The True me.

I think for the past few months , i have been living in the world of surreal and intangible world.As far as it goes, it seems that nearly every sense of logic that i got have been twisted and changed into some form of insanity.Yeah, thats right, I was insane.I was stressed to the point that i felt the whole world is turning on me.I can't recall when was it but there was time when i have terrible head ache and i was unable to do a thing even if i want to. I really hate that kind of situation , you know , the scene where "yes , i wanna study!, i wanna do something productive, " but in the end it was all craps and no actions.Seriously , i do hate that mood when i don't do it although deep down , a part of me wants it.

I am the type of guy that did things by mood. That's y when i am in "insane" mood, i won't be able to do a single thing at all. It is really crazy come to think of it.Luckily, now it was over. I have regained my sanity once more.The one that able to think clearly and do reasonings based on logics , yeah ,, thats how i aspire to be.Now that i am crystal clear of my surroundings , i am able to think of my "insanity" .I guess the reasons for my insanity was due to problems. A lot of problems.

Problems like projects,assignments ,homeworks, studies, spm and yeah though i hate to say it, love is yet another problem that keeps coming back to haunt me.You know,if you would just take a look at my posts under the "Relationship" label, you would realised that i can crap a lot about love.And i mean really a lot. But today , i would like to make it short.Actually,based on reasonings , all the problems that i mentioned above are really not a problem at all.Take projects for example.All i need to do is just to manage my time and allocate 30 minutes to finish it.That's all. However, when it comes to doing it, it will fall in complete mess.I knew it .

Every time i tried to do something, i would try my best. Even so, my best is very stressful.I might be a perfectionist ,that thinks a lot.In fact , i think too much.So much that every action i do seems very hard and complex to calculate the consequences of that action.Therefore, every time i try to do something on my own, i will get very stressful. I got an advice from some internet fortune teller be4, " You work best when you are left doing it alone " .I find this very true.It is kinda hard concentrating on a thing when there are ppl around you.But when i am left to deal with it alone, i really could felt the stress there.Take for example when i am doing some videos regarding my school club, i would feel really stressful although by rational thinking , you just need to make simple video.

Anyway, i have finally regain my sanity.Such , the only hope i got now. .. is for this mood, this sanity of mine to be with me forever and ever.Then only my life will truly begin .

*P.S this whole post doesn't really makes any sense. I know, just think of this as crap bawh ."

A Day to Spare~

Listening to : Jay Chou -Shi Jie Mo Ri & Wu Yue Tian*五月天*-Zhi Zu
- Both are great songs XD
- Soft songs
-Zhi Zu is quite a touching song actually but it will get corny once you heard it long enough.

Nothing much been done today.I went for a badminton match today.Gotta exercise ya know.Apparently,my badminton skills has rusted to the point that i can't even hit a simple ,soft shot =.-. Crap ! Today is quite a great day . One bad thing though ,i went to play badminton with my SLIPPERS =.-.Luckily ,one of my friend lent me his school shoes lol and stockings.Ain't tat comfortable honestly XD actually i would prefer to wear my slippers lol but then there are rules saying that you can't enter without a proper shoe.

Yea i know , school shoe is not a proper sport shoe too but hey at least it is better than slippers right?haha We played at YMCA from 1 to 3p.m and then we headed to cc . Yeah, i know, cc = bad impression right? Who cares zz anyway , i don't really like cc either, if it wasn't for my friends insisting to go and the fear of ruining their "joy" of having 4 players, i would have headed home straight.After that, I finally went home ... alone and i wasted a lot of money. Not quite a happy ending i guess.

Either way, for the past few days, i have been reading Sewjin's blog =D.His blog is indeed a great one , filled with funny jokes and cute drawing by him. Speaking about sketches and drawings , there is another blogger that expresses her thought through sketches , she is ... Stickgal . Their drawings are really great and highly addicting!* yeah i am serious,don't believe it?GO SEE their site !"It makes me wonder ,could i express my thoughts with that kind of drawings too ?Yeah ,so i try and sketch too XD.

1st sketch ...
a round face?
2nd sketch
-added a hairstyle XD for some reason i love this kind of hair lol .

3rd
-Ta da ! anime eyes hehe
4th
-Body sketch + a cunning expression hohoh
-ok seems a bit too anime-ish lol s
lol... welll at least i tried =D.Guess i better do letterhead sketchs XD There , this is my graffiti of the word "zen" and a bit of editing and colouring with the help of photoshop.
Ooops it is getting late now. *couldn't believe i stay up nite just to do this thing zz*.....I should be sleeping now =.- *pray for a sweet dream* good nite ~

When worst isn't actually the worst.

Listening to - Jay Chou-Qing Tian
=> soft ,ballad style song
=> Guitar background music
=> Nice mv , violin effect xD

Again,this is one of my thoughts.Well, considering i just hear some emo songs haha.It really does get me thinking hmm..Did you ever have any bad day ?Heck what am i asking .For sure you do la~Everyone does.Surely , every one of you had experienced some bad incidents before right?Now, the question is, what do you feel when you actually experiencing them?

Me,for one would definitely feel like it is the end of the world and you know all the crazy thoughts of running out of this world and abandoning all my works crossed my mind.* no, i wasn't thinking about suicide , i mean Sleep! thats where i will be able to escape to the dream world =D * But then again, are you really sure thats the end of the world?Hence,the title of the post " When worse isn't actually the worst".

Actually , i dont quite know how to express my thoughts now.All things are currently jumbled up in my mind now.There are thoughts about life, relationships and even love *o.O *Well must be because i just read some posts relating to love haha.I wonder why, when i thought about love ,the other part of mind will keep on reminiscing about the pasts.It has been nearly 5 years since i entered secondary school.... Truth to be told, there weren't any happy memories until last year.As far as i remember, my form 1 to form 3 lifes are filled with nothing but some nonsense and miserable events.Heck, i even had my first big fight in form 3*again , no it is not gang fight or anything, just a big arguement with one of my fren*.

I guess towards the near end of form 4,thats when my life started to take a turn.I think i went out the most during tat time.That's when i started to actually have fun in my life.To be honest, i am quite an introvert.This is clearly shown in my primary school life.Believe it or not , i almost never talked to anyone actively during my primary school life.Either way, this goes on.Regarding my love life, i think i had a crush during my primary school life.Well, it was quite a puppy love i guess.So,it went on and slowly the feeling fade away.And sooner i had another crush! or was it ? Until now i am still wondering whether or not this feeling is that of love or just another feeling of wanting to be close friend.That feeling still lingers around even now i guess.

Then again,this is the kind of feeling that you don't really wanna have.The feeling of confusion, still deciding whether this is love or not, if it is indeed love,then will you go for it ? or back down due to the fear of rejection?Love is indeed very complicated and when you are in that state of confusion ... or the state of being rejected , thats where the word "worst " comes in. It might be the worst moment of your life. Yet after you experienced it and think back , it really isn't that bad afterall ,isn't it?Actually this post was meant to be a reminder to myself when i am down.

If i ever fall into depression, do think about this "This might be one of the bad moments in your life, but think again, is this really the end of the world? You are still living and there are still days ahead,so stop being emo and get to work! Go do what you should do!"Either way, my love life is again stuck in a hourglass of time.My life now is virtually filled with nothing but remnants of memories from the past.....Until the clock starts ticking again, my love life shall remain frozen .

Popular or Famous?

You have seen blogs like kennysia , dawn yang and xiaxue and i am pretty sure if not all,surely MOST of you are fascinated and addicted to reading their blogs right?You have listened to some songs by Jay Chou,JJ lin,Wang Lee Hom and surely you are loving them right?*heck for gals , i think most of you are crazy about them* By now, maybe some of you would be dreaming of being as famous as them or even more famous than them ?Hahaha Now i am here to tell you ,Yes, indeed YOU can be as famous as them or even more famous than them.Just follow some of my guidelines =D.

If you are blogger, then
1) Concentrate your blogging on your strongest point .Example, lets say you are a very creative person and you are very sure that every blog you published WILL make ppl laugh * kenny sia alert* ,well go ahead and blogged about funny posts everyday =D

2)If you are a hot,sexy,pretty,cute female blogger * just kidding haha every girl is pretty ^^* , then go ahead and write a bimbo blog.What are bimbo blogs? Easy, to put it simply , bimbo blog is a genre of blogging where bloggers post up a lot of pictures and photos of themselves in their everyday life and blogged about them. Though this genre of blogging usually belongs to females hehe.If you are a guy that post hundreds of pictures showing yourself in various poses and enjoy doing them, then either you are super narcissist or you had lost some screws in your brain or maybe lack of some male chromosomes? Well unless you are kennysia, this is kennysia's post about him trying to write bimbo blog. Check it out if you want to burst out in laughter .

3)Instant way to get famous in blogosphere,Plead and beg famous bloggers to"advertise" you in their blogs haha.If that fails,just get a knife and go to the nearest famous blogger you know or you dunno and FORCE THEM to "advertise" you in their blogs hehe.Yes, kinda like blackmail XD.

If you are not a blogger,
1) If you got talent or passion for singing and wishing to be an artist ,try advertise yourself in Youtube ^^. You know , it does work!

2)Just wait for a miracle to happen,I.e some comet hits you or radiation happens and you became the smartest genius in the world.Thats when the media will start coming to interview you and make you their headline.

3)Do a crazy thing like walking around naked in the road or go around holding a banana and shouting " i am SADDAM HUSSEIN .This IS A BOMB *points at the banana * " while running wild .Sure enough , by 2morrow your face will appear in newspaper =D

4) Be a Blogger now and apply all the steps above! xD

*Note*This post is simply random and for fun, and the efficiency is definitely not 100% guaranteed as this post is blogged by a lousy blogger wishing to be famous lol.So,there ya go =D

When you are bored...

You know. about my previous post , when i say i will try to "introduce a new song EVERY TIME i blog a new post" , i take it back now lol. I find it almost impossible to introduce new songs every time i blogged considering i have the tendency to blog according to my mood.So, lets say i am in a very very good mood and i blogged 7 times that particular day, which means i have to introduce a new songs in those 7 posts? lol ok this is getting ridiculous .I guess i will only introduce a new song when i am addicted to it ^^.

Anyway, mood swing is a very strange thing.Just a while ago, i was in a quite depressed mood.Don't ask me why i felt that way, it just came to me somehow.So, being quite depressed , i went around the net like a dead zombie,clicking on any link i found.Magically,after some youtube session and kennysia blog reading , i am cured =D or rather i am happy again hahaa. Again, i wanna stress about how benifitting the blogosphere is.Now that i think of it, why would anyone say bloggers are bad guys? And to think some politicians called bloggers as monkeys =.- * well though i called myself monkey boy , i ain't a monkey ok =.-*

Anyway , back to the topic .Boredom... yeah i know , i blogged about this a LOT Of time already.Still , i can't get enough to blog about it. Logically , no one should have any reason to be bored .Why ?Well, because lets see, as a student, you got a lot of things to do, and i mean A LOT.I.e your tuition, your homeworks,your revision etc etc .. See? That is for a student HOw about for a full-grown working adult? I guess there is only one thing in mind eh?eheh thats right it is WORK! WORK ! and WORK! lol. Get what i mean? You have no reason to be bored at all!.

Yet , i still find time to be bored.Guess i have been slacking off from studying and etc things that a student should do eh.However, now even if i am bored, it takes just a few clicks in the net and *poof* No more boredom yeah! XD Hmm... now you might be wondering what i am always doing in the net.First of all, you should clear off all your dirty thoughts ! I am a innocent guy ok?:P Usually , i will be slacking off in youtube looking for some funny comedies or animes to watch ^^. My recently adopted hobby, which is reading blogs do help in killing off my time too.The heck lar , i mean just by reading blogs , you could be wasting a few years.Don't believe me? Try reading all the blogs you can find heheh I bet you won't be able to finish them as every minute you finish reading a blog post, another new one will be published somewhere else.So,thats how i spend my time when i am bored.What about you?

Wahahhaha heheh hohoho hhehehhehehe ,yeah i sound crazy now , i know but this is what happen to me when i am over excited xD. Ok, this shall be my last post for today i guess. Whee, can't wait what will happen 2morrow.Oh yeah before i forgot, i upgraded my firefox 3.0 with some add-ons today.Man, you guys simply must check the add-ons in their site some day.There are so many interesting plugins featured there . I must say , i am impressed and glad i am using firefox as my default browser.Anyway ,i these are the add-ons i added today :
1) Firefox Showcase 0.9.4.8
=> A very useful plugin that allows live preview of all your tabs.Much like ie's quick tab hehe
2)Key Config
=> A useful plugin to provide more keyboard shortcuts for lazy man like me ^^.
3)AeroSilver Fox 3.0.1
=>A very nice theme.Love it =D

Schooling days~

Listening to : David Tao-Liu Sha .
- a nice , calming song
-a little bit of sadness,relief and comfort mixed together .

Alright , i am thinking of adding this feature in my blog post.Since, everyone would already have their own songs , it would be rather pointless embedding some songs in this blog that would might be disturbing you ,readers from listening to your own songs ,won't it ?Or maybe for those that are in offices now, it would be rather disturbing to have a song suddenly autoplay right?Even so,i believe that there are other people out there too that might be looking for songs to hear by searching around blogs and i too wish to recommend songs to those with the same taste as mine.Thus, i decided that my solution to this would be adding this " listening to : [insert song name here]" feature to my blog post.

This meaning,everytime i blogged a post , i will try my best to introduce a song that is nice *well to me that is XD * and hopefully ,for those who are searching for new song and yet to hear this one, will love it ^^.

Alright, ok now for my thoughts,hmm..i have been thinking again .There are times that i hate to go to school .There are times that i truly wants to leave the school immediately.. But after thinking about it, do i really hate my school that much?I am currently having my secondary education in Penang Free School .An once prestigious and renowned school.As for now, i can't say it is the same as ever.Truth to be told,my school has seriously deteriorate to quite a low level.

I don't hold any grudge towards the administration in my school but i do felt that their system was simply out of orders and some are just plain craps.Take for example, my headmaster's suggestion to implement a "IT Garden" in the pond area... hahah Funny , all he ever did was destroying the beautiful nature of the pond.Sure,it was a great idea but heck , could it really be implemented so smoothly ? Either way, back to my thoughts,yeah sometimes, i really do feel that the sooner i leave the school , the better it would be.

However, thinking back, how would my life be if i won't be schooling anymore?I might lose all the friends i have now? I might even do nothing but rotting at home everyday?This might be my last year at PFS and yet i am still wondering about it.What happens after i finish my secondary education? What happens when i work? I am scared of this questions.I assume that when i start working, there won't be any more carefree times like now.Heck,there might even won't be any time left for me to hang out with friends. With this kind of thoughts, i felt relieved that i am still schooling.Works might not be so scary but i assume they will still be harder and stresser than schooling right?*for those readers who are working now, i am sure you would know better than me, do share your thoughts about your school and working experience if you are interested * Awh... thinking like that , i am rather relieved that i am still able to have fun with friends.

I wonder how it would feel after i finish my SPM haha.I can't predict future.So ,who knows maybe this schooling days would be the happiest moment for my entire life? So, for now, i shall just appreciate what i have and continue to live as time shifts i guess.

Theme of a Blog

I might have mentioned this in my previous posts before but i think it is always in little details only.Hence, for now , i wish to fully go into great details about the post today that is the "Theme of a Blog".What is that you might ask? Well , simply put it , it means the theme or rather the purpose of your blog.It can be contents of your blog or what you always blog about.Though in greater heights, one can say the theme is the soul of the blogger.True, just take a glance at famous blogs around and you will notice that they really put their "soul" into it.

Just yesterday, i was surfing the net looking for some interesting post and i happened to found this interesting post.It is about mistakes that people often do when they started blogging.Some people take blogging very seriously while others blog for fun or entertainment.But what's for sure is none of them is blogging for the sake of money.*well some of them do xD but still most of them are being driven solely by their passion* Now that i think of it, what is my reason for blogging ? My theme?

To say the truth , i never once thought that i will continue blogging until now.In fact, it might even be a miracle that i still blogging today and try to update it daily.The very reason i started blogging was due to influence of my pals.However, for some reasons, most of them quit blogging after a while =.- ...Weird huh ?The same person who influenced me to blog has stopped blogging haha.Secondly, frankly , i started blogging to earn money too. I had thought that blogging would be a great income of money and guess what ...... that time i thought i could just earn money simply by typing out some posts and publish them * yeah i never put any advertisements at all that time lol *Sounds stupid?haha

Then,one day , i had problems.A lot of problems.At that very moment, i just felt that i had to let it out.I had to express it.I had to throw it somewhere.But where?Suddenly, the thought of my blog crosses my mind and i started blogging my problems and my thoughts.Eversince that i started blogging about my problems, my life and most importantly my opinions and thoughts.As you might see, some of my thoughtful posts are really my opinions that i truly like to share and get feedbacks with the others.I do enjoy writing out my thoughts and let others comment about it.

As time slowly pass by , i learn to customize my blog and adding songs and etc .The songs are gone now though haha. I learnt that people have their own music to listen to and adding songs in here will only disturb them from listening to their songs.I also learn to start blogging about my life.In some sense, one can even say this blog serves as my online diary.Either way, blogging is really good.The blogosphere is such a vast too..Just a glance into the blogosphere and you will be able to see a lot of bloggers with their own unique blogging style and their life.Now,blogging has been an inseperable part of my life.I am glad i started blogging.This blog has evolved through time and no doubt it will continue to grow.One day, i hope i would be able to share my thoughts with the whole world! * or at least with many ppl XD *

I think i finally found the theme of my blog.The theme of my blog is " My Life,My Thoughts,My Blog".What is yours?

Back in a flash.

First of all i would like to apologise for there is again, no thoughtful posts today =.-. Just me and my simple life.It seems that it has been quite some time since i last blogged.... maybe 2 days or so i assume?Well, in reality , i missed blogging.I truly miss it but even so, what is there to be blogged about?This few days , i have been slacking off.. again * well.. the usual =.- * Eversince i got the new manga series to read, i have been slacking off but now, finally it is finished :P i finally completed the manga Houshin Engi (Soul Hunter).

Heheh oh yeah , if i were to be asked what my talent is , i would definitely answer "read manga".Not to boast but had my studying skills be good as reading manga, i would be no . 1 right now lol.Seriously, i love manga.One could even say i am a diehard anime/manga fan. Sadly,the reality is cruel. Had manga be a subject in spm , i would surely score A1 already XD.

Either way, back to reality, i had finally finished the series. Now, i can finally concentrate? * how many times have i been saying such things already? zz * I am rather interested in guitar now. I mean i am VERY interested in guitar XD.Actually , i ain't interested in learning guitar formally, i just wish that i can play at least some songs that i liked.

At least till i can learn to play like this guy =D.

Sunday~

Wah..Woke up at 5.30+ today and went to temple at 6.20+ a.m XD for the National Maha Sanghika Dana Event at PISA (Penang International Sports Arena).What an amazing number of helpers there.Ridiciloud amount of helpers like we never see before lol.Guess the deal of " Full Mark " and "national certificate" really did attracted a lot of attentions eh :P.

Either way, we arrived at PISA at around 7 a.m. and start distributing the jobs.I was one of the usherers.This meaning my job is simply to accompany the devotees to give their gifts to the monk.I know, not a very helpful job.In fact , i do felt some sense of guilt upon seeing other members working hard as runners and other jobs while i just walk around accompanying the devotees .=.-

After that job , we rested for quite some time .. around 2 hours or so since we have to wait for the monks to finish eating for the requisite process.Anyway ,that 2 hours is kind of like a waste of time but still interesting since there are a lot of people.Yeah a LOT of people .Most of them was from the sunday school?wah i wonder how many people actually understand what i am talking now hahah xD. Anyway, we finally went home at 2+,Well,to be exact , i arrived home around 2.40 p.m. After eat and some online session, i slept from 4.30 p. m to 9 ++ p.m.Yeah, you don't have any eye's problem.It is true.A whooping 5 hours+ of sleep in the evening XD.Actually , i think i could sleep longer if it hadn't be for my mother to wake me up.Heheh ^^]Either way this post is actually kind of meaningless by all means.Just a simple post depicting what did i do today and i definitely doubt how many people would actually understand the terms used here.I.e Sunday school , Maha Sanghika Dana and etc .

Sealing emotions.

Today i was rather productive , i guess.Finally ,after a long struggle with my desires , my desires decided to give in to my willpower and take a rest.Yeah, i finally got the chance to do something productive after a long while.So, i went and study and exercise a little.I tried picking on guitar too.Haha so i guess , you could say it was a rather productive afternoon for me .When i had the mood to do something , i am really into it.

As such i really did enjoy all the productive things.However,sadly i wonder why, after a while , i would suddenly lost all the mood and interest in continuing those activities.It is what people refer as mood swings? I wonder. I thought about it too last time haha, a childish thinking of mine , if i could be granted one super power, which one would i choose?You might be laughing at this but i want the power to control my emotions freely.For example, when i want to study, i choose to have the "studying" mood.Sounds weird? Not at all.

Just think of it, surely there must be a moment in your life ,where you are deeply engrossed in something hmmm.. lets say music.There would surely be a time where you would listen to a certain song that you like and you are totally into it.That moment of joy and happiness, surely you would wish that kind of feeling and sensation to last forever don't you?Yeah, that is the kind of power i want,to be able to freely control or rather just to keep the mood would be fine.Hahaha, i really want to keep that " keep going" mood whenever i had it.

Again with the naieve thinking .*sigh* Just now , i just realised how little of time i have before the need to face one of the major examination in my life, spm.And judging from how reckless and lazy i am , i am sure, at the rate i am going , i will surely do badly in my exam.So,when i have the emotions and the mood to learn , i really wish that emotion lasted longer or even eternity if possible.

If i could do it, then surely i will gain a lot of knowledges that i wish to have.However,sadly i could only ramble endlessly here and to continue thinking and imagining it.I can't even have a dream about it.Why ? Well, for starters let me ask you guys, how often would you all dream ? I for one, rarely have dreams.Who knows why? Maybe because i sleep very late? Or maybe it is simply because i wasn't fated to have dreams.

Alright now for some technical issues and problems.First of all , it looks like my LCD monitor seems to has developed shadows to the right of texts and graphics.So , basically now i am seeing some shadows to the right of 1 mm of EVERY TEXTS in this display.I wonder will this affect my eyes? Fearing it will , started wearing specs haha.*Usually i don't wear specs because it is quite uncomfortable ^^* Another problem , marks on my face is getting worse. The marks left behind by acne is very very irritating.Yeah i know , i got the advice of "not overly concerned with appearance" but i can't help it but to notice it everytime i look into the mirrors. Sigh, this might be the tough time for me now.

Either way , i am having a mixed feeling today.Having experienced both depressing and enjoyable things are quite ironic.Maybe time is the what i need to overcome all this?haha *Phew* glad i blogged it all out.Alright , i am supposed to sleep earlier today because i will go to PISA (Penang International Sports Arena ) to help out 2morrow for the Maha Sanghika Dana event but i doubt i will sleep early hehe. It is just habbitual now.I still remember last time when i used to think of a way to sleep late.haha Now that i finally developed the habbit to sleep late, it will be tough to change it ^^. Alright, will be signing off for now, hope 2morrow will be a great day~ yeah~~~

Guitar Prodigy.

Again,while searching for some interesting posts, i stumbled across this video showing the great talent of a young prodigy, Sungha Jung . Can u believe that this kid was only 10 years old in that video?Wow.



Alright,now here is a topic i would like to talk on.Musical instruments are nice..aren't they?I am particularly interested in drums, guitars and piano.I think it is cool and rather essential for guys to know how to play at least one of those musical instruments.Sadly, i am not one of those lucky guys T_T. Imagine the joy of being able to sing and play musical instruments at the same time..Aww... heaven! XP Arg piano piano .. how i wished i could learn it *sigh* now it is almost too late ? =.- Now i am hoping to learn guitar.As a matter of fact , i do have guitar at home but no teacher?lol Who wanna volunteer to teach me guitar/piano/drum ? ^^]

Of temptation and willpower.

I wasn't in a mood to blog until just now, when i read some of the blog posts recommended by innit .Seriously, wow whenever I am not in the mood to blog, just a few glances to some interesting posts by others, and bang~ the mood comes flying to me. Hahah reading ppl's blog is nice and it will somewhat affect your mood if the post's topic is directly related to your life.

Like just now, i was looking for some interesting posts to read and came across this post about willpower.I am kinda interested for my willpower is weak i guess. Due to my constant procrastination and lack of time management , almost all of my works are stuck =.-. Then again, i always blame it on my will power.That is why ,when i read the post, i was particularly intrigued .

This post tells you how to strengthen your willpower.I find the post very meaningful and very true too.First of all, the temptation~ This is definitely a big obstacle to cross in your journey to have a stronger willpower.What does it mean by temptation ?You know, the thing that come across your mind whenever you wanna study ? I.e play computer games , stay around on9 doing nothing in front of the com... and a lot more useless stuffs. That are temptations.These things are usually very alluring and attractive.Now, as for how to overcome them ?

The blogger suggests that the best way to overcome temptation is, to simply accept the fact that temptation exists and don't let it control your mind.Instead,control it.To put it simply, control it and manipulate it to your own benefits.One way to do this might be to place the temptation as a prize for your hard work.For instances,your temptation might be ... want to watch tv.And the problem is.. you wanna study! So , simply manipulate that temptation as your prize to study.Think something like this "I will only get to watch tv once i finish studying this chapter"

2nd obstacle, reasons and excuses.Just as how we could manipulate things to our own benefits,our mind has the power to manipulate our thoughts to slack off too.Haha this always happen to me ^^.Everytime i tried to study , i will somehow subconciously find some excuses to get out of it.Example, no table , no time, need to rest and many more lame excuses =.- So, don't try excuses.One of the solution might be to try to be more self-aware and don't let your desires control you.Control them instead! Everytime you try to think of some reasons/excuses , SNAP out of it!,tell yourself,NO this isn't what i want, I want to [insert whatever beneficial things that you wanna do here ] and hopefully , it will work out heheh.

3rd obstacle,decisions making.This is what i am relatively weak in .As mentioned in my previous post, i wasn't capable of making an absolute decision.My heart constantly wavers between desires and things i hope to do.One possible solution is absolute isolation.This is what i always try .By absolute isolation, no i don't mean lock yourself in some deserted island or hide somewhere no one can see you .Simply put it, just confine yourself in somewhere where there is no disturbances that will trigger your desires and tempations.For me, i go to my parent's room where there is no computer =D. With that ,your heart will stick to where it is.Only your true aim should be remain in your mind.

Conclusion,don't think too much , just stick with your goals =D Actually there is a way to hone your willpower. If one was trained to handle stuffs usually without procrastination, then he/she should be able to stick to the schedule nicely.I seen most of the top scorers in my school always adhere to their schedules strictly and study consistently.(unlike me who always study last minute :P ) I think that is the reason why they always remain in the top-notch category ^^] since form 1.

hehe ok now,for some totally unrelated posts, i got myself a nice little toy to play with now,Thanks to wy xD.*ta da* drumrolls* I present to you, the Summarize !Here is a short description of what is it from their website

" Samurize is an advanced system monitoring and desktop enhancement engine for Windows 2000/XP/2003/Vista. IT professionals, overclockers, gamers and desktop modders alike use Samurize for system information, weather reports, news headlines and much much more. And best of all, Samurize is 100% free! "

Totally cool XD.And yea i totally love my desktop now,so cool XD. Here, take a look (comments and critics are widely welcomed! ) ^^ (the desktop wallpaper is taken from here ) I just added the two zens and some flame streaks haha. Btw, if anyone got a good to-do-list/planner/organiser software,do recommend me pls ^^ * i am in serious need of it to strengthen my willpower XP)

Organized Monkey :P

I have been looking for myself... for quite some time. After endless obstacles crossed, sweat and tears dropped, i finally found myself, My true self! What i am to be is ... I AM A MONKEY!!! lol.Why you might ask?Easy, because being a monkey means no problems in life at all.No need to study,no need to care about relationships ,no need to stress.. and don't need to care a lot of stuffs anymore.All you need, as a monkey is just a....

Banana
2 bananas
and more bananas

Wheee, hehe.. No don't look at me with those looks, i ain't mentally retarded =.-. And by banana i mean real banana , not your banana :P So,with that being said, people with kind and gentle hearts out there, pls do feed me by supporting the nuffnang ads ^^].*will give you some bananas in return*

Wah... i am going insane.Well,actually scientifically ,according to Darwin's theory , humans are actually the evolution of apes, or in other word,s monkeys XD .So,nothing wrong calling yourself monkey right?In fact i can just go around and call ppl as monkeys XD, anyway, as the modern monkey of the day , i hereby renounce my old arrogant,conceited and overzealous personality and evolve to become an intelligent,organised monkey ! Ok,here is the to-do-list of the monkey.

1_) Body toning * A Fit monkey is a health/macho monkey!*
2_) Learning Css & Html * i want to design my own blog ^^ *
3_) Learning Chinese & Japanese *This monkey like chinese & japanese ppl ^^ *
4_) Studying ? Well... in the progress i guess =.- * one thing the monkey don't like*
5._) Live an organised,peaceful life.*Wishlist*

First step, organising my computer and room. Lets go~~

For those who don't read emails XD

For those who don't read emails, here are some funny emails that you might/might not get XD .Those who understands hokkien, Go see the SPM hokkien paper HAHAha XD

A letter from ah beng
Dear Ah Lian

Thanks you for your letter. Wrong time no see you. How everything? For me, I am quiet find.

You say in your letter your taukeh soh want you to chain your look? Somemore you must wear kick kok soo, hope you can wok properly.

You know, Ah Kau Kia working in a soft where company now. Last week, he take I, Muthu & few of his friend to May Nonut to eat barger. After that he take we all go to kalah ok.
Muthu sing and sing no stop until the sky bright.

Next week, my father mother going to sellerbread 20 years annie wear sari. My father mother going to give a fist to all the kampong people. So you must come with your hole family.

I only hope one day we no need to write and send letter to you and to me. Better I e-meow you, you e-meow me. I will ketchup with you soon. And when you got time, please few free to call me. Goo bye.....

Worm regard,
Ah Beng

Nine words women use...

1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are
Right and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more
Minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something,
And you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing
Usually end in fine.

4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement
often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an
idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing
with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women
can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard
before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say
you're welcome.

8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying @#@# YOU!

9.) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning
this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but
is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's
wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.

Send this to the men you know, to warn them about arguments they can
avoid if they remember the terminology.

SPM Levels Hokkien Exam Paper Instructions: 1. Read the passage carefully 2. Grade yourself with the grading system at the end of the passage after reading. 3. Not that difficult, chin chai do lah ! Section A: Orrler Exeminetion (60 marks) Question: Singalella why become rich ? Koo zhar wu chee ay char bor kia, Singalella. She got two sisters, but the stepmarder and the sisters all damn kuai-lan, so she quite zhia-lat oso. Last time Singalella got own maid, but now she become the amah. Everyday must cook lah, clean lah, simi sai mah bao-kah-liao. If her sister say liak kar zhuak, she liak. Tak jit zho kah tau-hin. EPF poon boh. But then, kay piak eh ah-pek got one son call Ah Ming got party. So he say, 'oeh, long chong lai ah.' Singalella very happy because she never go party before but then her step-marder say, 'Lee Mana eh-sai kee, this one bahru lu eh sisters wu standard.' Then Singalella must zho sui-sui for her sisters and step-marder. Tap pai how, buay zhia, buay koon and buay pang-sai. That night she only can wave bye bye and then she go back to the kitchen and cook Maggi mee. Her neighbour came over and ask, 'Eh, an-zhua lu boh kee party?' So Singaalella kong, 'I-wan, lau-bu kong buay-sai, so boh pian.' She never expect but the neighbour say, 'Aiyah, kee lah, I give you money.' So singalella brush teef and zhang-zhui, chen-kor, after that look very different. She quickly run to opposite of the beh-chia-lor, already 11 o'clock. At the party, Ah Ming also quite sian because the char bor all boh sui one. Dance floor even got one ah pek dancing. Just as Ah Ming told himself, 'Aiyah see-pay zhia-lat', Singalella came in. Ah Ming straight away lau nuar. 'Wah-lau eh, see-pay heng ah, chee kor buay pai.' Ah Ming say to Singalella, 'eh, sui eh, wah ai kah lee zho flen!' Singalella say ok but Ah Ming like octopus, touch here touch there. But then just it was 12 o'clock, one ah pek die on the dance floor. He become ghost and tell Singalella all the good 4D number. So after that Singalella quickly go and buy 4D, and then tiok tau-pio, zhit-pak ban. So she pay back the kay-piak eh lau-kay-poh and then kah kee cho sen-lee. Simi kuan eh sen-lee wah mana eh zhai. Section B: Grades - Gauge Your command of Hokkien.... A1. Can understand the story and pronounce Hokkien correctly. Hokkien eh sai, bo beh zao. A2. Can understand half story and/or cannot pronounce Hokkien properly. zhia lat E8. Don't understand story and/or catch no ball. leow leow, mai ka lang kong you is Hokkien Singabolean F9. Don't understand rating. kee see lah, wah mana eh zhai lee kong simi? ?

New beginning =D

Wow , time really does flies when school starts.Really. I still remember that sunday i was still having my tuition class...Tuition?OOps crap homework arg!!! ah nvm =.- ... it is late now XD.I just finished watching ironman ^^ . ... ..... The hell ? I am supposed to STudy wei ZZZZ =.- Arg crap procrastination .

MAN, today i just had a few chats.. and i mean A FEW .VERY FEW. For those who know me well enough , you would know that i am one msn freak =.-. Without msn , i am almost 80% left with nothing to do with my com.Again , i would like to announce.... Msn is officially DEAD!Hooray Yee Haa XD whee :P

*Naieve thinking* Msn down = no more usage of com = more time to study and do something more beneficial. Well... that WAS what i thought initially , but somehow even with msn down, i still would manage to on my com and surf around wasting my time there.I don't know this is another "talent" of mine or what but if i got a choice , i would rather don't want it .

Anyway, i am pretty glad that msn is dead.Seeing at how the rate it is going on now, i guess by a few days time, i would be able to "seal" my com .And with that i shall finally be able to study Muahahaz .Ok yet another plan of mine that Might succeed..WHo knows ?=D ok time to off. ima be a gud boy 2nite ^^

The ugly side of me.

I never meant to blog about an emo post.For those looking for funny stuffs and posts,don't look at this one but if u are some problematic and sadistic guy/gal that wants to see other ppl's suffering, do read it then =D .Guess i will save this as draft haha.... or not =D either way today i encountered yet another one of the youth's common problem._SElf esteem_ !!!!According to cambridge advance learner's (bla bla bla ) dictionary,Self esteem is ... belief and confidence in your own ability and value.In other words, confidence =.-.I had always be an attention-seeker since i am young and i am still is.(Again, not that i am very old now ^^ )

Ask around any of my friends that knew me since secondary school and they will say " o.O tat zen ar? that annoying little monkey that runs around disturbing and annoying people wan?" And yup thats me . Now that i thought about it ,i was really annoying last time until even some of my friends nicknamed me "fly" for being so annoying =.-.Well, i dunno what impression i give them now but i do think my annoyance streak has ended ..Or at least has been reduced to an acceptable level.(Or so i think....) Either way , i have no intention to return the old annoying brat i used to be for now.You might think what does this annoying post got to do with my self esteem?

Well, the truth is why do you think i annoyed ppl endlessly when i was young?I guess me at that time just dunno how to think.A slip of my mind and maybe thats how i went into the path of annoyance to get attention ....I know lame isn't it? =\.Either way , being an attention seeker the way i am now, i tends to fall apart when people ignored me.It still happens now.I mean how would you feel if no one appreciate what u have done, if no one regard your ideas and opinions and worse of all if everyone beh shiok you?*note not all of this is happening to me , i am just using "IF " ok? ^^ * Sad right? Well now it is only a matter of time before my whole mind crumbles completely.

I actually managed to find the root of my problem of self-esteem.Well, it is all due to a certain "talent" of mine.Now, i think i blogged about this "talent" of mine sometime before in my blog here.Ok, this wonderful "talent" of mine is actually .... the inability to express myself clearly and the ability to brag about some craps that aren't worthy to be mentioned.Everytime i got a chance to do something big .i.e talk in a big crowd, showing off my skill to present ( i have none actually, see, this is just another example of me bragging about useless things ) , I always screwed up.

For example, today i was supposed to present something in class.Though the teacher just asked me to read it a few minutes and ask me present on today itself , i felt that i am ready.I memorized the entire paragraph in that given few minutes.Well, at least thats what i thought i had done.Ok,so everything was perfect , i am ready anytime now.BUT when the teacher called me up the stage , i went numb .My mind is scrambling and falling apart.It is like a huge jigsaw puzzle now....I mumbled nervously and embarassed myself in front of everyone .I swear i had it covered already before i was about to present. Neverthelessly , i failed . I failed badly.It is always the same.Even when i try to talk to unfamiliar friend time,i swear.. i swear i had planned all perfectly , knowing what to talk and how to response BUT when it comes to the real thing , i always screwed up and say something stupid.

Hahaha weird eh? I suppose this kind of thing will change over time.For those reading this post that have difficulty in understanding it, It's ok because even the writer itself have no idea what he had crapped.Now here is one piece of advice i got from one fortune telling application called "han decoz's life number numerology".I know i know... most of you would say i am siao kia for trusting in this kind of things online somemore but Hey this is very true wei. dont believe? Go try it for yourself!Here is a part of it telling me not to be too conceited.I find this especially true.

"
You should watch out for selfishness, conceit and the over-concern

with appearance. You must guard against overzealous behavior, anger and

aggressiveness. If these qualities are not brought under control you could

become excessively domineering, vindictive and even violent. You perform best

when you are left to your own devices. Hold fast to your life's dream and work with the

determination you possess to realize it. You can become overly stressed by your

driven nature. Be careful about the food you eat and maintain an exercise

program you enjoy. Competition sports are often a healthy outlet for a person with

your drive, particularly sports involving running and swimming. Don't let pride and

overconfidence be your masters. Remember, your talents and abilities are a gift

from a higher source, which should promote gratitude and humility, rather than

pride and conceit.

"
Arg,see i know! conceit!Brag! all the same =.- crap man, Need to learn how to control myself................Nevertheless, i felt relieved now *phew* =D i am ok again! This blog was essentially created out of one intention, to dump all my emoness ^^ and i believe it had definitely served it's purpose well.Ok, off to read some other super duper funny blogs to cheer up my mood now XP *Hope that after i read those funny blogs, i would be able to blog like them too ^^*
Oh btw, in hope for changing my personality , i changed my name too, no more zen9night, just call me " monkey boy zen " =D

Mood to Blog XD

Hahah wow, a few minutes ago , i was in the realm of boredom and nearly dozes off in front of my com, but now , i am "high" and energetic again =D.Whee, i got the mood to blog again ^^] .Guess reading some blogs of others do help in increasing your concentration and gives u a better mood ^^. Wah,whee happyyyyyyy XD. haha Here is some suggestions for those of you who are bored and looking for something to do .

1)Go to nuffnang and check out some of the uber cool posts there! Man they do rocks woo XD. Of course if you would like to waste your time , u can always choose the other alternative which is to , 2) Stay here and keep clicking on my blog =D ( lolx just joking , don't even try doing that XD)

Anyway,after looking at some interesting posts , i do suddenly have the mood to blog too haha. About what you might ask ? Well, hmm.. i think i would talk about youth XD youth life tat is ^^. Honestly, till now , i really really do regret a lot of things i had done in the past.No no , not bad things , it is just the mistakes.Mistakes of joining useless unit kokurikulum ,mistakes of being passive in taking part in any competition, and etc etc. In just a nick of time , 16 years had passed. ( hahah i am talking as if i am a very old man ) Ah.... kinda missed my form 1 school life.. back then i was so innocent ( and still is ^^ ) XD Sadly, me at that time was rather immature and dunno how to make any wise decisions.

Thats why i ended up all remorseful and regretful now.*sigh* if only i made the correct choice tat time T_T *day dreaming again* OK back to the topic haha, hmm.... as i said , this year, the form 5 year "Might" be the last year being with my friends .After this year, most of us will go our owno seperate ways.. T_T.Honestly, i do have some feeling of sorrow in my heart haha.... nearly 5 years in this school d, not even one Big achievement =.-... quite an embarassment really.

After this year, half of our youth life will be gone *TxT* Sad huh .. time passed so quickly .Nowadays, i don't talk much in msn anymore hehe. It seems that most of the active contacts i talked to last time are busy now that school is starting again.Now, i am just waiting for time to pass and spm to pass... till the day we would get to have fun together again . I awaits that moment.Hopefully something good will happened in my coming days ^^.

Life at ease~

Arg.. i had missed blogging for the past two days? Haiz *sigh*what to do , it is not like i don't like to blog , or i don't have time to do it.It is just that nowadays,i don't really have much inspiration to blog.What to blog about? Everyday life? That would be kinda bored,right? =.- i mean , like everyday i woke up at 6 , went to school, study this study that , sleep in the class and went back home.How boring would that be if you would read the same thing everyday?

Sadly,now i know that being here online-ing would not bring me any benefit at all , but still ,once i am online, somehow, i would know how to waste my time here.Either by going youtube,or go find some useless drama.Arg,even as i am blogging now, i really , in a sense is virtually wasting my time.

But it doesn't matter,nothing much happens now i guess.It is back to the normal school life, just me struggling to break through my class's boredom and loneliness.Though, being in school really does seems to speed up the time i am experiencing now.Everyday , i will sleep almost around 1+ everynight dreaming about impossible dreams and goals.Then, i will go to school in sleepy mood and continue struggling through the tedious lessons from the teachers. And then back to home,sleep then wake up and sleep again.

So,to put it simply, one can summarize my entire day by this cycle :

Go to school >>> come back >>> eat>>> sleep>>>wake up and eat dinner >>>>sleep
Like a pig huh? haha nawh i am still thin XD

Ok,back to the main event, hmm.. this week i got a fair bit of works to do, but as for will i be hardworking enough to do it? XD we shall see again ^^]

Currently addicted to , 吳雨霏 鄧麗欣 - 偏愛 MTV(有字幕,冇延遲)
-a nice cantonese song that gives u the soothe and relaxing feeling that makes you
hope that the song doesn't end.(well at least thats what i thought =D)

Of Life and Love

Here, as mentioned in last post , i shall now blog about my own thoughts after watching the tear-jerking j-drama,Koizora a.k.a sky of love.First and foremost ,i truly felt like wanna live in fantasy world after watching this drama.Why? Because everything is so sweet and well planned for you there.It is as if your life is one perfect story, planned perfectly ahead of time.

I mean , how many people would ever had the chance to experience the unimaginable scenes like those in dramas. Imagine, a pretty,cute and kind girl/handsome guy found your hand phone and suddenly called you everyday and you started talking and after a few years later, you got yourself a super,sweet and nice lover. How many girls ever experienced something like , a guy openly shouted he love you in front of public places and proposed you that instant?For guys, would you really do that ?

How many girls are that naive? How many guys are that daring?That are all just fantasies in dramas.Heck ,once even a friend of mine once told me that guys in Malaysia wouldn't be able to do anything as sweet in the drama.I must say though i do agree to her statements to a certain degree.Maybe i am just too young and yet to seen scenes like that happen in real life but still i don't really think Malaysian guys will do that.

Compared to other countries, Malaysians really do have a "closed mind" eh? Things that are usually done like greetings by kissing on the cheek in US is like a taboo here. And it would seem like Malaysian guys and girls appear to be more "pai seh" or shy here.*sigh* i dunno , maybe it was just me that are too naive.Actually , i would prefer to be naive and live in fantasy world if i could be like those main characters in drama.Imagine, you found your true love, and she loves you too and you went on to set a nice,happy family life.Everything will go on perfectly , you are the handsome and charming prince for her, and she is your beautiful and attractive angel for you.You will spend your eternity living happily with her.How sweet is that ?

Although the reality is a cruel world, not only it will be very hard for one to find his/her perfect partner , one still have to deal with countless problems and obstacles (i.e Finance,family consent and etc etc) .zz i know, i rant about money a lot but thats the truth of life.It is an unavoidable problem.As for me now, i never truly experienced the magic of love and frankly, i don't think my age now is suitable to experience it too.Nevertheless ,i still love to find the perfect one, the other half of me.I thought i found one , but nawh, it is impossible, this is the cruel ,reality after all.So,lets just say , my love life shall be "paused" for now.Until i find the one , my love life shall always stayed the same ,continue to stray across the path of time ...... until someone breaks it with the magic of love~

Sky of Love

Erm... how should i begin ? Oh yeah,since yesterday night,i was watching a j-drama recommended by friend.The drama's title is Koizora(恋空) a.k.a Sky of Love. Well,while i was searching for the drama,i found the synopsis and details about this movie.Here is the synopsis :

The cell-phone novel that moved 11 million to tears

Uploaded to a cell-phone website, this tale of an average girl’s three stormy years of high school, a saga of love, rape, pregnancy, miscarriage, parting, and reunion, is in fact a true story. Striking a chord with many women, its popularity spread like wildfire by word of mouth, and published in book form was an instant best-seller, with 1.3 million copies snapped up in only three weeks. The work is a true phenomenon of the emerging cell-phone society.
(source: Moviexclusive.com)

Hmm, since i last watched one litre of tear, i haven't spill any more tears from watching drama.So, being a rather sentimental and emotional guy i am , i decided to try this drama to see whether the drama really moved 11 million people to tears.

At the near end of the drama, it really does move me to tears.Although this is like the typical tear-jerking drama you might have seen, this is still a heart-felt story .Highly recommended for those who loves to cry lol ( in the sense of you like sentimental and emotional story as well ^^ ).:Love the great casts , that is Yui Aragaki as Mika and Haruma Miura as Hiro .Yui Aragaki is really a pretty and cute girl and her personality as Mika doesn't really differs much from her own personality.Thus, the portrayal of Mika by her is really the best choice.As for Haruma Miura as Hiro, well... you can say he fits the character perfectly too. XP (Girls, don't worry , he is a handsome guy ^^ )

ok , i shall end the review for this movie here. Again, i highly recommended it to those who wishes to move their tears.oh by the way ,don't worry this movie doesn't have all the overly obscene and profane scenes.So , it is safe to be watched together with family ^^. Alright, i shall blog about my own thoughts for it in the near future.

Just Sharing¬ [ Misuses of Texting ]

Hohoho, this article was sent to me by my friend quite a long time ago. Suddenly, i remembered it and felt like sharing it hahaha. Ok, i shall paste it here but for those who are interested in seeing its original source, here it is.

" For those of you who use text messaging as a form of communication with someone you're dating, whether you have a BlackBerry or an Apple iPhone, text messaging is the most abused and misinterpreted form of communication out there.

There are some things for which text messaging is great. It's great for confirming things ("See you tonight at 7:00 at Joe's Restaurant.") It's great as a good night kiss ("Did you get home safely?"). It's great to reconfirm things ("What time are we meeting on Sunday? Let me know.") It's great for when you want to lob in a quick message to someone when they can't talk on the phone ("Can't wait to see you tonight.")

Texting is all about short conversations, and can be useful and fun in the dating context. Texting used in certain other ways, however, gets ugly within the dating context -- and can really get you into trouble. Some of these uses should be avoided because they can cause unintended misunderstandings, while others are simply bad manners or outright rude!

So, here are seven of the biggest misuses of texting that you should avoid in the dating context:

1. Save the Jokes. One drawback of texting (as with any written form of communication) is that it is sometimes difficult to convey the tone of what you write. Words are often misinterpreted. You can text somebody something that you think is a joke, and they don't read it that way. This will get you into trouble, because they may never call you back and give you the opportunity to straighten out the misunderstanding. So if you want to tell someone you're dating a joke, it's best to save it and tell it to them in person.

2. Texting is Not Intended to Cancel a Date. If you don't want to see somebody again, you need to call them and cancel the plans. Texting is the chicken way to blow someone off, whether you ever intended to see them again or not. Texting is not an excuse to be rude. Be a grown-up and pick up the phone.

3. Don't Ask Someone Out via Text Message. Women especially can't stand when a guy asks them out via text messaging. Every woman I've spoken to thinks that when a guy asks them out via text message, that he really is not that interested in them. They all wish a guy would just pick up the phone. Guys, if you're interested then be a man and just pick up the phone! Granted, some women will say yes to a text date, but they will always prefer if you call them.

4. Avoid the 'Morning After' Text. If you had a great date with someone the night before, don't text the person the minute you get up the next morning. Wait a few hours. Let the post-date recap settle down on both sides. Give someone a little time to think about you. There's no harm in waiting a few hours, especially after a first date. You don't want to look over-anxious.

5. Keep the Texting to a Minimum. Once you've texted back and forth a few times, and unless one of you is in a Turkish prison being tortured by a not-so-friendly cell mate, you need to pick up the phone and have a real conversation. You will not discover whether you share a true connection with someone by conversing with them via text message. Also, as two adults, you need to have an actual voice-to-voice conversation. So go ahead and exchange a few texts, but then get yourself on the phone!

6. You May Not Get an Answer. Just because you texted someone, doesn't mean they're going to respond. This is another issue with using text messaging as your main communication method -- especially in the dating context. You're texting back and forth with someone, then you send something to them and they don't respond. They may have gotten on the phone. They may have fallen asleep. They may have gone into a meeting. Because texting is so impersonal, though, you don't know what happened to them.

7. You Are Left Wondering. Let's say you texted someone on a Tuesday, they responded to your text, you texted them again and... now it's Friday and they still haven't texted back. What does someone do in that situation? They may not be keeping a text count like you are. They may have forgotten to text you back because they got on a long phone call or got caught up in some work, and your text may have gotten lost. Let me ask you a question? Do you answer every email that comes in... or does one sometimes get buried and go unanswered? If you haven't heard from someone in a few days, pick up the phone and call them. You never know what they're response is going to be. Most of the time you're going to be pleasantly surprised, but all of the time you're going to get your answer. That's what dating is all about... getting answers. Plus, you won't drive yourself and your friends crazy wondering.

There's a lot of misinterpretation that can happen via text messaging. Understanding all of the seven reasons above will help you navigate the fun side of texting in dating, while helping you avoid the bad side of texting in dating.

Texting is a great way have a little verbal flirting to stay connected in someone's life. It's not a replacement for a phone conversation. So if you're hoarding your cell phone minutes, I suggest you contact your provider and get some more minutes. Start having conversations again instead of hiding behind text messaging! "

Of Aspirations and Feelings.

Another thoughtful post ^^. For starters, i would like to mention special thanks to wy the bear :P for inspiring me to come up with this post.Ok,lets begin.First of all ,aspirations and dreams.These things are necessary essential for us to continue living right?I mean ,what is the point of life if you don't have a target of goal to reach?

I,for one have many targets and goals in life.Though as for how i would be able to reach it, i have no idea.One of my wishes is to learn piano,guitars and other musical instruments.But,dreams alone won't take you there.Nowadays,dreams don't come cheap.Sadly,nearly everything in the world now needs money.Hence, my first and foremost target is to earn money! ^^

Now,for a moment in life.Here is a question, would you rather 1) enjoy your life as much as possible for now or 2)work hard to enjoy later.This might be a simple thought process but i would still like to point it out here.This is what most of the people might think to do with their life.

study hard = > work hard => become rich =>enjoy hard~

True, this might be the most logical things to do but what about others who thought that enjoying life is the most important as life is short?I have an assumption.Have you ever wondered what will happen in that timeline of working hard and earning money?Maybe,something could have happened ? Who knows right? So the question now is " Is it really worth to continue working hard and study hard knowing that you might die any moment without even enjoying your life?"

Take a moment and give it some thoughts.... Concerning this question though , my friend did gave me a great answer.His answer is literally like this " Even though i know i might die any moment, i will still be satisfied pursuing it because living in a life pursuing a dream is better and more meaningful than living in a mere fairy tale dream. ".I must say , i am impressed and of course agreed with him.What about you guys? What do u think ?=D

Brief update

Now , here is a brief update on my tiny musical world.This song is definitely a super duperrrr nice song.I know, this is quite an old song already but what can i say ... i just started to listen to it yesterday XD and now i am addicted o.O! Ok here are some interesting clips on musics.

曹格&卓文宣 - 梁山伯与茱丽叶
Gary Cao Ge & Genie Zhuo Wen Xuan's duet -Liang Shan Bo yu Zhu Li Ye.
-Super nice song with a surprisingly nice mv too.
-Love the animation of the mv and the sweet lyrics
-Oh btw 卓文宣 is very cute and pretty =D *kawaiiiii* XD





Wang Lee Hom's Da Cheng Xiao Ai
- a cheerful,nice song that kinda gives you a tranquil,peaceful feeling ^^



High Pitch Battle, 飆高音大賽-TANK vs 曹格
- The title explains it all lol.
-A must see video for entertainment sake :P
-Funny too ^^



Thats all for now i guess ^^ Remember to watch all those videos if you are free :P(especially the FIRST one, it is a MUST SEE for those who never watch it yet ^^)

Back to school and Manifestation of thoughts

Oh nooooooooooooooooo Holiday is over T_T .Argh here comes everlasting school works and activities again =.=.Doesn't matter , i need to take things positively and optimistically from now on.Now, it seems today marks the beginning of a new era.New lifestyle,new teachers and new HAIRSTYLE??? ( zomg i am near bald now T_ T ) *sigh* such is the "cluster school" of Penang.PFS,Penang Free School, an once renowned school famous for being the oldest in penang ,or asia pacific? (not sure about this, those who knew about this fact , do correct me if i am wrong ^^ ) and also one of the most prestigious school has now turned into .....crappy cluster school .

I shall not go into details as how crap is crap but lets just say the school is now ... virtually on the verge of destruction.What's with the crazy idea of "garden with open air-cond" ? All this coming from our "great" headmaster whose promises are nothing but mere craps.How i wished i can go college argggggggg instead of this form 6 in pfs AGAIN? ZZZ ... ish ler , now i am nearly 80% confirmed going to form 6 due to financial circumstances.Please , if there are miracles, please do happen anytime now. I am desperately in need of them T_T.

Alright now, for today's thoughtful topic, i am gonna blog about the manifestation of our thoughts.If you are an avid book reader, then maybe you might have come across many books that tells us regarding our powerful mind power.In fact , there is even a film entitled "The Secret" that tells us about how powerful our mind really is.In that film, it is stated that the world revolves around the law of attraction.Whenever we think of what we want, the law of attraction will kick in and make our dreams come true.Basically,the law of attraction states that,our mind are capable of getting what we want if we just think of it hard enough.However, is it really that easy?

If it is as easy as what it has been stated,then why are there still so many misfortunes in this world?There are a lot of poor people in this world that have been wanting and craving to be rich and i am pretty sure their thoughts of getting rich are very strong.But even so, why do they still lives in midst of poverty?Therefore,today i would like to talk about how we can manifest our thoughts into reality.

Maybe this so called mind power can only be realised in dreams.True , in dreams, our mind are capable of stimulating and creating whatever we wanted. What would it be if you are given control of your dreams?What would you like to dream about? haha That would be great ,isn't it?But,could we control our dreams?The answer is YES,we can indeed control our dreams.This kind of dream control is called having a lucid dream.Basically, having a lucid dream means you are actually aware that you are dreaming and be able to use our own sub-conscious to control our actions in dreams. Do click on the link if you are interested in knowing the way to have lucid dream ^^.

But what i am talking about is not this .What i mean by manifestation of thoughts is the ability to make something to happen with just our bare mind.Psychic perhaps?hahah That would be great right? Just think about it.Every moment ,you are constantly thinking.So,what do you think you would do if you could ,lets say .. change the world with ur bare thoughts?Unfortunately the reality is a cruel place .This are all just my mere imaginations.However, the part about lucid dream is indeed true.Hence,what we can really do with our thoughts is maybe by using lucid dreams to give ourself a boost of confidence and give us one moment of how it feels like to be able to do what we wanted,even defying the law of nature.Here is an interesting question though, now if you are given a SINGLE chance to do whatever you want,even doing the impossibles ,what will you do? ^^

Of making decisions and choices...

Today,as expected, nothing productive being made again .Though,today , i wasted quite a good deal of money.Reasons? None. It is a total waste of money! I spent almost Rm 10 on public bus fees alone.What the heck? Either way,I was forced to make a choice again.I can choose to stay at home or to go out with friends.Though it was quite late already that time , 4 p.m ,I chose to go out.

It turned out that i made the wrong decision... again. Why does i always make the wrong decision ? I don't understand.Why am i so incapable of making the correct decisions? I wonder....Then again, only when i have done something wrong or when i am emo ,only then can i blog about something thoughtful.Sometimes, i really hope this kind of "me",this kind of mood, would stay with me forever.Only when i am in this kind of mood, can really makes me wonders a lot of things.

Making decisions .Everyone, at some point of their life will have to make an important decision for sure.Be it life-changing decisions or minor choices ,everyone sure needs to make decisions.But why ? Why is it so hard just to make a decision?Why can't we just say cincai to everything?*sigh* maybe when we are small , we can leave this decision making to our parents but when we are older , everything revolves around us is asking us to make a decision.

Making decisions can be very stressful,especially the one involving other ppl's life.Over and over again , i keep making the wrong choices ..... Until i couldn't be bothered to continue anymore.Sometimes , i just felt that the world is a much better place if everything is just there for you.No need to make any decisions, there is already a planned road ahead of you.Wouldn't it be better?

But then again, sometimes the road that have been planned for you might not be the best.I don't know what am i crapping now but one thing for sure, as of i now ,i am incapable of making any good decisions.Today, might be my last outing already ... until spm is over that is and it turns out to be one of my worse outing yet.WHy can't i make a solid, nice and correct decision? Whether in love , friendship or life, i just can't make one =.-.
Next time .... my heart shall never waver again .Decisions shall be made absolute! Well, at least that is what i hoped for now .. haha

Another day~

Nothing much can be said today, except the fact that I was "trying" to be productive .hehe.Well, trying is better than nothing right?Anyway, nearly completed my stupid moral things.ZZZ i seriously don't understand what is the purpose of introducing this moral subject?Just for the sake of so called "fairness" since the Malays have their Islamic studies? No point learning this stupid subject.

Either way,the much awaited holiday has finally coming to an end T_T.Nothing much have been done in this 2 weeks. Just some fun and some plain boredom .Actually , more boredom than fun . =.=.So, there you go,2 whole weeks spent on doing nothing but pointless activities.How i wish the time can be reversed T_T. Though ... as time goes on , spm is approaching .But if you think from the other point of view, one can say that spm is coming to and end too.YEAH!!!!! XD ( naive thoughts eh ?:P )

Now, today i thought about learning chinese again T_T. Learning chinese has always been on my to-do-list.Though, for some reasons , i just couldn't get to complete it.( or even start it lol ) Today, i went on and searched for some good web sites to learn it . As expected i found some. Here are some good ones , Zhongwen , Writeinchinese , Chinese-outpost . hehe those who planned to learn chinese , faster go to one of this sites daily and master the language! Don't be like me keep procrastinating T_T.

Oh by the way , today i was completely immersed in the wonderful world of musics~ Whee, songs by Evan Cai Ming You ,蔡旻佑 are splendid ! I do enjoy hearing chinese and japanese songs. That is why i wish to learn those two languages !Ah.... how i wish i can master them .Anyway , i recommend Wo Xiang Yao Shuo / I want to say (我想要說) by Evan Cai! Here is the youtube link of the song. Enjoy ^^. He is such a talented guy and having such a nice voice just at the mere age of 19 o.O .Btw, don't be mistaken , i ain't gay , i am just praising him for being so talented.I mean don't anyone would idolizes him for he know not only how to play piano but even piano and guitar too!!!=.-*sigh* Does everyone in taiwan is that talented?