Keep Smiling

"Attitude,not aptitude determines your altitude in life "

Ever since the first time I heard about this quote, I just can't seem to get it out of my mind.Sure,it's nothing like a fancy quote or cliche' that you would normally see, but for some reason, there seems to be something special with it.

Something...revolutionary,something unique,something that will be life-changing.Sounds too exaggerating ?Not quite.For quite some time , I have been cracking my brain,trying hard to figure out ,what exactly is the secret hidden in this seemingly normal,mundane quote.

And then , I discovered it.The secret... The key to peace,tranquility,joy and most importantly,happiness = ].Hmm,as cliche as it may sound to you, no , this isn't an article picked up from those ubiquitous self-help books that you can find almost everywhere,nor is this some cheap advertising tricks that will make you lose your money.

This is the real deal ,folks. Something that I discovered and experienced myself.The secret lies within the first word of the quote,Attitude.Attitude,defined as how one behave and thinks of others and oneself is basically your thoughts.

Thoughts of one's mind is actually pretty powerful.This fact has been in fact, pointed by a lot of great thinker of the past and present as well.Those who know how to use the power of their mind will be able benifit greatly. But the question is, how? How do we use our mind to generate health,peace and joy ?

After some time pondering and wondering in the state of depression and emotional turmoil,it occured to me that the secret is to simply to think of happy things = D.

Many of us tends to fell into depression and emotional state upon hearing bad news or experiening failures.During that emotional imbalance period,we tend to think of ourselves as useless,worthless being that are incapable of doing anything at all.Well, I dunno about you guys, but I know I did that.

As we continue to indulge in our failures and incapability to do things,we slowly sink into depression.And that's how it all started! The key point is here.When we are exposed to bad news,our mind will automatically generate some bad thoughts as well.And by bad thoughts, I meant the imaginations and false premonitions that something bad is gonna follow up soon.

So,if we were to just change that "bad thoughts" into happy thoughts,we could easily change our life into a happy one too.Just keep on smiling and believing in miracles and good news will do.=D When sky turns dark and you see the storm coming, just put on a smiling face and embrace it with everything you have got .

It is silly how men are trying to discover the secret of happiness when it is just right beside us all the time.The secret is to simply keep thinking about something happy.Therefore,next time something bad happens,stop thinking about it,and instead focus your thoughts on something brighter,something nicer,something that will make you grin widely =D.

The choice is in our hands really.It is up to us to want to be in a gloomy,depressed state,or a happy,jovial mood and enjoy life in a greater perspective.Sometimes,when we are depressed and emotional,we tend to miss a lot of opportunities.We let this chances slip by because we have a pessimistic view of our life.So,why not try switching over to the brighter,happier side and live a better life?=D Being optimistic and happy all the time will definitely lead you through a better life.

Lastly,actually I don't really think anyone would even waste their quality time on reading this piece of crappy article.But,if there were folks that indeed read until here (either because of too bored and having too much time or sincerely interested in this article ), I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart =D and wish everyone to keep smiling and be happy in life!!! KEEP SMILING! = ].

It's Valentine.

" Sweet to many,sour to some,in the end of the day,it is just another passing day for me = ] "

It's that time of the year again.The day where gentleman put on their best attire,digging deep into their wallets,to spend money,treating love of their life to a scrumptious meal at a lavish restaurant,buying a bouquet of beautiful roses for them,charming their lovers with everything that they have.

It is this time,that you will see lovebirds all over the street,hugging and clinging to each other like there's no tomorrow.This is the time,where the metaphor " Love is in the air" literally rings true.This is the time,where most couples would be able to mend broken relationship,start a new one,and most importantly,for the male counterparts to express their love and to keep the lovey-dovey feeling keep going.

It is also the time of the year for citizens of singledom to yearn and cry of remorse and regret,for not having their other half by their side,for not being able to enjoy romantic night with their loved ones,and for not being able to spend this auspicious day with their partners for life.

As for me though,well,it is just another passing day = ].As much as I long for a joyous valentine,where I would be able to take my date to a romantic dinner,a simple movie,and then taking midnight stroll with just the two of us,I can't.I simply could not imagine that for now .

I do have my own dreams and hopes,yet my expectations prevent me from realising those fantasies.Maybe I just didn't find the right girl yet,or maybe I expect too much ?Or perhaps it is the other way around?

Bawh,it does not matter anymore for now.Right now,I just wanna enjoy life to the fullest,cherishing my soon-to-get precious freedom and just strives to improve myself in every aspect.

As for love and relationship,next valentine perhaps ? =D.

Either way,here wishing you all happy couples to forever be together and never be torn apart.Happy Valentine to you all lucky bastards =D.

and not forgetting the singles out there,Happy singles-awareness day!

Memories

Again I stare upon the blank space,focusing on the nothingness there.The same goes to my feeling,empty and void of any emotions.Blank,just blank.Even in my mind,the continuous stream of thoughts that always seems to fill my entire brain seems to disappear.All that remains are memories , memories of the yesteryears that seems to be overflowing.

Working has make me realise that schooling is actually the best thing ever.Now,regret and remorse starts to fill my heart as I wonder why the heck did I ever pray that time passes quicker back in my schooling days?

Nostalgia starts to hit me,hard.Reminiscing about all those old good times really makes me feel all emotional.How I wish to return to the past again,experiencing those crazy yet fun things that we all did.

But again, as cliche as it may sound,the truth still remains unchanged ,reality is cruel.We can't go back to the past,and life is all about moving on and forgetting the past.

Yet,for me to forget those important memories that we had forged together that bonds us together and continue moving forward in life without looking back?No way.

I misses them.Both my old ex-schoolmates and friends.Yet there is nothing I can do.Nearly all of them had move on with life and continue pursuing their separate paths.

Maybe one day our paths might cross again and that time we will be having fun catching up with the old times I guess. Haha. What a simpleton I am eh ?But thats how it is.Too much complex thoughts simply makes things harder to handle.So,why not make it simpler and leave it to fate?

Right now I am still working,but I am gonna end this working life of mine pretty soon.I need a big revamp on my lifestyle.Yes,the promises I made before spm needs to be fulfilled.And in order to fulfill them, I need time,and freedom.

So,let's hope everything will be well soon.

And..oh yeah,to those that are striving hard, working to go for Mssm now,best of luck.
I know this seems awkward,coming from a guy who never have any luck in chess.But,here's some insprirational advices.

Just do ur best,put in the effort,concentrate and let your mind do the rest.

Whatever your mind can conceive,the will can achieve.
Be tough guys,and girls = ].
Sure you all can make it!!

[ though i pretty much doubt any of you will even see this message haha ]

Finally,farewell old memories, hopefully I can meet my old friends back once more = ] .

Working Mess

"Toughness... is how you react under tremendous pressure and stress when facing useless people that only knows how to do nuts "

As of late, I have been spending mostly,if not all, of my time working.At first,I find it to be quite a pleasant experience as 1) I am actually working. and 2)My job is actually quite easy.Even though the pay isn't really that decent,but it is still just enough,considering I am just working as a mere staff in a supermarket.

However,as I slowly begun to delve deeper into it ,things began to change.I finally felt the sacrifices I made for this job.In exchange for a little bit of monetary gain , I sacrificed my flexible hours,my precious time,my entertainment,and worst of all, my freedom.

The experience gained here isn't really that precious too in actual fact.The pleasant working experience from the early days had now changed to a rather disastrous experience.From working in my own realm of comfort zone, I was forced to shift to the office,doing the office job.I do not really mind actually,but the thing is, I am doing the harder job and yet I only gets the same pay as others that only did an easier job.Unfair isn't it ?

So,with all this losses I have been experiencing, why the heck am I still working here?Simple,this is because simply I do not want to leave things being done halfway.I have done that far too much already.It is time I take responsibility.

It is time I stay behind and help them,even though it is rather foolish to do so.In the real corporate world,promises from mouth to mouths practically means nothing,only black and white can do the talking.Yet,I stay and help.All because of simple empathy and sympathy.

Gosh...I wish I can just leave without feeling anything.But I do know,if I were to leave now,the entire office will definitely turn into chaos.Heck, there are already chaotic mess and troubles inside the office already,thanks to some irresponsible and useless people.Hence,the decision to stay.

Sigh..hopefully all this will end peacefully and quickly.I certainly do not wish to linger around any longer till it falls completely.I just hope time would pass quickly and I can finally say I "graduated" from my first job safely and satisfying.

On the other note,not only my working life is a mess,even upon returning home, I still find troubles chasing me around.Guess the lady luck just hates me eh ? Sigh Sigh Sigh,when can this end .

Only fond memories of yesteryears could relieve my agony and grief.I guess all this worries can wait.Now is the time to go to my bed and indulge in dreams and fantasies.( which i rarely had ).Let's go.May I get a good dream tonight.

Cycles of Life

And so,the cycle goes on and on.I watch silently as the pathetic episode unfold before me.It is the same as before.Those so-called matured adults arguing among themselves,fighting like barbarians and wild beasts instead of displaying a proper decorum as they were expected to have.

As expected,nothing have changed.No matter how much one say the transition from adolescence period to adulthood will be totally different,at the inner core,it is still the same.Sure, you might see one adult or two acting maturely and behaving properly for a moment,but sure enough,when trouble arises,out of the blues,you will see the kid from their heart emerging and taking control.

Fighting over silly things without any logic or rational reasoning whatsoever.Well,as expected anyway,they are after all ,still human =D.The reason I am saying all this are actually because of some colleagues in my workplace.

I am kinda fed up actually at how they act.Changing things all of a sudden and behaving in such inappropriate way.Either way,it is not really a big matter as it was soon settled with little or no harm to any sides involved =D.So,well,that's the summary for my working life for now.

Anyway,back to my personal life.Everything is going pretty smoothly so far.Compared to last time,this year was way more organized.And in a way I am actually earning money instead of wasting it =D.

However,there is a downfall too in working.The thing is, I will be sacrificing my precious time for the experience and monetary gains.I certainly hope it will be worth it.Apart from that,I am missing my freedom deeply.

The freedom of having flexible time.The freedom of being able to do whatever I want without any directions from the higher-ups.The freedom of not being bounded by contracts,rules and regulations.I miss them all.

But of course,among all of them,I miss going to school the most.I miss walking past the familiar scene,the accompanying green grass with the large field,seeing the familiar faces.I miss them all.My friends,my teachers,all those siao kias that sleep during history lesson,all those siao kias tat sing songs in the class,all those crazy things we did together ,breaking the rules as it was meant for. =D

I truly misses the old times .Really.What a fool I am for not appreciating the school life.Apart from that,I do misses my old friends too.

How I wish I can return to the past.But the reality is cruel.Life demands us to move forward without looking back.Sigh,i miss them all...I miss the past.Nevertheless,parting are necessary for every meeting.They have all gone through their own separate path now and thus,all I can do is to sit and pray may our paths intersect again in the future =D.Until then,best of luck to everyone.

" As I stare blankly at the frozen space,
My heart was sealed tightly,
I can simply watch,
As days and weeks fly past me,
As months and years seems just like a second ago,
And all the remorse and regrets I had over the yesteryears,
Just seems to be catching up now.

As I continue to indulge in the past,
Thousand thoughts passes the mind,
Inducing euphoria,confusion,and uncomprehendable grief.

What is it that I desire?
Like a fool wishing for a moon,
I keep on waiting,
Wishing for the impossibles.

But for now,

Living in life filled with uncertainties,
There is only one thing I can do.

No matter how time flow,
No matter how I ages,
No matter how my memory fade,
As long as this eyes can see,
And this man can breathe,
Shall I continue remembering thee.

"

Work! Work ! Work

"Next time when you work,you will know how hard is it to earn money."Sounds familiar?Well,i am pretty sure this statement is what most parents would tell u when you spend A LOT of money in a short amount of time.

Alright,maybe there are some parents that are rich and would tell their children " Don't worry,go on, spend more, I have a lot more for u" But sheesh thats not the point.(Darn it how I wish my parent would say that to me. ) .Anyway,as for me, the former statement appears to be my mom's favourite cliche.

And everytime she said that to me, I would just go " Ok ok, I understand" and well , continue asking for more money to spend the next day.At those time, all I could think of is fun,nothing more nothing less.Well,you can't blame me.I was still with my childish thinking that money is something that can be obtained easily just by working.And yeah, at that moment,the only hard and tough thing I can think of is study.

For me at that time,studying is the worst "job" ever.Nothing else could even come close to it.And I thought working life was nothing.Definitely working would be much easier than studying right?Well,the harsh truth is,NO,boy,I couldn't be more wrong than ever.

Despite the many controversies and contradictions people had about working life,I am sure there is one thing that they will eventually reach a consensus and agree on one thing,which is : Working life is tough.

It is completely on a different scale than studying.Compared to it,studying seems like a child's play.First of all,working depends heavily upon the environment and the job you are doing.Unlike in school,if you can't mix well with your colleagues,that's it.You will probably be working alone all long.Secondly,there are no rooms for mistakes in working life.One mistake and if you offended the boss,you'r gone.

Well,actually it varies.As I said,it relies heavily on the environment.I am lucky I landed a safe job,with good (but not the best ) colleagues and quite a reasonable boss.Though I must say,here in the supermarket I am working in,the standard is quite low.Everything,from the means of communications,management and with all due respect,even the ability of the managers themselves can be questioned.

However,there is one undeniable benefit in being there,that is the managers and the people there are good and kind.For now,I am quite satisfied actually.having a bunch of "ok" colleagues,a deserving manager,and a so-so job.Frankly,though,there are a lot of things I still wanna complain about,but considering I could even get a job,while there are many other jobless people out there,I should be grateful.

For time being,things are going well.Finally,I step out from my comfort zone and start working.Though,now I am slowly depriving time for my own self-enrichment.Is it worth it?I shall wait a while longer and see how it goes.Hopefully,things will get better = ].

By the way,in this few days I can't seems to stop thinking about the past.Nostalgias from the yesteryears are catching up,and I can no longer contain this feeling of excitement.I truly misses the old times.Ah....being a student is the best damn thing ever.How I wish I could relive those moments....

Reflection at 5a.m

As my eyes start widening,I yawn and groan with dismay,knowing that it is still early.Being the typical lazy guy I am,I started rolling back and forth in the bed and then closed my eyes again,hoping I can be in another deep slumber and hopefully getting a happy dream.Nevertheless,it seems that Lady Luck isn't smiling at me this time.After a few minutes of fidgeting around trying to go into the world of dreams,I finally accept the fact.I can't sleep.

Alright then,so the first logical thing one would do after waking up would be checking the time right?So,I took the watch beside me and look at the time.My eyes widened again,this time a little wider.

*****

It is 5a.m in the morning now and what the hell am I doing here?Good question.What on earth am I doing,waking up on this unearthly hour and switching on the computer ?Well,the truth is,I love unearthly hours.Whether it is the extremely ungodly hours such as 1 a.m in the morning or 5a.m now,I love them.I love them to every bits.

And why is this so?Somehow,I felt that at this extreme hours,I will be able to find peace and solace,knowing that no one else but me is currently awake now (o.k maybe there are other siao kias like me too but that's not the point here ).Here,waking up at this very hour,somehow makes me feel sheer bliss,absolute solace and definite peace.

I am kind of nocturnal type of guy.You know,the one that likes sleeping late at night.On the other hand,I seems to be diurnal too,waking up on this early morning and staying active.Alright,maybe switching on the computer and typing out some words isn't a very "active" thing to do.But well,at least my mind is sharp and crystal clear now.

Moving on,I find this kind of ungodly hours make me easier to think.Around this time,there would probably be no disturbance and annoyances surrounding you ( Heck,who would disturb you at 5am in the morning? )So,I guess this is the perfect time for me to reflect on things that are happening around my life now.

Right now,my life doesn't revolve around anything.Well,except that the fact that I put monetary gain as my highest priority now = ).And... well,while watching other friends going overseas,going colleges,busy working,I felt that I have somewhat become smaller , not in the sense of size,but something else.Something involving feelings,something involving sense of responsibility.Yeah ,that's it.

As one of the breadwinners of the family,as the only son , and more importantly as a normal human being, I realize that the onus is on me to be better in life,just to make life better for all of us,me and my family.Yet,at this very hour ,till today,I have yet to done anything significant.Sure,there are some random moments where I suddenly become productive but that is not the point.

What I mean is a long term plan.A plan guaranteed to provide financial freedom,health fitness,and a prosperous future.I find myself very small and rather insignificant compared to the rest of my friends out there,currently already started working for their future while me,I am still rather clueless about my own future.

In my eyes,I see many forks and turns,roads splitting into several branches,and I see an endless paths with an indefinite end awaiting me.I shuddered in dismay,feeling a chill of apprehension about my uncertain future.

Sigh,perhaps all this thinking will make me duller.Perhaps I should stop all this nonsensical thoughts,perhaps I should stop thinking at all !...Nawh,I guess for the time being,I will just stick around and wait. = )

Perhaps by just waiting and following the flow and rhythm of life would be the most natural thing to do.Maybe,by doing that, I might eventually stumble across the right path.=D

Either way,time is moving too fast right now,so fast that I can literally feel my body rotting away with time.Now isn't the time to be thinking about future stuffs like that,now is the time to work for it.Well,lets go,time to get productive = D.

For all others who are currently working their way up the stairways of life,I wish you guys and girls,the best of luck and may you all attain peace,happiness and a prosperous life =D.

Cashies' Job.

So,there ya go.While others are busy studying in college or doing other beneficial things such as working a long time ago,I wasted my month doing something rather insignificant.As such,this few days I struggle to find jobs,for I know,jobs are hard to find nowadays.

Thus,yesterday I was completely flabbergasted when I was informed that I got a job as a cashier in that certain hypermarket (which I would not disclose here as it would tarnish the reputation of that hypermarket [if u wanna know ask me directly ]).

After the brief interview ( which was conducted in a rather haphazard and rushing manner ) ,I was told that there are only one job available currently,which is the cashier.So,somehow, without any notice on what is going to happen to me, I rushed and took the job without any hesitation and consideration at all.Little did I know what awaits me in the next day...

The next day,which is Today,I woke up with all the excitement and anxiety surrounding me.With absolutely positive and optimistic attitude,I stride gleefully towards my new workplace,anticipating a friendly group of workmates,cozy environment and highly flexible working hour yet with a high pay.

To my absolute horror,the converse of my wishes actually happened.Ok,maybe the workmates are friendly enough,but the same cannot be said to the working hour and pay.Working hour from 12 afternoon till 11p.m at night, with the basic salary being Rm 600 for 3 weeks.Worth it or not?You guys be the judge = )

Actually,if I am able to work in a nice,cozy environment with a friendly group of colleagues, I don't mind at all having a low pay.Seriously.However,if I were to have to deal with the converse of it while being paid handsomely, I will surely quit for sure.A high pay is definitely not a substitute for a pleasant working experience.

That being said,I end up resigning after working only 5 hours.Pathetic huh?Yeah,call me weakling,loser,chicken,whatever, but I definitely would not work there any longer.I despise the hectic and constantly stressful environment there.And the constant threat of shortage of money..Bawh. Though, I truly respects those who are working there now.My hats off to them.Truly amazing.

Nevertheless,about the environment there,it is such a big company that everyone have their own separate lists of works to do.There is little to none communication there.That is what I despised.On a separate note, I would prefer a small workplace where everyone there works in perfect unison and maintain communication like a family.That,is what I call the perfect environment =D.

Anyhow,in my brief stint in this work,I find myself having the need to face the awful truth that reality offer.In the real world,things don't always go your way....In the real world,there exists many little schemes that are carefully crafted by masterminds of the corporate world in order to trap the young and inexperience ones .Like those tiny little webs layed by spiders,carefully constructed in order to trap preys.Lesson learned,Do not be too naive.Thats all I can say about this real world. = )

A New Year.

2008 had slipped away into the shadow,slowly inviting the fresh 2009 year to take over in a subtle,but pragmatic manner.

2008 has been a year filled with varieties of emotions.I have experienced the triumph of victory,the joy of being with friends,the sorrow of losing dreams,and countless other euphoric and appalling moments alike.It has truly been a crazy emotional roller coaster for me.

Let the review of that crazy year begin.
On Education & Future
-Nothing much except the fact that I finally graduated from Penang Free School,the school which was once considered prodigious and famous but now end up deteriorating till becoming a below average school.Frankly, I do not feel proud being in this school as of it's current state.However,no matter what ,it is still my alma mater.For that,I do hope it will be able to restore itself to it's former glory and I will help in any way possible .

-As for my future,nothing much has been planned,except the fact that I am just waiting for results in March and will go form 6 if the results are not good.Ironic isn't it?For months ,I have been the one opposing this Form 6 suggestion as strongly as possible and yet in the end I have to surrender my fate to it.

-I can only hope for the best.Certainly my priority now is to achieve financial freedom.Others can wait.Thats all for now.
On Lifestyle
-I am starting to love reading now.Yes,reading as in reading books ( no not the referrence book ).Books such as fictions and non -fiction self-enrichment type.Yeah that one. I love them now.Strange, from a book-hater to an avid book reader now,I have certainly come a long way.I am glad I started liking books. = D

-On the other hand,I haven't been slacking off on physical activities too.Recently,I have been involved in hiking...lots of lots of hiking =D.And did I mention the euphoria of playing badminton? Arh it is just pure ectasy.I love badminton.
On Relationship & Human Relations
-Been there,done it,gave up.Yeah,basically,it is kind of forgive and forget situation.Just that , I choose to forsake relationship for other priorities.Relationship really isn't that important anyway.
Only when one choose to forsake those, can one gain more friends.And that's exactly what I have done =D. And I am extremely glad I did it !

-Need to start working on human relations part.Next time I meet someone, I want to project an image of someone who have absolute confidence in himself and poise in stature yet humble and able to communicate perfectly.Will I be able to do it?Only time will tell =D.

Basically,thats it.All that pretty much sums up my life in the year 2008.It is not pretty good but it is not bad eiher,just so-so.Let's just hope up this 2009 year will be a better year and hopefully a decent one.Before I end this post,let me conclude it with the typical new year resolution.

I want to work hard to achieve my dreamss!!! Simple =D The rest of my resolutions shall be kept with myself!! Hopefully with that,my resolutions will become true ! Alright,that's all.Here wishing you guys and girls a merry and prosperous new year!!!

Mirthful Christmas

It has been quite a while since this blog have any signs of happiness,joy and laughter.Heck,in fact someone once commented that my blog sounds so depressed that it makes him think that I am actually planning to commit suicide .

Actually,I do not know why too.It just happens to be so that whenever I am on the verge of depression or brink of emotional turmoil,I just seems to have the need to blog it all out.Ironically,I seems to be able to blog better and express my feelings a lot clearer when I am in that kind of emotional state.

Well,that is about to change I guess.This blog deserves a breathe of fresh air.Change is in the air!Well,for starters,let's talk a bit about this Christmas Eve,shall we?This year,I have a totally different kind of Christmas.

For the past few years, I have been spending Christmas alone,and spending it like every other normal day.This year,however is different.It is unique in the sense that I get to spend it with friends and enjoy it thoroughly in festive mood.

The festive mood,the constant deafening noise made by all of us,a 7-seater viva,going out to internet cafes at 2 a.m in the morning,ps2 on fire and a plenty of fun.Now,thats what I call a joyful Christmas.

I finally get to savour the taste of happiness after so long.However,something is quite amiss I guess.Yeah,the heart-to-heart talk.Haha, nevertheless, it was still very fun.Albeit ,it could be funner and better if the others manage to stay over =(.

Imagine the nostalgia 50 years later when we think back about it.Those fun and crazy things we have done back in our youthful days.It will be real pleasure thinking about it.

Alright,now here comes the sad part.Every meeting will bound to lead to separation.The same goes to this party.All good things will eventually come to an end.This year marks the beginning of our separation.The next year,we will all walk our own separate path.

All I can do now is to hope and pray that our paths will cross once more again in the near future.I truly hope this friendship that have been established will last long,preferably forever.Nevertheless,life just have to move on.

So,thank you guys for the memories.This is truly a mirthful Christmas to me.Hope it will be the same for the others too.Happy Xmas ! =D

17 years old.

For some of you out there,today,might be just an ordinary day,a mundane day filled with nondescript routines that have been repeating itself over and over again,or it might be a day filled with exciting activities and exhilarating adventure that awaits you.

However,for me,today is a rather special day.An unique day that signifies something important in my life.A representation of life's aging cycle.Yes,like everyone else,people ages,so do I.Today,is my 17th birthday.A mark that I have reached yet another point of life where things will begin to change.

Now that I am 17 years old...
-I am older by another year
-I am beginning to enter the " real world"
-I am beginning to care about my future.
-I have learned that people will change ,with the flow of time albeit indefinitely.
-I have learned to differentiate friends and foes
-I have learned that anger is something scary,and if one is able to control it,quality of life would definitely improves dramatically.
-I have learned that if one steps out from his comfort zone,there will be countless opportunities awaiting him everywhere.
-I have learned that mere words without actions are futile and practically meaningless.
-I have learned that one needs to take a subtle yet pragmatic approach towards life in order to live a better life.
-I have learned that one should not ever judge another person by his/her appearance as they may prove to be deceptive.
-I have learned that beauty lies in the eye of the beholder.

=> I have learned that opportunities can be loss as easily as they can be gain.
=> I have learned that friends will eventually go separate ways as time proceed.
=> I have learned that human's emotion are best not to be tampered with,as they can cost great loss and destructions.
=> I have learned that things do not always go my way.Sometimes,one need to accept whatever mistakes that have been done and let it go just like that.
=> I have learned that time is too precious to be wasted just like that.
=> I have learned that I have been missing much of what life can offer simply because I lack strength,intelligent and effort.

Thinking back,it has been a long 16 years isn't it?This year has been a year full of ravaging feelings,an emotional roller coaster experience through out the whole year.Many have changed and yet many have remained the same.

Ironically,for the past 5 years being in school,I have been complaining and grumbling endlessly about how bad it is being in school and studying just for the sake of getting A and yet now,I am recapping and reminiscing about how wonderful school life is,without much worries and stresses,being with friends,enjoying myself everyday.

Life itself is a big Pandora's box isn't it?Troubles come at the moment when you least expected them,so does happiness and joy.It has been a great year this year.While I am still longing for the yesteryear's sweet and sour memories,I have to face the cruel fact.The bitter reality that life have to go on,and we have to move forward.

Gone are the days of yesteryear,living life without much worries,where everyday is just another fun day filled with mysteries and unknown adventures waiting for us to explore.As I stared back down the memory lane,I realised things didn't really change that much.The only one that is changing is you and me.Humans change.Thats all.Not that it can be helped either.

Now,I should just turn back and move forward,the way it is supposed to be.Ahead of me lies countless adventures and infinite possibilities.What is going to happen next depends solely on my effort.It would take a miracle to carve a perfect future.And for that miracle to happen,I need change.

It is the time now.Time for change.Time for me to decide.Let's go.Let's keep the flame of passion and the bright future keep on burning.Hang on there,buddy =D.

A matter of choice.

The birds were chirping,as if they were singing to a song,welcoming us with such a melodious tune.The picture perfect sceneries, were simply spectacular and astounding,almost glowing with a certain aura that would blind our eyes.And the weather.... ar.... not too hot or cold.The perfect weather for hiking ....Is it? NO!!!!

Those were what I had in mind before planning to hike Penang Hill.However,reality was far too cruel than fantasy.The deafening barking sound of dogs ,the danger of monkeys lurking everywhere,and the scorching heat from the sun...Awhh.. it is almost like living hell up there.The sceneries though was rather ok.

With several friends,7 to be exact ( excluding me ),we conquered Penang Hill.In those 3 excruciating hours,we experienced pain,heat,fatigue,and thirst.However,on the good side,we did experience joy,sweetness and a sense of accomplishment too.The journey itself was very exhilarating adventure.

Breaking away from the hustle and bustle of the city, a retreat to find happiness and peace in Penang Hill certainly is a welcoming experience.Upon reaching the top of Penang Hill,I felt like the lethargic and fatigue me just vanished into thin air.The majestic view itself was worth the effort already,coupled with the windy,chilling breeze up there,one would definitely be able to forget all the problems and troubles in city.

All this while , I have been living in the concrete jungle,stuffing myself up with all the stresses and problems.I had little chance to relax at all.In addition,when an opportunity arises and I was asked to go out, I declined it,citing various excuses and reasons.

This ought to stop.Today,I learned that by stepping out from my comfort zone,I actually can discover a whole new whole,and the benefits too , are boundless.Heck,I even met some good new friends.So,sure,why not?Next time,when anyone wanna go out, do call me =D .If it is possible, definitely I will go ! ( given that it doesn't require a lot of money,and not under some circumstances )

"When you say no,you say no to life.You must stop.You are not living at all.When an opportunity presents itself to you,you must say.. YES! YES ! YES!YES !!"

Familiar with the quote above?Yeah,that quote was from Yes Man,the latest comedy show starring Jim Carrey.It is definitely a nice show that carries an inspiring messag (sort of).I do guarantee that you will end up laughing out from the cinema if you watch it.

So,well thats all for now folks.Thanks again to my fellow friends for accompanying me today to conquer Penang Hill.We did it!!!

Time to change

Ah... yeah, today is yet another fun-filled day that will bring me endless joy and happiness until I can't wait till the next tomorrow... Wait.. or is it ?

Nawh,as much as I would like to deny it, the days after examination isn't really all sweet and fun-filled.In fact,it was rather in contrary of what I had imagined earlier.Being on cloud nine, enjoying every minutes of my supposed holiday, yeah.. you get the ideas, those happy life that I had imagined.They never did arrived.

Insted,all I got was a lousy holiday filled with uncertainties and unfulfilled promises.Citing indifference,everyday was almost the same.Sitting on the chair,facing the dull monitor,picking up the monotonous sound from the ticking clock,everyday is just about the same.This nondescript pattern repeats itself over and over again till everyday is mere passing days to me.

In fact,I almost nearly forget who I really am.Am I still a human? Or am i living my day off as a living zombie?Every morning , I wake up with a pessimistic attitude ,knowing that it will be another mundane day passing by.

This is different.Totally different.I still remember how I used to wake up with anxiety and nervousness,knowing that it will be a new day that will present me with new challenges and exciting things to do.I used to have that sleepless nights pondering and wondering over the same thing over and over again before I finally fell asleep smiling.

Now,I have to wept myself to sleep everynight,knowing that I will no longer be able to return to the momentous,bittersweet past.Those days that I would really be able to smile truthfully,without having to put on any poker face and pretend to be happy.Those happy memories that will only continue to exist as memory and nothing else.

Time will move on,and these petal of memories will eventually fall off.So,what can we do?Cry and lament about it? Or move on towards a better future?

Now, I am currently having stars above my head as how to decide for the path ahead of me.Future ... is complicated.Which career should I consider?In what aspects should I consider?What are my long term assets and loss?There are uncountable roads lying ahead of me,which one should I choose?

It is time... finally time for me to step out from my comfort zone and decide it for myself.Finally,time to change.Give me some guidance please.No matter what I choose, I hope everything will be well for me and you.. =D.

Sealed Fate

After much pondering and wondering upon the future,in the very end , I didn't even get a say about it.So,really,what is the point?When everything has already been decided earlier... much earlier,who am I to oppose the predestined rules?Destiny is something that has been decided way before we are born.Fate,is something we are born with.Now,remind me which idiot told me that one can oppose destiny again?

Frankly,i don't believe in miracles.Those coincidences or seemingly lucky miracles that happens when we are facing troubles?Those are mere drama tools.Things that only worked like a charm in fantasy.This is the real world,the cruel reality.Thing's don't happen the same way they do in fantasy here.Life is much harder and complicated.

If we really get to change our destiny or even choose our own fate ,why are there poor and rich people?Why are there stupid and clever people?Worse yet,why are there people with fame,power and fortune and on the contrary, there are people struck with poverty,social outcasts,and people with nothing at all.

Admit it,life is just that unfair.Nothing is fair and square here.No matter how tight the rules are,there will still be loopholes and people that have connections will be capable of exploiting those loopholes and escape the justice of law.No matter how hard you try to climb up the ladder of success, eventually there will be some places that you can't reach,simply because you are not destined to do it.

And by destiny, I meant luck.Some people are born lucky,born into a high-profile family , with plenty of connections and most importantly, possessing a large amount of fortune.As much as one would like to deny it, the reality now is that in this world of materialism,nearly everything revolves around money.The clothes you are wearing now, the house you are living in, the car, the education fees, all is about money.

So,really,monetary gain is very important,almost vital for survival.The law of jungle still applies here,though the test for survival of the fittest in this concrete jungle we are living in is being done in such a way that having money means having strength,power and fame.So,literally, the one that have the most money will be the king.

For those who are born with a silver spoon, consider yourself lucky as you have the privilege of being rich and have more control in your life.Appreciate and cherish it,instead of taking it for granted.Live a frugal lifestyle and spend less.You will never know how worth is every penny unless you earn it , the hard way.

Life is truly an unpredictable journey.You can't predict the roads ahead you, nor can you control it.So,why not live life to the fullest?Since you won't know anything that lies ahead in your future,might as well surrender your fate and let the future flow in smoothly by itself.Just welcome it with open arms and be prepared to face anything that is coming this way.Just smile
and let the wheel of destiny start spinning = ].

*Overall,the author is just musing and ranting out his childish thoughts as he is throwing tantrums right now.Because of having his desired road taken away,and the need to follow a path less taken, he is currently having emotional turbulence and can't get his minds straight.This is just a random thought of him,so let's not take it too seriously,shall we? =D

Storms Ahead

" Staring blankly towards the empty space, a plethora of thoughts crossed my mind.I see nothing but dark clouds that lies ahead.Tsk,premonition...and a bad one too.And so,as my eyes remain fixed on the blank,empty space, my ears began to pick up some familiar sound Ah,..it's those monotonous ticking sound of the clock again.. "

Time flies..Hmm, that's what I would say for the present days and perhaps days that lies ahead too.They say,time flies when we are enjoying ourselves.Well,that is true... to a certain degree maybe.It is true alright?but it is half-true.The other half being time flies when you are not having fun too.

The best example would be what I am having now.So,spm is over.Now what?The days after spm just seems more meaningless than ever.Somehow,the burdens and stresses just seems to multiply instantly after spm.

As of a week ago,after spm, I was facing a rather big dilemma deciding my future.Sure,being an average normal teen that just finishes spm, one of the major examination, I should be happy,experiencing total freedom and all but no.

I realise that the onus is on me, not as a student,but as an individual, to finally have a say in deciding my future.It is this time now, where the inexperiences and lack of knowledge starting to surge in .It is this time now,that those petty things that I have neglected past the years starting to show their fangs, creeping slowly to my future paths,affecting them heavily.

Ah, there it goes again,Just when I think things won't get any worst,you just have to prove me wrong ,don't ya ?Bad things just come rolling in , over and over again.The streaks of bad luck just doesn't end, doesn't it ?And somehow my premonition tell me it will get worse.

But then again, perhaps,facing it with my current pessimistic mindset won't do me any good,will it ?Nevertheless,will a change of mind help?Perhaps, a little.Whatever happens to my hopeful and optimistic side of mine be4 spm ?Whatever happens to the plans I had?

I wonder.Alright,enough of over depression and pessimism shall we?Let's look at the bright side.Now,I can't say for sure how my life is going.But at the very least,I know it isn't unproductive.Eventhough I can't say I am enjoying life,but I dare say I am not hating it either.

And no matter how I struggle to restrain my thoughts and to go back to past,time will continue moving and the problems will come sooner or later right?So,why not face it now.As I did promise last time,whatever trials and tribulations that may lie ahead,I shall face it with courage.Sigh,so how can I be reluctant now?Be is storms or tornado that lies ahead, bring them forth.I shall not run anymore.Come what may.I just wish that after this , I can finally see sunshine. = D

His-Story

December,1991,it was one of those auspicious days in his life....
No,it was neither the discovery of computer,nor was it the eruption of world war.To the rest of the world,it might be just another mundane day, but to him,that day was particularly a significant one.On that day,a new life was born.A pure,innocent baby was exposed to this world's rat race and for the first time ever,he experienced light shining upon his face and wind sweeping through his body.For the very first time too,he saw images,heard sounds, and get a sense of perception of the world.Albeit,at that time, he knew nothing of the world's treachery,mystery,secrets and what the lies ahead for him.But sure enough, he don't have a single bit of care in this world too.There was no problems, troubles and much less a single dilemma for him to think about.He was pampered and treated as the king, getting every attention where ever he goes.

But sadly, good times do not last long.Time passes,and soon he was sent flying to Australia with family at the age of 3.Living there for quite some time,he learned how the Aussies live and learned to adapt to the cold weather there.It wasn't long before he made some friends and started mixing around with people there.In the end,after a few years or so living there,the parents decided to bring him back to Malaysia,his hometown. Yes,it was supposed to be a year full with bittersweet memories and joyous things but somehow, the little guy bear no traces of memories regarding that particular years.

Time flies...
So, he ended up being in some small primary school,SRK Padang Tembak,just a small , not very popular school near rifle range...Having spent 6 years of primary education there,he learned quite a excitements of life from there.During the last few years of primary educations,the hormones start to kick in and he began to have pangs of interest towards the opposite gender.Albeit it was nothing more than a spur of moment puppy love that does not last long.Plus,it was one-sided entirely =D.So,that was his first encounter with the passionate yet addictive magic of love.

Again,time flies by,and soon enough the little guy finds himself studying in free school, the then
"prestigious" school.Sure enough,entering the school hailed by others as hallmarks of excellence and only for the best, the guy was thrilled with excitement and shaking with anxiety.The weeks that lies ahead only set his heart ablaze with the principal's eloquence,by his improbable admission into this school and the unexpected new life in the secondary school.The flame of passion began to burn and he continues to have high hopes in his secondary life.The euphoria was unspeakable.

Nevertheless,as he began to carve his path to future, he slowly began to realise it.The school wasn't so good after all.All those exaggerations, all those hyperbolas, they are all nothing but a disguise to the school's true image.And so , slowly losing faith to the school , he continues walking forward.For 3 years, he had been wasting his time doing pointless activities and pure nonsense.When he went in form 4,things does not get any better either.And so it continue till form 5.In form 5,he was told that this is the time to work harder,this is the time to start churning out all those efforts and perseverance.But he digressed.... He is still with his carefree and laidback attitude.

Finally,in the near end of Form 5,he was forced to deal with a major obstacle,SPM..The one thing that might change his life forever.

***

And now it's over.He's still alive and kicking.Though,the intimidating experience was over,now he is in even a bigger dilemma, the choice of his future,one of the biggest decision in his life will be in his hand now.Which road should he take?And will it be the correct path?I wonder.Nonetheless,what matters now is to cherish the present moment.He have been missing too much of the precious time.Now , is finally the time to really treasure and use his time wisely.
The perfect storm that governs the year 2008 is finally going to be over and a new dawn shall arrive silently.It has been quite a wild ride, a ride full with emotional roller coaster and turmoi.Whatever leftovers in the pre-2008 year should be forsaken.Now is the time for change.

And change... as the Noughties have shown, can be quite a ride =D.

The Truth About SPM

As of now, I am currently going through living hell,struggling under tremendous pressure and stress,trying to prepare and hopefully predict whatever that will come out for the examination the next day.Nonetheless,no matter how one would try to put it,no one can deny that Ass-Pee-M/Seksaan Pembawa Maut/Certificate of Malaysian Education/Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) is one heck of a troublemaker.

I am sure that many that has already went through this disastrous exam would definitely agree with me.SPM is one of the lousiest examination for intelligence benchmark ever.Seriously.I mean,after 2 years of studying ,and in the very last examination that was supposed test everything you have learnt in the past 2 years, the questions that came out only tests you about 30% from text book and the rest 70% were no where to be seen?

Oh well,200+ pages from books,all that just to sit for a 20 + pages SPM paper.Ironic huh?And it certainly doesn't help to improve the reputation for spm when there are numerous tuition centres offering nonsense such as exam-oriented modules,100% real spm tips, and much more craps like that.

Seriously,"exam oriented modules" ? Oh wow, so thats it.The truth.Study just to get A.Nothing more than that.Isn't learning suppose to be a lifelong process?Aren't we suppose to study just to get the knowledge?Instead of struggling to get tips and having an exam oriented tuition, why can't we just study for the sake of learning?Tsk, with our current education system, I doubt that we would be able to do that.A's are the only target.Those with most A's in their certificate will be the king,while others... will be victims of this examination.

Sigh,despite all that,I can't help but to feel relief that my spm is coming to an end.Despite all those bad facts I said about spm, I still hope for the very best for my results and for everyone else's result too.Good Luck. and hopefully any government official who see this will be able to give good results for spm students especially the one in penang ?:P (Pss You Give us good spm result,we give u our votes in next election,ok?=D ) Alright,Good Luck for all spm candidates! 4 down, 6 more subjects to go !

Aspects of Life

" If you were asked to rank family,friendship,education,career,and relationship,how
would you rank them?"

Just a moment ago, I was looking for good,thought-provoking materials to read again.Once more,Matthew's blog does not fail to amaze me with his thought-provoking entries.His latest entry,5 Aspects of life got me thinking again.You can find his original post here.Upon reading it,I felt that there is a need to come up with my own arrangement and rankings of several aspects of life and elaborate on them.

First of all,
1) Family
=>Well, undeniably family should be the top priority for everyone.After all,your parents were the one that brought you to this very world,and as much as I hate it, your sisters and brothers are the one that have the same blood running down your vein.Although there might be some disagreement at times, in the end of the day,I am still a part of my family and I will always put them above everything else.Although my parents could not satisfy my every desire,but I do know they try their best.Thus,I genuinely care for them,as much as they care for me too.Without them, I couldn't possibly be blogging here today =D.

2) Friends
=>Friends,they are also one of the most important aspect of my life, second only to family =D.I really do value my friendship with my friends.Needless to say,without friends,one would live a meaningless,lonely life.Friends are whom you can share your joy,happiness,sorrow and other emotions with.Friends are whom you can readily confide all your problems to.Friendship, a window to a man's soul =D.I do realize that the fact is, as we grow older, our circle of friends will eventually grow smaller.However,that does not prevent one from getting more friends and staying in contact with old friends right?I just want to say,to those that I am always talking to, to those that I am still in contact with,and even to those that I met only once or twice,even though the flow of time will eventually separates us,even though our memories might fade,but, the next time we cross our path, I would definitely say "Hi" ,as you will always be my friend,past,present or future! = D

3) Career
=>It is indeed a tough decision to make between career and education but I chose career over it.Why so?Well,I shall first elaborate on why career is that important.Living in the midst of poverty,having born into a middle-income family,I truly learned the importance of having money.No,I am not exactly the money-minded people that will use any means to get them but then again, I know, without having money, I will not be able to get anything at all.In this cruel,materialistic world,people have to participate in life's rat race to survive.So,this is the first importance of having a good career.Secondly,career might be defined as a job where we need to work relentlessly to earn money but to some lucky fellows, career is their way of living life to the fullest.No, I am not referring to those workaholics that work night and day just finding pleasure in working.I am referring to those dream jobs,the ones where you would be more than happy to do the works involved.Be it a pilot,a singer,a teacher,a dancer,or journalist,as long as you enjoy every second of it in your "job",that is your dream job =D.I would definitely be happy if I could have my dream job =D.

4) Education
=> Like I mentioned earlier,it is indeed a tough decision to choose in between career and education.If one were to rank education based on the education system now,which demands us ,students to get as many "A's" as you can just to go in good colleges,universities and so on, those are total rubbish I think.Our intelligence cannot be measured in simple means such as these "A's" and this statement is proved by many of world's success stories.Did you know that Bill Gates dropped out from Havard University ?:P So,it is clear that our results now does not really show our intelligence and our potential in the future ,yet we still need to strives for those "A's",just to lessen the worries of our parents and get a safe route to a good job.Though,in actual fact,education is a lifelong process.Every day, we learn and experiences new things.It is these knowledges that help us overcome hurdles in our future and live a better life.Frankly, I am still being quite indecisive about choosing career over education.However, I think that careers can co-exist with education too, as when we are working, we do learn new things too ,and that itself is education =D.

5) Relationship
As far as I am concerned, relationship isn't that much of an importance,not to me at the very least,not yet I guess .True,love is a wonderful thing and I do believe that everyone is destined to have one lifelong partner to be together ,living happily ever after with.I have yet to experience the magic of love yet ,and yes, of course I want to experience it.However,as for now, I truly believes that my current age is not the most suitable age to start a relationship and I doubt my true love will suddenly appear in front of me now also : P.Hence,relationship is ranked the last in my aspects of life.

Alright,since you have read until here,why don't you start blogging about your aspects of life too? Hehee, let this be some kind of tag.Those that read this, if you have time to do it, do blog about this, I am sure many of you are curious about how these aspects ranks in your heart too right?Do leave me a comment when you finish blogging about it.It will definitely be interesting to read it ^^].

28/10/08-A Day to Remember

Listening to :Always Online -JJ Lin
-Nice song,must listen !! XD

Did it ever occur to you that one day you wake up,thinking that you are late to school or late to do whatever things you are supposed to do,while in actual fact it is still very early?I did experience it for quite some few time and today,history seems to repeat itself again.The only difference is that today is not my schooling day and apparently I have nothing important to be done within the next few hours.

Today I awoke at 5 + a.m.Yes,I know many of you out there actually wake up earlier,everyday too but to me,this is my first time waking up so early on a non-schooling day and without the need of the alarm clock or even the awakening call (or yell) from my mom too =D.It all happen naturally.Needless to say,it was a completely surreal experience.The moment I woke up,I find myself oblivious to the surrounding,struggling just to get back to sleep.Then after a few times of rolling back and forth in my bed,it is apparent that my attempt to get back to my sweet dream world was futile.

So,still lying on my bed,I started to think.What in the world that made me wake up so early today?Well,nothing unusual yesterday,except the fact that I slept at 10 + p.m.Ah,must be all those nights of sleeping late that must be causing this.Maybe this is similar to oxygen debt.Maybe humans do have "sleep debt" too.Or perhaps the emotional turmoil within me yesterday was the cause of this event?Nevertheless,whatever is the cause of this,I am just glad that it happened.

Thanks to it,now I have got a few hours left till my normal routine.(I used to wake up at 11+ most of the time)Well,of course it is time to do something productive.This is such a rare experience and you expect me to be wasting time by sleeping and doing something pointless again?No way.No more succumbing to temptation and useless desires.No more thinking about petty things and doing unnecessary stuffs.Time to get down to business =D.

Thoughts

As the day passed by silently, and the day of the doom is approaching,I can't help but to feel anxious and scared.Truth to be told, I want to relax, I want to be carefree,I want to just lay back and don't give a single damn about this coming examination.Hey,wait a minute.Actually I can.Well,the final decision is up to me after all.I am the one who directs my brain to think and my muscles to move.I am the one that can choose to relax or to study under stress.So,why do I have to choose the bitter,latter choice?

That is the question I always posed to myself whenever I was down and do not have the mood to study.Given a choice , I am pretty sure most people would choose the premier choice of relaxing,sleeping and being in a cheerful and laid back attitude as time passes.I mean, why the heck would one like to plunge himself/herself under books and exercises with prodigious stress?Then again, every action must bear some consequences and there must be reasons supporting those actions.

So,if I were to just look a little closer to the choices, what will I discover?Lets see,if I were to choose to relax , then definitely I would be in much happier mood,and time shall passes very quickly and then YEEE HAAA,time for real entertainment with friends =D.But then again, the consequences? FAIL..Yes,that would probably be the examination result if I keep on slacking.Thinking about this result really sends a chill down my spine.I hate failures.I really hate them.Failures are the most tormenting and depressing thing that could ever happen to anyone.Or at least that is what I thought.

Through some horoscope readings, I have been informed that I have a tendency to be dominating,in whatever I am involved in.I couldn't agree more on this.I really have the desire to surpass others and win them in whatever I am involved in.However,in academics, I am just not the studious type.I couldn't even touch the borderline of their high standards,much less compete with them.Why is this so?Sure,being a lazy and evasive student,I can probably give many excuses and reasons regarding my performance (e.g lack of time , not conducive environment ,naturally stupid and etc etc )but deep down, I know that the very reason for my bad performance , is simply because I am lazy.Actually, I think everyone is naturally smart,and was given the same amount of intelligence and time.It is just the environment, and one's attitude that make the difference.

If one is willing to learn, and provided the teachers are good and a conducive environment is provided,I don't see why he/she can't be a genius?That being said,if anyone is willing to put in effort and have an unwavering determination,definitely he/she would be able to excel in whatever he/she is doing.So,that means I have to cope with those reference books and exercises just a bit longer huh ?Even though, I do not have passion for it,I still have to study it,just for the sake of getting an A.See how ridiculous is the educational system in M'sia now?Frankly, if I could, I would just go straight to the course I love and pursue my interest.That would be more meaningful and definitely I would be able to "study" it happily.Life will be a lot easier if the subject you are studying is the subject that you loves.

Oh well,enough with all these rantings,not like these few rants of mine will change the educational system in this country(At least not in this few years I guess).Now,back to my conflicting mind.So, in the end ,rather than relaxing under the sunlight, entertaining myself with some dramas or movies, I have to immerse myself in those thick and heavy "educational" and academic books,huh?Well,if that's what I have to do in order to score,so be it.After all,in about two months time,it will all come to an end.

On a totally unrelated note, I have just gotten the result of my ICAS English test result.I was quite shocked by the result.Well,frankly, I dunno whether or not I actually deserve the result as I see there are many others that I felt should get better results.Somehow, I am still quite dissatisfied as upon reviewing the paper,I am quite frustrated at some silly mistakes here and there.If I did rectify those mistakes, I could have gotten a better result or even a higher grade.But,in the end,this has already passed,and after all,there are some questions that I actually got correct due to pure luck.So,I guess it is quite balanced =D.Besides,this paper did benefit me in one way or another.So,thats it for today.Off I go to immerse myself in books again.Oh,btw,to those suffering the same fate as me to face SPM in the next few weeks,good luck =D You are not alone !