Sealing emotions.

Today i was rather productive , i guess.Finally ,after a long struggle with my desires , my desires decided to give in to my willpower and take a rest.Yeah, i finally got the chance to do something productive after a long while.So, i went and study and exercise a little.I tried picking on guitar too.Haha so i guess , you could say it was a rather productive afternoon for me .When i had the mood to do something , i am really into it.

As such i really did enjoy all the productive things.However,sadly i wonder why, after a while , i would suddenly lost all the mood and interest in continuing those activities.It is what people refer as mood swings? I wonder. I thought about it too last time haha, a childish thinking of mine , if i could be granted one super power, which one would i choose?You might be laughing at this but i want the power to control my emotions freely.For example, when i want to study, i choose to have the "studying" mood.Sounds weird? Not at all.

Just think of it, surely there must be a moment in your life ,where you are deeply engrossed in something hmmm.. lets say music.There would surely be a time where you would listen to a certain song that you like and you are totally into it.That moment of joy and happiness, surely you would wish that kind of feeling and sensation to last forever don't you?Yeah, that is the kind of power i want,to be able to freely control or rather just to keep the mood would be fine.Hahaha, i really want to keep that " keep going" mood whenever i had it.

Again with the naieve thinking .*sigh* Just now , i just realised how little of time i have before the need to face one of the major examination in my life, spm.And judging from how reckless and lazy i am , i am sure, at the rate i am going , i will surely do badly in my exam.So,when i have the emotions and the mood to learn , i really wish that emotion lasted longer or even eternity if possible.

If i could do it, then surely i will gain a lot of knowledges that i wish to have.However,sadly i could only ramble endlessly here and to continue thinking and imagining it.I can't even have a dream about it.Why ? Well, for starters let me ask you guys, how often would you all dream ? I for one, rarely have dreams.Who knows why? Maybe because i sleep very late? Or maybe it is simply because i wasn't fated to have dreams.

Alright now for some technical issues and problems.First of all , it looks like my LCD monitor seems to has developed shadows to the right of texts and graphics.So , basically now i am seeing some shadows to the right of 1 mm of EVERY TEXTS in this display.I wonder will this affect my eyes? Fearing it will , started wearing specs haha.*Usually i don't wear specs because it is quite uncomfortable ^^* Another problem , marks on my face is getting worse. The marks left behind by acne is very very irritating.Yeah i know , i got the advice of "not overly concerned with appearance" but i can't help it but to notice it everytime i look into the mirrors. Sigh, this might be the tough time for me now.

Either way , i am having a mixed feeling today.Having experienced both depressing and enjoyable things are quite ironic.Maybe time is the what i need to overcome all this?haha *Phew* glad i blogged it all out.Alright , i am supposed to sleep earlier today because i will go to PISA (Penang International Sports Arena ) to help out 2morrow for the Maha Sanghika Dana event but i doubt i will sleep early hehe. It is just habbitual now.I still remember last time when i used to think of a way to sleep late.haha Now that i finally developed the habbit to sleep late, it will be tough to change it ^^. Alright, will be signing off for now, hope 2morrow will be a great day~ yeah~~~