. gay gang again.
Need i say ? Gay.LOl
Notice this pic is kinda dark and the arcade looks abandoned? idk why the photo effect is like that.The real place is more lit up and brighter :).
For dinner, we walked back to Gurney and went to Kim Gary.
Tada, behold the Milo-milk ice blended ! tastes super nice and it's quantity is too much. Really worth it.
Just to tempt u more ~ :P
Finally we went home.. but not before I bought this headset ! It's a real bargain for rm 20 , a headset with mic. And the story behind it is epic as well..

I went in the store and asked one of the employee, how much is it ? He said rm 28.Then I tried to negotiate for discount . He said can't ,fixed price, the lowest they can offer. Ok, I relented and wanted to put it back already but luckily I asked another employee which replied rm 20.So, immediately , I said I will take it and bought it straight away. Now this is strange, two employee, same shop , rm 8 difference in price? It's either the 1st employee's mistake or the 2nd one. I sure hope it's the 2nd one :P coz it would mean that I just bought rm 28 headset with rm 8 difference. and the best part of it .. is the price tag i saw in another shop is rm 30+ .=D

Conclusion : shopping is fun =)
Oh btw , shirts in SUB store are freaking nice. Too bad I don't have the fund to bought it yet. There's so much luxuries that I saw in Gurney...If only I could manage to allocate the funds for them .

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Ok,ranting time! Those with weak hearts and impatient mind pls stay away .If you wish to kaypo and gt ntg else to do.. proceed . From here onwards , it will be all words.. Don't say I didn't warn u ;)

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Ah...the much dreaded hellish school experience is finally starting again. Along comes much grief , sorrow,stress,pressure and god knows wat else negative feelings. I will say it right here and now , school life SUX,especially STPM school life. Never before do I dread going to school as much as I hate it now .

Even as holiday has ended, it still felt surreal to me..The whole holiday just felt like a dream to me. On one hand , I am still in holiday mood, half-enjoying the fact that I do not need to wake up early in the morning to go to school to face the teachers and their mundane lessons (notice tat i am generalising them ) . On another hand, I still fear and dread of STPM examination.It's still the biggest fear in my life knowing that if I did not do well in it, in contrary to what people might think of, my whole world might actually will come crushing down on me.

Well, both the good and bad news is, there's only half a year to go =) . The good part being , that's the time less before I am completely FREE from it and the bad news being that's the time left for me to actually prepare for it.Either way, studying is in way back of my mind right now eventhough it is definitely high on my priority list . Somehow, I just couldn't find the mood /motivation/inspiration to study.

Next, the whole being in classroom teaching isn't really as productive as I thought it would be before I entered f6 . I had high hopes initially.It's terrible really, in fact one can even find it to be counter-productive.Sitting in classroom for eight consecutive hours can be very stressing at times,much more so when you are in a room filled with mundane teaching and having no interesting topic to talk in the class. Personally , I find my class boring at times.

How do I even survive the past 1 year? No idea.Anyway, desperate times call for desperate measures . Having struggled all these while , I have learned how to day dreaming effectively while pretending to pay full attention in the class.Having practiced it for the past few years,I can sufficiently say that I am a rather good actor now :) . I finally know hw to make the I-am-paying-attention expression while day dreaming ! :D.

One good things being in this F6 school life is that I have finaly discovered and pretty much confirmed some few things in life which I would like to pursue / have interest in.

1st , I am sure that I wanted to get out of penang . ASAP. Seriously,penang is so not happening and it's so mundane being here. I need to escape to a new environment and mix with new people. Now , I am pretty much sure which type of people I am comfortable with and which is not . Though ,knowing it and having the opportunity of doing it is world's apart :(.

2nd, I am getting much better in social aspect of my life. As opposed to the naive , silly me in the past , I have grown more emotionally, though some things still manage to find openings in my heart and hurt it.In retrospect though, I find some actions that I did in the past are so ridiculous and absurd. If only I could go back and correct it.. I would be so much happier now.

3rd, I realise that if I need to get out of this shell now.To remain in one's comfort zone for the rest of the life is just plain stupid. When opportunity is being offered, take it . Otherwise,life will just remain the same forever.I definitely do not wish it to remain the way it is now .. So , I shall take more risks in the future.. hoping to gain glory over death =).

4th,I am no longer confused about what I wanted in life. I am interested in pursuing psychology , learning music , businness , engineering and many more. Though realistically, a more holistic approach should be to major in engineering and maybe learning others just for passion / fun .I want a decent relationship in which I could really be committed and gain the same commitment in return.

5th,there's so much that I would like to learn and do given sufficient time.After STPM, i hope things would change .. again ..

There's so much hope and expectations for the future but whether or not those wishes and hopes of mine would be fulfilled would be up to fate. But one thing's for sure though ,I need to learn to be more prudent in making choices and I am learning now. =)

End of Rant . School sux . =)
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What a Day 2 !!

First of all , I would like say ... I felt HAPPY ,EXCITED , EXHILARATED , JOYFUL ,CHEERFUL , EUPHORIC , PLEASED , CONTENTED, BLISSFUL , ECSTATIC , __ [ insert any positive adjectives here ] !!! What an unexpectedly productive day . .

It started with a fine morning where I find myself waking up quite early at around 10 am . ( hey it's early for me ok ? I usually woke up at 12 pm =x ) . So, thinking that it was still early ,I procrastinate to bath for awhile , wasting time by switching on the com .. .online ..and the first unexpected thing that I found on that day was my long lost nice soundtrack of a game.U can listen to it here if u are bored / avid music listener / too free .

Anyway, as I was happily wasting my life away doing nonsensical stuff, a sms came to inform me that I was late for something . Today, I was supposed to go a childcare centre for interact charity work. Unfortunately , some of my members misunderstood that I would be in school at 11 am and smsed me at that time. So , there comes my first bad news. I am late. lol

So,after some hurry buffalo wash (mandi kerbau , direct translation anyone? ) I rushed to school only to find those two ladies enjoying their time listening to songs ==. So, we went to the childcare at last .It's called Sri Pelita Centre. Below are some pictures taken from there.

Today is actually the officiating day for the "Penang Toy Story" project.
Hence , the reporters and press.

And a lot of big ppl too.This project is basicaly a project organized by Dr. Sim to help the childrens from poor family or those suffering from down syndrome and etc.

Anyway, it was really time well spent there. I had fun helping and mixing with the childrens :D and I get to meet new friends there ,Steve and Anne :D Those two are really nice ppl ( interactors from mbs) .


After the child care centre, we head off to MBS for awhile to transfer pics to them , and anne gave an impromptu orientation tour of mbs to us .(YIPPEE ! ) Alright , more picture for you picture-whore ( a term i devised for those ppl who craves for pics :P )

Their library looks like a jail lol.
Posers in front of the jail library :D
idk wat's tis but seems nice right?:P
one of their fields.Their scout den. Again idk why a car like tis is in parked in front fo their scout den. Scout car?
Canteen ! they sell some very nice food ! too bad it's not open when we were there =/
Where do u think tis is ? :P
Ta da, the answer !
pathway.the good people ;D

MBS is a great school ! The environment is super duper cool.Though it looks like a jail in some places , the overall effect is cool . Being in there is like being in an old,ancient but nevertheless beautifully preserved castle , not like a school at all. It gives off a really antique but cosy feeling =). Now I wish I went to MBS to study instead aha.

Anyway, after mbs ,just when I thought it's all over, another sms came. This time it's about going gurney.Talk about being random enough.Who on earth would suddenly sms asking "hey gurney nw wan?" It's the birthday boy. Thus, I have to comply .( excuse to go out whee ! XD ).

No photos taken there sadly. After tat, I went to play football in youth park!! Productive enough ? :D

And finally coming back to home brings me yet another surprise. My mom just installed a new air conditioner for me.OMGWTFBBQ ! TY MOM!!!! :D

Hitachi ! :D
Brrr cold !

WHEE yippee !! Finally , no more compromising of the blardy hot msian weather. :D Overall, today is a very good day for me . If, everyday can be as good or even greater than this, then I guess I won't have any regrets anymore =).Hope that tomorrow would be even better.. May everything be well, for u and me =)

Holiday 2 !

It seems that holiday has a weird way of provoking thoughts and the mood to blog or is it that I just had nothing better to do ==.

This is the 2nd week of holiday . In a blink of an eye, it seems that my 1st week of holiday just fly past me .And I actually wasted it by spending time on nonsensical things and concentrating on counter-productive stuff. Well, at least I learnt a lot !!

Alright , so , 2nd week of holiday is beginning * in fact as i am writing this right now , it already began * So,what's the plan for this 2nd week of holiday ? Study ! Exercise ! Practice ! Productive stuffs ! so much for productive resolution when I know I will end up doing some nonsensical stuffs again . ha ha ~

Yesterday , went out with a bunch of gay gang to get a present for another gay bastard . Hmm lazy to write d la . let the pictures do the talk .

Gay Gang ~ GG
chickenAngel's wing found in snj gift shop lol. I was thinking of giving tis as gift actually lol.

Hmm, I guess that's all .. Weird. Just now I clearly remembered that I got a lot to blog about . How come when I go online , everything just went blank ? It's awkward how the mind works . It drifts when u stay still , and remains stationery when u start thinking.

Now, I just have so many fantasies running around. There's not much happening now in this holiday, and I doubt there will be any too after this . How I wish STPM can finishes right now.

Ok ,let's be really random right now.How I wish I can be the author of my own life, narrating my stories as it goes along ~ How I wish I was born with better physical characteristics ~ How I wish life can be better for me .. and the list goes on and on .Sigh , I actually had a perfect script for my own story in which I call it sf's legacy lol and it is really really random . Hmm.. maybe I should post it up next time.

Btw,for those bored ppl who have nothing better to do like me too ,check out this cool stuffs :D

1st) http://theoatmeal.com/story/eat_horses funny and outrageously random story =D

2nd ) Plants vs zombie mv . super cute and funny



Ok,that's all for now . Enjoy , Toodles !:D

What a Day ~

Unexpected. That's the only adjective that I can find to describe my day today . It was totally full of surprises. Twist and turns everywhere and the end, an endless narrow tunnel , with encroaching darkness slowly creeping in ,threatening to cover the entire tunnel.

What a day truly . I would have never imagined to end up like this.As of now , I am having one of the most mixed reaction ever. It's like being in the eye of the storm during the most turbulent times . Anger, sorrow , sadness, grief emptiness, happiness,joy ,relief , excitement . All these emotions are residing within my fragile heart right now .

I never thought a day would come when I would experience all these emotions in a single day but alas it did arrive. Now ,this is truly an emotional roller-coaster ,and a pretty terrifying one too.

Today, I learnt a great lesson.Sometimes , letting go is better than keeping it at heart , knowing that it will never be yours .And it's not good to pretend baby =) (note to myself ) . I have learnt that it takes a lot to be in a relationship . and that to expect total commitment when one just shows minimal effort is absurd.and sharing isn't exactly caring .=)

Either way , it's over =D . Tat's all for the negative part .

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Ok, now for the positive part, it has been an awesome night ,first meeting with a group of people from the upper echelon of the society who appears to be quite down-to-earth honestly. I am getting all excited and thrilled to be working with these big names and to have an opportunity to learn from them ,it's gratifying really.

Next,I am so glad to have made numerous acquaintances from around the country .It's really heartening to note that when one is despair , hope arises from one of the least expected source. Having a decent chat is really a bless in it's own right . It should be labelled as one of the best entertainment ever alongside gaming and listening to music. It's really hard though to find the right pair of ears / or eyes for that matter to listen and see your troubles and to be able to hold conversation about it .

But when u did find one however , the flow just comes naturally .. It goes on and on and that's when u know u got urself some friends for life =) ( or chatting buddies for life ) I wish that these bonds we forged during turbulent times will remain strong until the end ..


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That's the end of my ranting ! =D anyhow, i haven't been entirely honest with u . sorry and thanks for the memories . Life is __________ [fill in the blanks] :D but for now i hope a swift change of wind will carry me away , moving me to a far far world , the dreamy ideal world i have ever wanted. But these fantasies are impossible in this cruel reality isn't it ? Time for a reality check . =) Perhaps it would be wiser of me to invest my time in some other important matters ~ maybe just maybe !~ wulala

H0liday!

Alright.. finally getting into the mood of blogging .Well, by now I believe that most of the readers , or used to be readers are already gone assuming this blog is dead right? Well, they are not too far from the truth.This blog is well, partially gone, due to the endless procrastination and the inconsistent moody behaviour of this blog's owner. Without further ado, let me proceed to the ranting of the day : H0lidayz !

Holiday Span : 2 week
Holiday Resolution : Study , Exercise , Learn new things , Go out
Expected Result : Stay at home sleep and rot.

1st day of holiday , 5/06/2010 . It was a fine Saturday morning , I woke up ,still feeling sleepy and exhausted from the last night's stay up .Everything was supposed to be going along smoothly until I noticed the time . It was 10 am in the morning. If it was any other day,it would have been still " early " for me and I would have continued sleeping but unfortunately .. that was the day where extra class in school was held . The irony is , it ends at 10 am and I woke up at the exact same time it ended !

And that was how I screwed up my first day of holiday :)

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After that I still went to school to fetch some friends to tj bungah for some business . Now behold readers , as you will see one of the most rarest thing in my blog .. : pictures :D
Two boat stranded on the sea with no one inside .. creeps ppl out huh ? haha
Two bloody bastards tat forced me to drive them all the way to tj bungah. What are they doing?I have no idea dont ask me.

It's a wonder how the deep blue sky can bring peace to one's mind . :)
Seashell ! :D
Me !
The shape of this rock looks like shit from afar lol no kidding :D

Ok,so that sums up my experience in Tj bungah . =D That little excursion also mark the end of my productivity for I spent the rest of the day rotting at home . =.-

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I gaze upon deep blue sea, the tranquil colour of peace fills my mind and flow fluidly throughout my body . I tilt my head upwards , and I saw it . Like how light dispels darkness,the dreamy sapphire blue sky immediately dispels all my worries and troubles in an instant ... * : ) english exercise . trying to sound like a novellist lol did i succeed? :D *

The clouds has moved and my mind is now crystal clear. And then , it struck me .. I am already 19 years old. Seriously ? I still felt like 17 year old . Time pass by too quickly. It just felt like yesterday was the day I finished PMR . ah those were the good old days ...

No worries , no troubles , nothing ..Nothing at all .It's pure bliss back in those days . Now, shouldered with much burden and responsibility .Holiday is not really a holiday anymore, with the schedule heavily-packed with tuitions,extra-class and the need to study .

However, all hopes are not lost . There remains a flicker of hope of happiness and bliss =)..yes,it's you ! :D . Either way , looking back , I felt like a frog under the well .. A deep deep well . In retrospect , I was a very foolish child , my biggest folly being not actively participating in sports and clubs. In recent years, I realied a lot of things and changes alot too.

I realised that some sports and physical exercise are fun.I.e Badminton , basketball , and unsurprisingly football. Ironically , I used to hate football . Well, ok maybe hate is too strong of a word.I did not really favour football, in fact I don't really favour any sport at all . Now, I am a strong fan of sports :D .I love it when my adrenalin gets pumped up and all those energy being put into good use .. beside promoting health and my fitness level too .:DI so wanna play badminton now .

Another change is that I started developing a love for reading . Back in old days, I wouldn't even spare a petty glance at the novel / any books even if u give me money . * seriously * Now, I am asking my sister to lend 3 novels from her school's library to devour in this holiday . :D I haven't been a voracious reader last time and now, I am still not a voracious reader lol ,but I can confidently , convincingly say that that I have a passion for reading now :) *certain reading materials only ,this doesnt apply to reference book * Ah.. it's amazing how time changes a person.

As time marches on relentlessly , physical and emotional changes come along . I am still the same old small guy though , with the same fragile heart I held . There's one tiny changes though . Now , i am more emotionally-inclined and prone to fall head over heels compared to last time.

And as of now .. I think I might have found .. The one? Perhaps this might work out , perhaps it won't . .. But however it is , I promise I shall try my best to grab this opportunity that has been presented to me and try my best to realise it .Hopefully , i can gain the promised happiness =)

Ok,end of rant . Ty for reading . Q.E.D . :) May life be good for you and me ~ =)

Holiday

Ahh ~ it's finally the long awaited holiday :D . Usually , with the much dreaded school days gone, naturally the holiday mood should set in and my days would usually be filled with much joy,happiness and excitement ,yet this upcoming holiday seems to be filled with nothing but gloom,sadness and sorrow =/

The reason ? Mainly caused by the damn Ass Tee Pee Mmm == thanks to that major exam, my holidays are now packed with extra classes . tuitions and more tuitions . Well hopefully the 2 weeks of holiday will not be all vested into academics alone .

Thankfully, all hope are not lost :) . There is still a flicker of hope left for me to fill my holiday with some happy memories . And how will that be achieved? I dunno .. maybe.. by spending a day with a certain someone? :D or maybe just by indulging myself into music/game/manga all day and night long ? Ahh I have so much to do but the train of thoughts just kept on moving relentlessly without stopping by for actions.

Sigh =.- i am not really getting into the feeling of blogging now . Maybe i should just sleep. ya maybe i should jst do tat .May the days ahead be filled with happiness , joy and much excitement .Lastly,may everything be well for you and me ;)