Perplexing Ending~

o well,i wish to blog about happy things too but ..unfortunately i just don't have happy and joyous things to blog about =.=" Ah.... after coming back and forth , there are only 7 days left till school reopens... o well this 31st there will be one more party which will be organized by my friend.I highly anticipating it .. but now .. all hope seems lost ...it felt as if i had fell deep deep inside a hopeless abyss...Why so ?Suddenly all the friends tat i knew said no , they can't come! And with that , the journey ends.. Now, i just hope a miracle would happen ,and i would be able to meet friends there....

There are so many secrets binded deeply within my heart . All i need is just a key.. a key to unlock them!DAMN! I just wish i can tell someone whom i can trust....Somehow, every time i hear this piano rhythm, it touches my heart and automatically,my hand will start moving on it's own , it is like it has a mind of its own or something like tat.. And with that , all this words that u are reading now , all will appear magically...

Ah , my thoughts are lost... my mind are down ... i dunno what am i thinking also now...After much thoughts though, i still think the songs,the themes and the background here suits moody feelings still. I realize this blog is no means of communication,it is just a tool for me to pour my purging emotions here.Feelings running through this blog... i hope one day, someone just maybe someone, will understand it ...

New beginning!

Ah here begins a new page in my life. well ..erm to be precise not in life ler . just in this blog nia hehe. So, recently somebody have been complaining tat this blog is too emo eh ?:P ah well indeed true I dunno why the hell it became like that also . It just did! Would u believe if i were to tell u that in the beginning of the creation of this blog, i was planning to make this blog a happy and energetic blog ? ehehe i wouln't believe myself either.Sad songs ..... sad post...surreal background . All this is like in some way indirectly leading this blog to a pessimistic ending
But hey! look on the bright side, i am going change all that NOW! from this instances i will make this blog a joyous wan ^^ lets and GO!!!!!!!!!!! XP

sien~

Again 1.00 a.m and i sneakily on9 again ah this is getting boring,i could have done something productive right now,something beneficial.. but narhhh.. i will pass.Obviously due to my laziness, i wouldn't be able to do anything productive. however , instead of just loitering around here... with the com on for nothing , i shoud be able to at least do something to enhance my brain power .Nevertheless, i found my self chatting my way to sleepiness.Ah this is getting corny, on9 and chat is just a waste of time.


Though , i did manage to find myself some rather interesting yet peculiar information b4 chatting.Yes, actually i on my com to seek this info.After a lot of thinking , i suddenly got an urge to seek information concerning "photographic memory".Ah well , how i get to know this term is erhh.. basically via a fictional character in a manga. As weird as it may seem,when i search in wikipedia , i found that this "photographic memory" thingy actually Do exist! well..sort of .It is know as "eidetic memory"

Now ,although it does exist but it doesn't actually mimics the rumoured ability perfectly.The thing is that although ppl with "eidetic memory" are able memorize specific details just after a mere 30 seconds glance but they can't memorize EVERY single detail on an image perfectly like what the myth of "photographic memory" can do.However,it is worth mentioning that with this eidetic memory,someone is able to remember something to a greater length and a broader storage of memory capacity compared to a normal person.An eidetiker (person who possess this extraordinary brain power ) is able to remember very fine details of something like ... a whole passage or a block of texts in just a mere 30 seconds! ain't that astounding? But,they do tends to have a certain extend of limit.

Ah either way enough of this eidetic thingy , i am sure most of u who are reading it are bored and most probably would already click the [X] button on top by now. However ,if u have yet to click that button , then congratz! coz u are persistent enough to be able to reach here. As such , i grant u permission to uncover some pages of my life XP (ain't a big deal eh ?)haha yea yea i know i am being a little over -perasan here but well just for fun sake ..hehe either way here we go.I have been going a little wild on my imagination just now.By looking at an advertisement paper, i tried imagining i owning all those luxurious stuff.. and this become part of my aim now!ah well actually i aint depressed d anyway . Lets see what i got now.I set a goal for my life already , I have trainings and courses i need to get to walk pass the path of the goal ... and the only thing i am missing are... DETERMINATION and EFFORT!Here lies the key point,EFFORT!, it is obviously contradicting with my laziness but to achieve my goal and prevent failure like my end year exam result .. (i learnt my lesson T.T) i need to surmount my laziness!so here we go!

Mind rambling again~

ah.. here it goes again, after so long of thoughts , my mind is rambling again.Now, after all i went through for this few months, ,unbearable lost in everything that i done totally changed me.. though i experience all this pain and the agony truly is terrifying... i , wish to rise again. above all these, i surely do hope to learn a thing or two. so , pls .. give me a miracle!

3 .a.m

It is 3 a.m in the morning...i am here,on9 and surfing web but i didn't chat with anyone,in fact i chat with almost no one.Every one of my contact who is online seems to put their status as "on9" .. but i knew they won't reply .Ah i am tired of thinking...now just browsing fs around ...what a pitiful life i am in.... ok ..enough tinkering around , i realize there is nothing i can change... just looking on like a fool...chasing on an impossible dream.. as idiotic as i am now, i do realize it is time to stop dreaming..

Ah~ a journey through my mind~

Lately, i have been thinking again.On9 Off9, these are all basis to my life now.If i would want to make a progress in my life.. i should make a twist on it.Slowly but surely i am realizing that i ain't a kid anymore.Despite all the angst that i threw in previous posts, i figured.. that well,i am just a teenager after all ? getting emotional and anguish over nothing? typical teens lifestyle.Now, it is time i make a move.. i will not be online for a while.. and with the time i have now, i wish to take it upon myself to venture into my mind... searching for what i really want. and what i could do to accomplish it!I felt like travelling across the world right now.. by nothing but my own feet.Well ok, maybe not the world just some small area around my neighborhood.haha.Man, i am getting indulge in anime world too much.But ah it really is interesting eh ? the fictitious world of anime , u go on a journey around ,meeting new friends and discovering yourself? cool huh ? i wonder will this happen in real world? Ah well, nothing is impossible, i am off to find it out!

The Other Side of Me...

*Sigh* and again i begin my post...Me , the cheerful and optimistic type? Wrong,Dead wrong!I am just being cheerful and optimistic outside i guess? Sometimes i do not understand myself.What am i really like?Who am i?Man, i am getting sick of myself.Why the heck can't i just have a truly happy and peaceful life for just once?Instead,i come here and rambles craps about my self.Out of so many places, i think this is the only place i can hide and rants out all my sealed feelings.

I might look like an ordinary guy who is always happy outside,but inside the shell i am nothing but a scared kid... with a lot of thoughts.. who wants nothing but attention.I guess this is what people called "alter-ego" eh?I yearn for ppl's attention!for ppl to talk to me! for ppl to understand me. However , it seems this is to no avail.All my yearning just went down to drain....and even worse some actually backfired!!!What can i said? All this is my own doing!!

Truly,my life is getting from bad to worse.Now, truly i am beginning to feel the agony of net. Online life is actually .. not a life at all. From time to time,no matter how hard i try to protect the "bond" that exists between me and friends,Somehow .. time will just break it apart.Why?Why do this happen?After all the efforts,the time and the life i am spending in it, what i gain ..are just plain agony.Why must this happen?Despite all that,i finally realize.. Enough is enough,i am tired of it anymore.Having been scarred a thousand time, i got the message already... the net .. is no longer the place where i can hide ......

What is it with net,when i thought i rise to heaven, a kick just drop me down to hell.Are you toying with me?Are you playing me ?If so then congratz you just hit the bull's eye.I am all dead.I do not know why?Maybe because i seeks attention?and when ppl ignored me , i tends to fell apart..Slowly but surely, my mind is falling apart... like the pieces of puzzles i use to play with last time but this one is different,these pieces are never going to mix together again.People said "Good memories are to be treasured and cherished" but how about the bad memories? Do you just ignore them and hope time banishes them? or Do you just wait for it to vanish it self?That is idioitic as they won't go ! they tends to stick around you and annoy you to no ends..Thats what is happening with me now.

I am down.. i lost my self in the sea of love,money and power.....I just dunno what the hell am i thinking now anyway!!!Why must things end this way?If i got a wish now,i can only hope for one thing , that is for time to move backward .. to the way things are still good yet....
All i can do is just to pray and hope to lives another day.. may life changes for me..

...Numb....

Now i am numb,void of all emotions... happiness,sadness,boredom,loneliness, no ... all gone. Have u ever felt that ?that is what i call numbness.Having unable to express emotions is equal to being dead.I hated that. i loathe it... that feeling of being lonely .. and no shoulders to cry on, no one to share with .. Definitely that is a feeling worse than death.Pain ... it strike my heart.Having suffered this both mentally and physically, i do not realize who got this emotions too but .. the problem is how will someone ever survive this?ah.. i always hated the lonely emotion.the pain,.. the agony ..the terror.. I CAN'T bear it anymore! someone.. save me pls! what am i doing online everyday? it is like i am begging for mercy, hoping someone would notice me.... but the fact is ..life is merciless.All the attention i seek will never come to me.It is kinda awkward for me to be blogging such pessimistic topic on day light but well,the fact is i am numb now and i need to find some way to express it.

Lately i have been thinking a lot , msn is but a way to get alive for a short moment.It only gives you temporary escape to the illusionary joy of life.In the end,you will still be bored and alone.So what if u got a lot of contacts on9, do they actually Talk to u ? do they ? or do u just add them to show that " wow , i got a lot of contacts" that kind of thing.For me, it is either they talk , or get blocked ! man i am being merciless myself.Now, i really hope i never add those who i never talk with.I mean what is the point of adding anyone if they don't talk at all?It really doesn't make any sense at all! ah..desolation... i felt like dieing.. Now that i think about it,i realize i am a true idiot.It would be much better to know people face-to-face rather than crapping on the net. Ah . well... but it is true too that i can get a lot of good,new friends through net.

However,it is because of my incompetence to go out that i resorted to just stick in the house and just online.While i am wasting time here,some of my friends might be earning money,some of them might be studying and preparing for spm,some of them might be training for chess, and etc etc. Despite knowing all that, i am still here ... pondering and wondering the biggest question of universe: what is the meaning of life itself?

Two roads diverge in the forest.....

The roads? which one should i take? the one with lesser obstacle? or the one with more thorns?I do not know.I am still young.So, why do i think so much?In fact , i think too much.Not in the sense of academic performance but rather in the sense of life philosophy.There are just too much to think about.Money,love,academic,future,past,and also social life.Right now it just seems that everything are being jumbled up all together.Everything is messed up.

Money ? it is indeed true that money can't buy everything but the converse of it is also true which is without money,you can't get anything!I need money,$$!Money can't be falling from the sky, so i have to work for it!I need to work!I have been saying that line repeatly for a long time but .. do i truly have courage and confidents to handle it ? No! Frankly, i am not prepared yet for work.I have nearly zero social communication skill and thus this renders me unable to work popular jobs such as promoters,salesman and such.I know.. I just know that i can do it but i just not yet have the courage to bring my inner self out.What do i know ? Nothing! i do not possess a single skill or any working experience.Some might think i am good in computer but no i am not good in computer , i just have passion for it!If possible,i prefer to work behind the background...Still, i need to get a work! to earn money! There are just too much things that i want to get!All of which requires MONEY!So, embrace myself! i need to work!

Love? Nowadays teens just mistaken the true meaning of love.All there is are either pupply love or nothing at all.... I do not understand them.Where is the chemistry between two people?My love life is heading no where.In truth , i do not know if i even have a love life at all.
I do realize everyone is destined to find a lover .. or rather everyone wants to find a lover.So do i! But how to begin ? How to start?I cant just go out and simply looking for a random girl.That would be psychiotic and chaotic act.Ah.. life .. it is really making a fool out of me.Now, i am starting to get some female friends.I believe this would be the start.Dream girl ... is still far away from present.When will i find one ?I do not know...

Academics..it is long gone in my memory.Now,whenever i hear someone talking about marks,i will surely avoid them.I do know my marks for previous test is devastatingly low.Therfore,i wish to run away. I wish to avoid that Question! Is it all right for me to do that ?Right now, my biggest problem might be this academic performance.This determines my future!

Future.. future depends upon what i act now and currently, my act is undefined,undefinite and it is heading towards an unknown path.I live just to survive another day now.Unless my life takes twist,i wouldn't have a future,would i ?Afterall,everything that i have been doing now affects my future.If i were to have a bad future,there is only me in the present to blamed.Past? My past is long gone too.Actually, past,present and future are all interconnected,so if my present gone, so do my future.

Last but not least,Relationship.In general,relationship means the just relationship between friends,family,and others.But for me,i felt it .. i truly felt that the bonds between me and other people are weakening.if i did not struggle to do something,surely it will break and certainly, i do not want that to happen.So,please ,please , do not let the bond severe anymore.i will do my best to protect it.If there is one thing i care the most, it is most certainly be the "bond" between me,my friends and families....

My life is heading no where.. Pls change me!Let this change.Let this have a twist!

A Dull Life...

.. What is life ? Once again i come rambling around and ranting nonsense.Life?Nowadays, it really doesn't matter anymore.It is just so Dull!Boring,tedious...Must we repeat ourself with the same things to do daily?Before going to bed,remind myself that the next day i will work hard and accomplish something.The next day i woke up,the memory bits the dust ....what can i do ?It is the same mundane day.Life is repeating itself! wake up , eat ,sleep, on computer , play ,then sleep again and once again dream to accomplish something another day.This will never change.... YET ..YET we continue to live our lifes the same daily.NO! It can't be like this.No way. I must do something. i must struggle to achieve something.If i tried, at least i won't feel remorse, at least i won't felt regret that i tried.In a way, this really make me feel idiotic.I keep telling the same line to my self : " there is still another day" ... when will i learn? when will my life take a twist in the turn?..Until then, i will keep repeating this same day...

Funny ?

hehe it is 2.10 a.m in the morning, i am having school at 7 a.m later... 5 more hours.. and i am here on9 ?XP this is funny lol I just visited friendster and i noticed a puppy love between a couple haha. man, this is funny.Thinking it just makes me feel like laughing lol.On the other note, i have been bz thinking lately, about my future again .. serious i need money! need it to buy new hp,need it to buy sim card,need it to hang out. XP SO please,by any means, i must get a work! on a completely different note , i just noticed , sarang hae yo and dui shou... NICE songs ^^wah i am having enjoyable chats lately,hope this will continue ^^

Frustration

Education, does it really mean anything at all?I really do not understand the mind of our government nowadays.Why,of all means considered must they torture us with 10 subjects?I understood that this subjects will serve as our fundamental foundation at near future but Honestly, does it truly serve it's purpose?I don't think so. Instead, it is more like a mental agony to us.....For instances,if i were to choose a career not related to Physic,Chemistry,Biology and History,why on earth am i studying those subjects now?How are they gonna help me?Wouldn't it just be much better if we are given the freedom to choose which field of interest to indulge in or rather which subject that are intriguing for us to study?Life would be 10 times happier this way ^^.

I do realize that knowledge itself is precious.However,what i mean to say was just that couldn't we be given choices to make on which subject to study first?After we master the subject we like,then only we proceed to gaining more knowledge on other subjects.Well,initially why do we actually study all these subjects?Is it because it can make an all-rounder out of us?If that is the purpose,than this whole thing is meaningless and pointless at all!People,BE REALISTIC.We are just mere humans,it is definitely IMPOSSIBLE for us to study and store everything in our brain.On the other hand, it is definitely possible for each and every one of us to have something to excel in. So,what we should do is to find that "something" which we can excel in and master THEM!This is the way teaching should be, that is to lead us to find that particular "something" =)


Unfortunately, i still have to face the fact that in our country here, we are bound to study whatever we are instructed to regardless of our will .=.= Thus, this is what i should do now that is To strive hard and pass this bullshit exams and proceed on getting a good college/university and finally get to make decisions!!!

Actually, i am ranting all this out now because of my biology test.When i am having the bio test,i felt like i am having the time of my life!No no, it isn't because of the difficult test nor does it because of the inability to answer ANY Question.lol >< Well i am having a time of my life thinking of my future.The bare thought of me failing the exam and proceed into a bad class just scare the hell out of me.Man.. i really scared.. and at the very time, i really don't know what to do.I finish Bio i just 1 hour. With a lot of blanks.Ah well.. there are no one to blame except me myself... I knew at the moment i hand up my bio test, my fates are sealed.I know i am going to fail.But if.. if and only if By any chance, i end up passing this test and able to get in good class next year,I swear . i swear in the name of my pride and honour , i shall relentlessly try my very best to get straight A's in examination. ( this year even though it is end year, i didn't spend much time reading =.= )Well, i guess that is all for now.On the bright side,it is nearing holiday soon , so cheers ! XD enjoy as much as we can... b4 the result come and haunt uS!

Meaning of life....

1.39a.m 22nd of Oct
Meaning of life? What is that ? what does it means?What does life holds for me?Does it have a purpose?I have been wondering these questions ever since i watch Honey and Clover just a while ago.yea, i might sound crazy but no!I am perfectly sane.My examination is just a day away... and i am here blogging.My mind is empty.BLANK.I do not know why.My friends are all having stress and tension regarding our upcoming exams.Well, it is not like i don't care about exams.I DO CARE. i know this is important and should be at utmost priority but no.Somehow in my mind, i don't care about exams.....

All there are is life.I was wondering , What really is it?Everyone got their own purpose of living.What's mine?Is it to care for the one you love when you found it? Is it to work for your dreams?Is it just to keep living for the sake of it?i don't know.So, what if you achieved your dreams?So,what if you found the love of your life?Is that the purpose of you living? Try imagining this,if you knew that you will only have some time to live,what will you feel?Do u have a different perspective of life now?Do you start to think life is precious now?To those people who wish to commit suicide,YOU ARE STUPID!Life is precious!

I might be too young for this.However, i want to think of this.There shall be much obstacles in my way in future.Therefore,i wish to truly think of a path that suits me and will continue to move on to it without interferences but... can i do it? Is that the purpose of my life?No i don't think so.After much hesitation and perplexity,i thought of this.Everyone is destined to die one day.So, everyone strives to live their life.Thus,my purpose of life is to continue living through everyday meaningfully!As long as i live,i shall make a legend for my self! To achieve my dreams, To find the love of my life and to care for her.That shall fulfill my purpose of life.Until the last breath of mine, i shall not hesitate to move forward.As long as i live my life well, i shall have no regret!Gambateh!

One Litre of Tear~

This drama... It isn't anything ordinary.Fellow readers, if u think u have watched the most touching drama,Think AGAIN for this is indeed the most touching drama EVER being produced(for me at least) I would like to quote this article from here

"

This dorama is about a girl who was diagnosed with a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old, and was able to continue her life until her death at the age of 25 years old.

The plot is based on the true story of a Japanese girl named Kito Aya, who had the same disease. She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no longer hold a pen. Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from her family, friends, and boyfriend. Her diary “1 Litre of Tears” was published after her death, because of its inspiring and courageous message of, “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.” So far, over 18,000,000 copies of her diary have been sold."

This drama truly inspires people.. It is definitely worth watching!

15th of October...

10.09p.m
UAh... today is just plain weird..everything is boring .. lol boredom..
B-O-R-E-D *yawn*

11.37a.m
Now, it is time to rise and shine! or .. is it.Nowadays , i find on9 really meaningless.I mean what is the point if none of your friends are on9?MAN and with exams around the corner,do i really have the time to on9?Damn! .. *sigh* no Point venting out my frustrations here because i need to do something about this.So here i go! wish me luck!

1.00 a.m
No comment!I tried to on9 but unfortunately,the moment i on9, my mother came in... and with that i was forced to sleep..However, No i didn't sleep.I just couldn't sleep yet.I dunno.. i Seriously don't know what was i thinking back then.I just keep thinking... and thinking about exams,about friends and finally i gave up.The More i think of friends and on9 friends topic especially, the more i was drawn into darkness.Finally,I can't think anymore.The total state of depression,demotivation,desolation or whatever you call it.. they engulfs me and all of them piles up and became a big burden.As i plunges deeper into this abyss of darkness, i realized that i was all alone...Exams,Friends,,.No , i DOnt fear those things anymore .. for i already lost all that..And with that i lost consciousness.

USELESS CONNECTION!

... as of today, i am damn pissed off at two things! 1st) the incapability of my useless streamyx connection that render me unable to talk to anyone on msn. Screw that . Why do these kind of things usually happens to me? And when this concerns my fren, i am usually DAMN PISS OFF! Thank you streamyx ThANKS A LOT FOR RUINING THE DAY! 2nd thing that piss me off .2nd) TRUST ! this words are very important! once someone put a trust on u, it is important to keep that trust.HOWEVER on the completely opposite side, the person who put the trust on someone else should be confident that he/she who holds your secret won't reveal it or to spread it to the whole world.So , if you put a trust on someone . you shouldn't doubt him/her anymore.
NOW, this is the thing that piss me off!Apparently,this someone tells me about something ends u warning me not to tell anyone else!!! WTF ler.This is what i hate !I might not look like a trustable person, but i can guarantee here.That I swear I will NOT BETRAY THE TRUST OF ANY OF MY FRENS! Not a single one!

The importance of blogging~!

wow ! until now i have thought of blogging as just a place to spend my time only when i had nothing better to do! However , upon stumbled across this quote from Diana Lim from advertlets,i realize what a BIG mistake i had made! Here , i would like to share with you all ,my fellow readers her quote : ""When I started blogging, I knew that blogs will outlive a blogger’s life. So even when I’m no longer in existence, my children and grandchildren or even great grandchildren will read about me..." WOW, Now this is the purpose of blogging.Indeed , as she quoted, we should keep our own history whether if it is for the reminiscence of our past, for the view of our children , or for whatever else purpose. So , from today onwards, i shall start to update this blog as often as i can! ^^ for i do not wish to leave my memories being bitten by time!

P.S on the completely different note :
here's a great link to share ^^
DATA CRYSTAL

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Endless dream.~~

Touching Tale~.. .(P.S. i wonder if this really happens in real life?)
The title is Because i am a girl by KISS.

Fantasy world....

Life.. Really is meaningless and dull isn't it?Somehow , in fantasy world , we won't feel that.In world such as Drama,Anime,Manga, and etc ... fantasy world, Things just are too good to be true,Ain't them.. However , somehow,incident in this "fantasy" world might just happen to you in real life! who would have know.....Indeed, in some way the fantasy world will reflect what is happening to you in Real Life. And these incidents will somehow change the way u live.In conclusion, we can deduce that depending on what u face , it will change your life.... " what you view ,will change your point of view..."

at the end, it just a crap by me... another one of my incoherence musing ...

┼Anime┼

Well , upon reading the title i believe many readers will think " such a lame post" or something similar to this.However, i still wish to express my perception about anime. I guess some of u would define anime as just a lame animation or cartoon of some drawings.However,i ,for one would like to describe Anime as a realm iPublish Postn which one finds it's inner-self.Maybe , you might think i am over-exaggerated or these is just plain hyperbole yet i believe some of u out there will think the same way as i do. anime which usually started from mangas or comics actually is a realm full of fantasies and dreams in which one might not find in the real world.It is truly a fantastic experience once one discovers an anime which suits him/herself. As u wander in it, it will be a life-taking journey that will unfold your inner-self.I find it rather peculiar for me to be saying this, but here it goes....there are indeed some animes that are Bad or rather worse which might cause u some traumatic experience ( ok i am exaggerating here XP).Despite all that, do not fear to explore other animes as there are a lot others that are nice.Here i wish to recommend some of them which is
Honey and clover and Colour Cloud palace.These animes are really Nice as it really brings the questions and thoughts that wander in nowadays society into a fantasy realm.As u watch it, u will find it rather intriguing . here is the preview of some of it's episodes.Enjoy ^^

SHARING IS CARING? my ass! i shared too much .....

*NOTE: b4 u read this post.pls beware of the HARSH and RUDE words usedIf u r a person with weak heart ,STAY AWAY ! ^^*

Alright ... here it goes..all my anger.... all my emotions....let it FLOW..

FUCK man.! nO MATTER WHAT IT IS I AM SO DAMN PISSED OFF AT YE(Young Enterprise) now....Why u might ask?Alright , there is a guy named N.... After all our members gave up hope d..He is the only one standing and doing all the work. But of course , i DID HELP by doing all the frameworks and designs. Alright now i salute him for that BUT one day , he ask me to give him my psd files for the header design ...Ok so i gave him.BUt then the next day, the annual report change completely , he modified my header design and removes ALL my subcovers design ( WHICH I TOOK a lot of time to make them) DAMN ITTTT and now he is asking for my contents and covers psd file WTF.PSD files are all my hardworks.. i dunno what is wrong with ye. it can just go and die....

Ponder and wonder....

Sometimes i cant help but keep pondering and wondering about on9 virtual life and real life... I mean when u on9 and talking it is like it isn't u anymore, when someone goes on9 i believe that their personality will change.lets take for example : a guy labelled X in real life is a completely quiet,innocent and extremely shy guy ,However in the virtual realm , he is like the exact opposite of what he is in real life- talking non-stop and on9 24/7 and etc etc...I guess this is what ppl call alter-egos or the inner self of somebody right? Well , we can deduce here that sometimes , ppl talking to u on9 might not be the same when they talk to u in real life. Here is another example to illustrate this effect:

Let's back to X , X well as stated in previous example likes to talk on9 with a lot of ppl, however in real life , he is just another quiet ,innocent and extremely shy guy.Let's say one day , his best on9 fren(to make matter worse, lets assume it is she) whom he never meet be4 in real life Meet him COINCIDENTLY and say "hi , X how r u ? ".Being an extremely shy guy , what would X do facing this situation?

Overzealous - the way of destruction....

You should watch out for selfishness, conceit and the over-concern

with appearance. You must guard against overzealous behavior, anger and

aggressiveness. If these qualities are not brought under control you could

become excessively domineering, vindictive and even violent. You perform best

when you are left to your own devices. Hold fast to your life's dream and work with the

determination you possess to realize it. You can become overly stressed by your

driven nature. Be careful about the food you eat and maintain an exercise

program you enjoy. Competition sports are often a healthy outlet for a person with

your drive, particularly sports involving running and swimming. Don't let pride and

overconfidence be your masters. Remember, your talents and abilities are a gift

from a higher source, which should promote gratitude and humility, rather than

pride and conceit.

OVERzealous? Notes* that paragraph was attained from han decoz's life number numerology.Google it if u wan to know more about urself

Plain Procrastination .... or So,,,

Well, recently i found out many things to do .. ( as usual) which again i cant help but just keep procrastinating it .... over and over again..Somehow i rather stay on9 and doing those mumbo jumbo stuff like playing rather than doing something worth spending my time on....WELL this shouldnt happen to me.I Need to do something ...and fast.! alright from now on , i shall start working XD ( *grasp* can i really do that ? LOL) to those who is reading this , dont be like me .Spend your time wisely.Time is precious!!!!! ( alrite off to learning html and css... >< it is hard man)

Little points SIgning In....

Recently, i don't know was it because of my mood swing or because of other reasons , i felt it is pointless signing in msn.Reasons? Simple. It is just because there are nobody who will on9, Well i Do understand that now is the exam season and everybody is busy studying but...well it is just plain boredom to just sign in and watch all your contacts busy or off9.. Haiz i got things to do but as i said in my last post, i simply cant bring my self to do it! >< o pls exam season ,pls pass off faster!

LiFe is Meaningful.

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;	5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,	10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.	15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

.For the past two days, i have been in the state of depression and demotivation.Today,as usual, i thought it would be a mundane day as we begins our schooling day again.Time flies when the lesson is boring ..... HOWEVER,upon reaching english lesson,something happen.My english teacher taught us the poem " The Road Not Taken " .As he explains the meaning of the poem, i felt a strange sensation rushing through my heart.AS ge explains more n more n relates it with our life,i begin to awake from my sleep.My English teacher said a very inspirational things while teaching this poem.He said "WE STARTED DIENG THE MOMENT WE ARE BORN INTO THIS WORLD.Therefore,as long as we live,live our lifes to the fullest!!! IF u are a father's son, be the best son.If u are someone's friend,be the Best friend. " indeed this phrase of him completely struck me.And this poem too is very meaningful.From now on,the clouds has cleared.There are neither doubts nor hesitation in my mind.I am ready to move on towards a BRIGHT FUTURE!.

BLOGS-the tool which unites ppl

haha recently,i rediscover the meaning of life.I Find reading ppl's blog is very inspirational and at some point,might change ur very life.INdeed, i agree that blog are absolutely the most ultimate tool to inspire n to motivate ppl. Even Tunku Mahathir said "“bloggers are the only hope left for this nation.” Thank you blogs.u have keep me alive from dieng in boredom XP

Expressionless,Emotionless...is there a truth in it?

Recently, i met a lot of problems. that i believe only under the sincere guidance of my heart can i overcome it,Nobody can help me........With works ,works and more works., i can't help but react back with a sigh.However as time progress,i find nothing out of it.I really find it pointless to do anything at all.What i need to do is what i need to know Now. Until the very last moment , i shall continue my quest for answer...forever and ever.......

Life....

Life..sometimes i wonder y we even bother to study/work at all.I mean no matter how hard we study or work ,we will still die .Is that right?So,actually what is the point of we living at all.?From the moment we are born , our life are sealed. WE study , then work ... then die.What is the point of earning money if we cant bring it with us when we die....Well , i have been thinking that there are no meanings to live ... Until someone said a particular phrase ... that is "harimau mati meninggalkan belang,manusia mati meninggalkan nama." i was completely awaken .This phrase which when roughly translated means that if we are bound to die, we should at least do something good and important while we are alive so that at least our names can be remembered. I Find this phrase very true.Life is short,So while we are at it,DO GOOD THINGS and most importantly do whatever ur HEART GUIDES U.if u think something is right,then pursue it. Achieve ur dreams....After all this , i finally realise... life isn't meaningless ... not as long as u have friends and dreams.

Amazing 3d animation ^^

wow when i come across this video , i was amazed by how well the 3d modeling n lighting rendering to produce this nice , superior animation
This is an amazing 3d animation by the TONG STUDIO u can visit it here or just warch it directly here ^^ in my blog .( btw u might wanan close the music that auto play in my blog first)

YEE HAAA!

harlow readers, today i got great links to share with u all ! ^^
I find this song Very interesting n Nice : i believe By Fan Yi CHen(originally it is korean song)



n this site :
Crunchyroll
haha well thats all for now . I shall post it up if got any more great links to be share. Remember "SHARING IS CARING " ^^

YEAH!

wow ! so happy .Never knew even creating a small 16x16 favicon would be so hard XD alrite finally uploaded it YEAHHHHHH ^^ n i done an animated wan too ^^ (actually it isnt a big deal for other ppl, i just write this to express my exhilarating emotions ^^To those who don't know what is favicon yet n wan to create one . Go this site. WEll then Gud luck in creating ur own favicon,readers ^^

MERDEKA!

Hmm.. recently i seen many ppl posting or rather blogging about the 50th independence of our country. In M'sia ,streamyx monopolises the broadband service.know y ?let me reveal it to u all bloggers.Read this article of streamyx from wikipedia.

Last mile monopoly and lack of competition

TM Net's parent company, TM Bhd., has a monopoly of the last mile connections.^[2] Unlike the EU, Malaysia has not passed any legislation for the unbundling of last mile connections.^[3] This gives little chance for other third party companies to compete with TM Net and has thus created an unhealthy business environment. It is believed that the unbundling of the last mile connections is key to enabling new ISP's to fill the nation's growing broadband demand.^[4]

However, the last mile monopoly has also forced the other companies like Maxis Communications to provide wireless internet access services. Prices for these services still remain relatively expensive.

AHA! see so thats y streamyx using the last mile monopoly by tmnet is able to monopises the broadband SERVICE in M'sia.. not to mention their slow speed and constant DCness...I myself was a victim of Streamyx's incompetence.. For the past 3 years.My internet connection has been in constant DCness condition. almost DC every 5 minute....for those who wans to know more about the incompetence of streamyx Pls check Here and Here .*Note* Pls do understand that i didnt write this article just to condemn streamyx. i just wish it could be better n improved.

Hmm.... well i think except that aspect there r nothing else bad about M'sia..Actually there r Gud points too in M'sia..One of them,FOOD!XD Food has always been the best in M'sia. there,here r some pics to make salivas drooling out of of u all ^^



Apart from that,M'sia is also famous as a multi-racial country.AHA! now this is something to brag about ^^For years, Malaysians r able to live happily together in perfect harmony.I am very Proud of that.Thank YOU MALAYSIA.



Hmm M'sia is Not Bad actually ^^ Well then Happy Birthday Malaysia^^n may it continue to be peaceful forever !!!!!! MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA!

*sigh*..

Haiz.... y sighing ? u might ask... WEll coz i am too damn frustated over my incapability to do anything T.T ...i wan to learn this i wanna learn that .i wanna Do hw i wanan study..But then again i just cant bring my self to do it? I just keep procrastinating it ....until the DEADLINE! ...o.O scary .... well , i guess it cant be help.I am a type of person who do things according to my moood =) Awaiting the next mood swing ^^

WARNING FOR ALL MSN USERS!

Dear readers ,
i am sure some of u already aware of a new Msn virus that r let on loose right now.But for those who yet to realize,this virus is actually Trojan.Win32.Delf.ads.
It basically "disguise" it self as an zip filed titled "Picture Album2007.zip" or "MyAlbumGallery.zip" or something similar like that .
anyway this virus once it infects an user's com, it will automatically Spread it influence to all ur contacts.And so when ur contact send u this files n ask Questions like "do i look Nice with this pic"That means that zip file is a virus. DO not accept and Do not Blame ur contacts too as Maybe even ur contact Do not realize he/she being infected. Some gud antivirus like Kaspersky and Avast can detect the virus . However for those who already got infected,do not fear there is a cure .

This solution is By lil" snow princess blog n is FULLY credited to her and not me.

Solution:

1. Force your pc to shut down. Press restart button or power off button if shut down doesnt work.
2. Plug out ur telephone line.
3. Turn on ur computer and go to Run: regedit

4. Go to HKEYLOCAL_MACHINE/SOFTWARE
Microsoft/Windows/CurrentVersion/ShellServiceObjectDelayLoad

5. Find the key "Prodigy1". Note down the value under Data, then delete "Prodigy1".
6. Go to HKEY_CLASSES_ROOT/CLSID. Find the value u've jot down in #3 n if u find it, delete.

7. Go to C:/Windows. Search for *.zip and PictureAlbum2007.zip should show. Delete it.
8. Restart your comp. Before it reaches windows, press F8 & restart comp in safe mode.

9. When in safe mode, go to C:/Windows. Search for prodigy. Delete Prodigys323.dll or sthg similar.
10. Restart your computer normally! Voila!! YAY!!

U can get more info about this virus from this sites :
lil'snow princess's Blog

Billy's blog

Eres1noob's Blog

NOTE* the pic above is credited to Eres1noob's blog . i Am just help spreading the message ^^

Sharing is Caring ^^

ppl always said " sharing is caring " n i always like that quote ^^ therefore today i wish to share some Nice n COOL (for me)videos with u all

here is the 3d animation of Tong studios ( i find it very amusing n amazing as the animation is really smooth)

Here is the live action of Naruto (an anime) with special Fx ( it was amzing coz of it's FX, well the japanese ppl Do really know how to animate n do special fx)

n here r some tutorials website to guide u in doing it
Great sites for making film animation tutorial :
Creative Cow or Video Copilot

Great site for software n design like Photoshop,Flash , Css,Html and etc.
GoodTutorials
Html Dog
Go4Expert

Time.. Time..

Honestly , ... readers. Do u all ever think that time is not enough ? Well for me i always Think so ^^ CAll me not having time management or whatever.... well indeed i MIGHT not have enough time management .. However , This isnt the point ! the Point is DO 24 hours actually ENOUGH for us,humans to do everything we desired? Theoritically , YES.Lets just said we did a very organized time management.For Example,(lets take on a role of student) 5 hours for study,5 hours of doing stuff we needs to do , 2 hours of doing homework... well that makes up 12 hours which is half the amount of time granted to us. Then again ,do u really think that we r actually capable of doing that? I have seen a lot of people boasting around "I have time management , i can organize, i can do everything" Nevertheless, how many ppl r actually capable of achieving this? Not Many .some of my friends does actually succeed in doing this while most others r just "ALL TALK n NO Action"

Argggggg! man i hate this . IF only i got more times , i wan to study , i wan to complete my assignment , i wan to learn more new things...

Ppl said knowledge is precious.I think so too. thus i want to learn more things n via internet i CAN do that but,.... one problem remain... i am lazy ...ZZZ haiz laziness....This behaviour has alaways be a part of my self ...Whenever i saw something cool on net (such as cool youtube videos n such...) i truly wish to learn them however that thinking only lasted a while . In a nick of time , my mind begins to convey a powerful message telling me that " I am too lazy for this" n well ... back to on9 again .haiz haiz... apparently i could concentrate in learning what i wans only at Night time... does that proves i am nocturnal?well i dunno haiz... well well if only one day i could extend time.........if time could just stop How great would that be?

Intro

Harlow! and ...erm... hmm...well i am quite interested in Other ppl's blog instead of myself .Well what can i said,it is just human's curious behaviour to just have a sneak peek in other ppl's life?But hey y the hell would i blog then? u might ask.. well of course for fun n to express myself ^^ though i wish to remain as mysterious as ever but still i couldn't forbid myself from trying the excitement n thrill of blogging ^^ Here it goes,.. i go by the alias zen9night.so dear readers..hope i can entertain u guys n gals,readers ^^
O yeah not forgetting that my post may/may not harm the feelings of some readers but pls if that really happens, i sincerely apologizes first. n well my grammar are bad and my english is absolutely atrocious...so if there r any grammatical or linguistic error,Feel free to correct me... ^^