Like any other normal teenagers in this world, I faced yet another one of the common problems.Self-esteem, or rather commonly known as confidence, is definitely a big issue in a man's life.Not only does it apply to guys , but I am pretty sure it does made much impacts towards woman's life too right?Lack of self-esteem can be a big problem.
I think I definitely have a lot of problems regarding this confidence issue.I believe most guys do have this problem too , or issit only me?Most of the time , I will be questioning my abilities.For example,I would always ask myself
1) Who are you compared to others?
2)What is/are your passion(s)?
3)What talents do you have?
The answers for the above question... for me , are definitely bad ones.To be honest, I don't really know my interests or what I wish to do.For now, I am just doing whatever I can do to pass time to discover what awaits me after SPM.I have no interest or whatsoever passion that I wish to indulge in.Oh wait,maybe there are.. Yeah,there are passions but the problem with it is that I can't accomplish it.No, not as a teenager now.If only I could skip forward some time ahead or even reverse back to my past.All but mere impossible dreams.
Talents? Logically speaking , talents only exists when you have passions.That is how talents are born.If you are interested in something , definitely you would be talented in it after some time.So,without knowing my passion , automatically I don't have any talents as well.I do have some secret desires to do something out of my mind but then again,I know it is impossible as I do not have the fund to do so.I can only blame it on fate.Yeah nothing but fate and luck.
Just yesterday I was talking to my friend and he told me about some great ,talented kids in his school,achieveing great feat at his mere age of 15.Honestly,I was amazed yet at the same time felt jealous.Yes,jealous over his talents.The world has seen many great talents surfacing over this few decades.I just wonder why am I not part of them ?Sure ,I believe with great talent,comes great responsibility and problems too but I don't mind if I do possess some talents.
Awh, in the end of the day ,It is just me not being myself.Yeah, there is a quote saying " Just be yourself".Then again, who is myself?I am starting to doubt my own existence as well.Why am I here?What am I doing now?For what purpose do we,men, lives?
After much thoughts,finally, one conclusion , albeit incomplete has been reached.In conclusion, just don't think too much.Those questions are mysteries that aren't meant to be answered by us.Lets just say we existed for the sake of it.Since I am already here,who cares how or why am i being born into this world as me?Depending on other's perspective, I might be unlucky ,judging from my own viewpoint, yet I am considered damn lucky compared to other poorer guys.I just have to appreciate life as it is.Though I might not be able to indulge in every field I am interested in, Though I might not have any talents , though I am ,but a simple-minded fool, I don't care anymore.
I should be happy being born into this world!I live a better life compared to some others. So ,why am I lamenting and sulking over other more fortunate people while there are thousand others suffering over their misfortune?Geez,thinking back, it kinda make me feel bad.
Ah,for now,I just have to endure! Day after day, it is gonna change. Time gonna change me.Definitely ,my life would change for better!Oh yeah,there is saying that says "everyone possess their own talents " So, I shall just surrender myself to that saying and believe it just for a little longer =D.I will just wait till my talent surfaces 
. Until then,Just ENDURE and be PATIENCE !
Just be Patient and sulking in the corner =X .
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